Hey, everyone, I just need a place to vent. About a year and a half ago I was miraculously saved by Jesus Christ. I am still so new and fresh to everything. If I told most people how Jesus revealed himself to me, they would not believe. But it was on a very personal level, just me and Him after I cried out one night.
I did not even fully believe that Jesus was REAL until this. Jesus basically showed me my sins, he opened up my eyes to the truth. Before that I really didn’t think the way, I was living my life was bad. But in that moment Jesus gave me all understanding that my life was a mess and my ways would lead me to destruction.
I was always very quiet girl. But I had some deep dark secrets. That I fought with daily. Instantly I repented and asked Jesus to take control over my life. Ever since then EVERY time I think about Jesus I am overly emotional. WHY? Because just the thought of what he has forgiven me for brings me to a place of worship (I can really relate to the woman who wept at the feet of Jesus).
When I read that in the bible I felt so connected to that story because my sins were MANY, that is why I’m so grateful. People around me don’t understand, some may think I’m being dramatic or faking, but I’m learning now that I don’t have to be ashamed to weep. I never in a million years though that anyone could have that affect on me.
Sometimes when I kneel down to pray I would just cry and weep so long. Because I’m so happy that Jesus spared my life. I realize everyday how I just didn’t deserve Jesus mercy, but He saw fit.
At first I thought that my emotions where playing tricks on me, so many times during prayer I would grieve the Holy Spirit. I would stop myself from weeping. Sometimes during the very early mornings, Jesus wake me up and I would out of nowhere start weeping for my loved ones and also lost souls. I get up with things I want to pray about but instantly my prayers would shift to praying for others.
I remember this one time I cried out for my sister with everything in me, just crying for mercy, after that prayer I was attacked by demons in my dream, it confused me so I woke up and wondered why would I be attacked if I just prayed my heart out. The next few days my sister got a HUGE miracle. I guess this is why the demons attacked me. But I did not fear, I had confidence that God was still protecting me. Do you know that, that was the MERCY of Jesus Christ.
Never stop crying out for your loved ones or people who don’t know Jesus, I pray that Jesus would save and reveal himself to everyone who doesn’t know him. I used to be embarrassed because I cried so much, but it has gotten much better. I could be at work sometime listening to gospel music, Sometimes I have to excuse myself and go to the bathroom to let out this river that’s in the inside of me. Most times after a peace that pass all understanding comes over me (THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD). It lets me know that Jesus is near and the he hears my cries.
You guys Jesus is so WORTHY to receive every praise. Despite all of the persecution I go through it is all worth it. I was a messed up woman, but Jesus is healing me and teaching me every single day. I can go on and on. Has any one ever had that happen? Where you just get overwhelmed with HIS Goodness?
Praise God! Wonderful testimony, may good Lord continue to use you for His Glory alone
Blessing
M
Thank you o much for sharing your testimony! It is a great reminder for me to love and praise Jesus with all I have in me!
I have yet to share my testimony here, but I will someday. When I first accepted Jesus at age 12, I was very alone in my life and I prayed in the night asking Jesus what it felt to be loved, and I was immediately filled with the strongest emotions and purest feelings of his love flooding my entire being.
Soon after I was attacked and lead astray in many areas of my life. For years, I felt that I had failed God, and I alone had to fix my mistakes. It has taken me 30 years to come back to Christ and ask for his forgiveness and mercy. I can see how easily we can fall into traps the devil sets out for us once we become his enemy as a child of the Lord and his light and love. Your testimony reminds me to pour it ALL out to God even more than I have already.
Blessings
N
Amen. Glory to God! Yes you should share it. With our testimony of Jesus Christ we overcome the enemy. God has a specif purpose for all of us who follow Him. He gave us all a gift and I truly believe that weeping is a gift from the Holy Spirit,
This verse is very powerful. It saying to call for the women that weep. When men and women of God come together on one accord letting the Holy Spirit have his way allows us to enter into the presence of God on the behalf of others and ourselves. Amen. Glory to God. I’m blessed by your comment ! It feels so God to see others in the will of God. We serve a merciful God even when we mess up He is there waiting for us to come back! Thank you Jesus. Bless your heart!
Praise God, I can definitely relate to your experience simply me. I often think of myself as Mary weeping at his feet. I cry in praise and worship at church or when I just think about his love. Often times when I share my testimony with others I would cry. I always tell them these are tears of joy because I haven’t gotten over what he’s done for me and I don’t ever plan too.
Amen, Glory to God. Yes its impossible to ever forget what He has done. He is so amazing.
Yay! What a wonderful testimony! Thank you for sharing that. It was very encouraging to read.
At the moment I’m overwhelmed with His goodness. The past few years have been incredibly hard and then just this past couple months and then especially this past week it’s like God opened a window and blessings are just pouring out. VERY THANKFUL indeed! : )