Last night I went to bible study over my aunt’s house, because what I’m going through in life as a young 25-year-old young lady I know I can’t go on without the help of the lord. So, I’ve been seeking God. But when I pray, I couldn’t feel him. I felt like He was ignoring me. Negative things just kept happening in my life. I couldn’t understand why….WHY ME? I checked myself into counseling because of depression. I started to isolate myself from people. I felt like the world was against me.
Fast forward to bible study. They only had 5 people present including me. My aunt and company were already praying when I walked in so I took a seat and closed my eyes and bowed my head. While my eyes were shut. Tears began to fall. Then my face began to screw up as my aunt called onto the lord. I was still crying at this point. I couldn’t control my screwed up face. My aunt and friend got up and began to pray for me. After 5 minutes of prayer my aunt asked the lord to release the spirit of anger, depression, manipulation from my body.
What happen next REALLY scared me.
I grew so cold I began to shiver. I could no longer control my body. I began to shake my head NO over and over again. My aunt was holding me down in the chair… at this point my body was shaking all over. She just kept saying release her! Asking God to take over. I even began to scream! My hands which I could not control grabbed hers trying to remove her hands from head. I even tried to get out the chair…I had the urge to throw up. MY BODY WAS NOT MY BODY! It’s hard to explain.
I could not believe this was happening to me. In the process I felt myself back to my body, so I saw what was happening. I told my aunt I was scared, but something was trying to break the hold she had on me!! She told me to shout out to the lord and ask for help. I did, I was pleading with the lord.
My body would stop for like 2 minutes, but my aunt continued to pray so hard for me. Then it would start up again. She said she felt God in my body?! My aunt said I had multiple spirits of darkness around me & that those types were the kind responsible for sucide?!! It was literally a 40-minute prayer!! In the end my body went limp. I felt instant relief. This really scared me.
My aunt said that God had did his work on me and to be happy. She was crying so hard. Can anyone explain what happened!!? Was the Devil really inside me??
If we continue in sin it opens a gateway for demons to come and enter within us. Regardless if it was a demon or not Jesus has set you free. He loves you unconditionally. We shouldn’t live by sight but by faith (2 Corinthians 5:7) Sometimes when I pray I can’t feel anything either but i know God is always listening and always comes through. Put your trust in him. Nothing is ever too big for Jesus trust him.
Your sister in Christ XoXo <3
God has said there is a condition to His love, you must believe.
His love was given unconditionally, but it is not kept unconditionally. This is very important to understand, there is a reason for eternal fire, and it was made by love. For, “God is love.”
We must believe.
Thank you for sharing your story.
I have been dealing with fallen messengers (“angels”) as well. You may have heard that this is what an evil spirit is, they’re liars and thieves as Jesus says.
If you believe in Jesus and so confess your sins to Him, God promises that no evil spirit can lay claim to your soul and control you for their own purpose. ( 1 John 4:4)
In your case, it sounds like they were dominating you, or possessing you because you had not yet been submitted to Jesus. Sounds like God did not let them do very much, out of compassion for you. I’m speculating, and basing this off of what I have read from His Word.
Sounds like a really intense situation. I’m thankful we have you with us forever.
I encourage you to read The Holy Bible every day and to always ask Jesus to teach you what it means.
Have you read the story about the man at the tombs?
(Mark chapter 5, Luke chapter 8)
Good story to know and learn from.
I hear the enemies of God and they give me unwanted visions that make me feel gross and depressed. God rebukes them all the time and they come back. I think my case is more like Paul’s, “a messenger of Satan is given to me to torment me, to keep my humble.” (2 Cor 12)
I’m not sure, but I know I have eternal life. For it is written, “Whoever hears my word and believes Him who sent me has eternal life.” (John 5:24)
I will pray some for your faith to increase.
Thank God for your aunt too.
Peace to you.
One thing i got to understand is when we sometimes pray, especially when God works on us, we don’t necessarily have to feel anything physically, there will be no physical change on our bodies but it only takes strong faith to believe it is done, but whatever happened to you my sister, only believe there is nothing greater than God for he is the controller of our lives, if you can only believe in him and put him first place in your life, you will surely see greater works of God in your life. Amen
From what I’ve understood from the Word of God, the Bible, deliverance of demons was 1/3 of the ministry of Jesus, most of us need deliverance from something, the sins of our past open up doors for the enemy to come and dwell in our soul. The Holy Spirit dwells in our Spirit, and that place is separate from our soul, but demons can come into our soul, if we open up a gate through sin, or it can happen through trauma, such as molestations and even some other traumatic types of situations.
The Bible teaches us that we war against the spiritual powers in the high places primarily (Ephesians 6:12), that our war is not in the flesh or physical. Call out to Jesus in prayer always. Make sure you are completely released from depression and all the other things that were gripping you, these are demons at work and those are the kinds of things they do to people, In Jesus is true freedom.
Yes your aunt was right. what happened is what we call deliverance. Indeed Jesus did His part, now you should do yours.