This whole year, 2007 & half of last year, my drug use had just escalated. I got to the point where I needed it every day. I had become a different person; mainly because of coricidins. A box of over-the counter cough pills. It was a full-time job. I have stolen so much money because I was also smoking marijuana and coke. Everything revolved around this. You can only imagine. I’m not going into detail.
Well around March I had really hit rock bottom, and everyone was worried. It was obvious. After I got expelled from school. I ran away, got raped, ran from the police, and ended up in Rehab in April from the 1st -12th. Well to make a long story short, I did good for a while, met a guy at an AA meeting, then started going down the same road again.
This is the interesting part. Me and my boyfriend fell into the same trap and were barely hanging in there. I took 13 ccc’s that day and he took 16. Well, he grabbed his old “blood” bandana from his house. And we went to his old drug dealing friend’s house. His friend’s name was Cash and this other guy’s name was Conner. He rolled up a blunt and we went outside.
Once I had smoked some weed, everything, the trees, and people became really clear. Like better than 20/20. At first it was cool, then it became scary because his friends looked like demons and everything they were saying was evil.
Then Cash comes out the door with a gun and I got this clear vision that I was about to die. I told them I think I’m about to die, and they should put the gun away. Then everything was obvious they were demons trying to kill Me. I said: “Chris (my boyfiend), I gotta talk to U.”
He was like it’s alright. I looked at Him and he was like totally brainwashed, blind. So, I said, “Okay Let’s get back to normal. Don’t pass me that no more.”
Cuz I was freakin out. and the whole time Cash and his friend were talkin to me. I was thinkin No if they were humans, they wouldn’t be talking like that. I was going crazy. But it was so Real… I dont remember exactly what happened or how I got the clip to the gun, but I got it and walked outside where we parked saying I would give it back when were in the car.
Cash and Chris followed Me outside and just stood there. I said Chris get in the car. Cash was like give me the clip, and he tried to grab it. But I was holding on tight. I said let go. Let go. He wouldn’t so I said,
“Let go in the name of Jesus,”
and he just froze. Then He turned around and told my boyfriend to get in the car before he beats his ass. and he did.
We got half-way down the road. Chris couldn’t drive. I said, “Get out, let me drive.”
So, I drove. after not being able to drive for 3 months. and I wasn’t even familiar with that part of town, But Jesus was guiding Me.
By the time we got home (didn’t get lost at all.) As soon as I stepped out of the car my head was clear like I hadn’t been doing drugs at all. Like I was completely renewed. I went in and my Mom said that usually she doesn’t look in the paper but that day she happened to see the winning garden of the month, or something and it said 821 Brittany Lane. Thats my name and my Birthday. I was reborn. I won.
