Hello friends, I recently experienced a great miracle in my life; on the granting of which I promised God that I would share my testimony about his amazing power on this site from which I read so many inspiring stories when I was suffering from depression during the preparation time.
From 2015 January I started my Advanced level examination oriented studies right after my Ordinary level exams. I chose to do A/Ls in the Biological Science stream, without having any clue of how horrid a turn my life would take because of this decision. In order for you to understand my story fully, let me tell you a bit about our education system.
In my country we have a free education system which makes students eligible for university degrees depending on their A/L exam result. And all government exams including University degrees are given free of charge. So the whole island competes in a deadly manner to get each of their spots free and fixed in the unis. (Since there are not enough universities in the country to give all students sitting for the exams a spot in the degree programs) So this exam is by far the toughest exam anybody would face in life. And because of this huge competition, tuition classes play a huge role in exam prep. but that is the very thing that ruined me since I was a self-study person. And that was a gift God had blessed me with. So my exam was held in August 2017. I would not have enough space to describe all the mental trauma I had to go through during those two years.
So I sat for the exam. My subjects were Biology, Physics and Chemistry. Physics was certainly the hardest for me. So despite all my efforts throughout the last two years, on the day of the Physics MCQ paper, I took the paper to my hand and when I started reading it, I wasn’t reading anything at all. I went blank. I couldn’t understand a single word in the paper. Most people who know wouldn’t even believe this because through God’s grace I was always the top in my class from small days. I got 9As for O/Ls and frankly I wasn’t ready to have any other grading other than an A for A/Ls (which is a stupid obsession as I now realize).
And I almost cried at the exam because the way I was writing it would do nothing but fail me. ( and trust me I was so fed up of this exam and angry about all the damage all the so called tuition classes had done to me that the the last thing I wanted was to repeat this exam). So I took guesses for all 50 MCQs in the paper. GUESSES FOR EVERY SINGLE QUESTION. What was all my effort for if this was how I would perform at the most crucial exam in my life? What was I going to tell my parents? I was in shock.
When I came home all I did was cry, cry and cry for 2 full hours straight. My head was paining so much that I wanted kill myself. And I questioned God,
“why did you do this to me? If you don’t want me to do science why did you not make me choose another stream?”
Trust me I was so angry with the whole world at this time.
But then friends something I couldn’t think of happened. I kept on telling God that I’ll fail and there’s no way I can pass (and which person on earth who takes guesses for all 50 qs would pass???). Then I told God “I’m not going to believe in you anymore. you don’t listen to my prayers.” But after I calmed down something told me tell God “No Lord, this is an impossible situation in my life. And I know that because you’re my God and you’re almighty, nothing will be impossible. And what meaning do I have in my life if I can’t hope in you when HOPING quite literally was not even an option here.
Then I was led by the spirit to take the bible and read a passage from Jeremiah which said You will know that I’m your God.
And dear friends, I could’ve easily given up on my faith on that day, but I held on to God hoping for something impossible to happen. The physics 2nd paper was better than the 1st. And throughout the 4 month period I was awaiting results, I prayed the divine mercy chaplet every day asking for 3As. But when I came closer to the day of the results, I prayed just for an S pass, just a pass because I dreaded the feeling of studying all 3 subjects all over again to re-sit an exam that completely destroyed me.
And mind you, I was not a person who could be happy with just any result but this time I just hoped I’ll PASS.
Overall I couldn’t do the other two subjects too well either. I had faith in the blood of Jesus, the divine mercy and in the mediation of St. Anthony.
So results day came. And my dad checked my results at midnight and we found out that I have passed Physics. I couldn’t believe my ears friends. The impossible has been granted. Oh how great is my God. ALLELUIA! ALLELUIA!!
My results were:
- Biology – B
- Chemistry – C
- Physics – S
Everyone who heard my results said that I should re-sit the exam and even my teachers, myself and God told me that if I do again I will surely get 3As. And most of my family was not happy with the gradings because I used to be a grade A+ STUDENT.
But my dear friends, anyone would be ashamed of the simple pass that I got. But i, a child who was programmed for A+ Gradings in life was taken through a hard, horrid journey of 2 years and was stripped off of a terrible pride and self-centered life through God’s hands. God had created a reputation for me, and he took it away from me and chose to give me all the gradings BUT an “A” in A/Ls. to teach me a lesson in life. My dear friends, what matters in the end is not your constant Grade As or high ranks. What matters is holding onto God, believing in him for the impossible things in life. even when the whole world screams around you that it CANNOT be done. An d I’m so grateful to God that “S” pass more than the B or C pass.
Now I’m getting ready to do my higher studies. And mind you, all other children in my class got nothing more than “B”s and “C”s and when I compare their results with mine I can’t fathom how God gave me this result.
My message is this – Have faith friends, our God is a great God. When I was praying I heard his voice saying ” I will not make you fail this exam because you chose to believe in me when you had no reason to.” And trust me when I say that the hardest thing I ever had to do on the 1st day of the physics exam was to start studying for the 2nd paper believing only in the power of God.
Believe in him! even when you’re tempted to give up on him. Believe in him for the unreal, the impossible, the wonderful. Your faith is what matters, not your grades or ranks!
Thats amazing. Exams are a terrible thing. My best freind had a breakdown studying Politics. God got her through it, but even now at the age of 60 she has nerve problems. It’s taken many years to sort the pride out in her. And my sister in law was studying to be a doctor, she had a breakdown and has been schizophrenic and on meds ever since. That’s what the stress of studying can do. So we praise God for that miracle in your life.
Thanks for sharing your story, Warrior, and for your comments about your friends, Deborah – I too struggled with depression and anxiety through stress at university – I was in effect studying two almost full degree courses at the same time, and was not a follower of Jesus then. I can look back now, and see how God’s hand was on me, even when I was not acknowledging Him. I was greatly helped by a faithful student counsellor who listened to me week after week during my course… I did get my BA Honours degree in music and French!
Warrior,
What a wonderful testimony! Faith sounds so simple on the page but the PRACTICE of having faith, that can be very hard. We find out what kind of people, what kind of Christians, we are when we get into what looks like impossible situations aka when the rubber meets the road. Recently I read a saying, not sure the original source, that “Faith is the down payment on our future.” and that is so true. Faith being the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen (Heb. 11:1). God bless you in your future endeavors with God.
Wonderful
Amen! May his name be praised to time indefinite!! He is indeed a faithful God. He makes a way where there isn’t one. I am happy for you my dear sister! With him, nothing is impossible!
Kuka
Thanks for the honesty in this testimony. Most people tend to exaggerate; undermining the power of God to do exceptional. He gives everyone in deserving measure and as per their faith.
I used to exaggerate when I was young.
I am thankful for your message. I am presently going through a lot of stress and anxiety and as I sit here I am presently at a coffee shop about to study.
My exam is on March 29, 2018. So if anyone is reading this prior to that, if you can, please pray for me, pray for a miracle. I have failed all my practice exams and haven’t seen my scores increase as much as I’d like. I’m taking this exam by faith, I think this will dictate where my future goes. I mean, I Take that back, God dictates where my future goes, but this exam will probably reveal what God really wants.
The deal is, I’m studying to become a doctor in the US. I studied medicine in the Philippines and now I just feel downright stupid for wanting to become a doctor in the USA. I am not that smart.
I did give up on God’s miracles and ability to do the impossible. I just want to take this exam, get it over with and start my life. I think He took me here for no reason, I think I might have heard God wrong when I started medical school. I don’t have hope right now.
The funny part is that, at certain days, I feel like I do have hope, but today, since my exam is in 3 weeks from now, I feel like I should just give up my hope and remember I’m not smart enough for this.
I give up on God and his dreams, and my dreams.
Please don’t lose faith in Him. His word says in Mark 11:24 that ‘whatever you’ve asked for in prayer, believe that you’ve received it and it is yours’.
Once you’ve prayed about it without doubting, do your part by studying and He will definitely show you His power. If it is His will for you to be a doctor, you will definitely be a doctor by all means, if you follow His guidance. I definitely have you in my prayers. May God be with you as you study and take the exam!
God is indeed faithful and I can totally relate to this testimony. From when I was young until my college days, my life was full of struggles especially for a student like me who was aiming to be a top student in class. At first, being at the top just made me feel great but as years went by, it became a responsibility, then later on a burden, a burden that I’ve carried until I graduated from college. Competition inside the class was very tough. I gave my best shot to be good at everything, There’s a lot of pressure from family, friends and people surrounding me. Everyday was a battle. That is the reason why I worked really hard for 15 years that I was a student. To be at the top, I aimed for perfect scores in everything from exams, to school projects, to quizzes and more. Exams are indeed terrible. They suck out energy from you and they are a pain in the head. I remember the time when I took an examination for a college scholarship. It was one of the best scholarship that you can have in my country and that’s what makes it very hard to pass. I’ve only learned about the scholarship a week before the examination and I literally had no time to have my review and prepare for it. I had to rely on guesses in order to answer those difficult questions.
I really faced a lot of struggles for me to reach my aspirations in life. It was not an easy journey.
But one thing is for sure: IF YOU PUT GOD IN EVERYTHING YOU DO, YOU WILL EXPERIENCE THE WONDERS OF HIS GRACE. Since I was young my dad taught me to trust God in everything, and I’ve seen how God blessed me with so much blessings, successes and achievements. He let me experience things that I’ve never thought I would experience. No matter how difficult life would be, you would have that peace within you because you know that you are safe in the hands of the Almighty. Yes, there were failures on the way and you won’t get what you want but remember that God has prepared something better for you.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
Praise the Lord.
Praise the name of the living God, am so happy to share my testimony today because I read series of testimonies online and I was motivated, and I promised god that I would share mine hallelujah. In my national diploma 2 1st semester when our result was release I checked it and I saw I got three courses failed (extension) I was so weak that period don’t know what to do, my beloved I refused to take that as my result I began to pray and fasted because I said I won’t repeat that courses twice, some of my course mate knew about. When we finally rounded up the program I proceeded to my one-year industrial training without checking the result again. When it was time to rewrite the extension exams my course mate called but I told them I do not have any extension (power of faith) he was surprised at the moment, he kept calling and I still told him that these extensions were not mine that they waved it, I believed god to a greater miracle and when the result came out I told him to check mine and he told me I had no extension that my name is on graduation list. Praise the lord.