I grew up in church. I felt like I was a good person who loved the Lord and lived for him. It wasn’t until my senior year of high school that I started hanging out with the party crowd. When I got to college I partied even more and drank at least most every weekend.
One night I left a party drunk and decided to drive myself home. It had been raining that day. On the way home I ran off the road and my car started spinning in circles. I spun into trees which beat up all sides of my car. Once my car came to a stop I was in complete shock. I wasn’t hurt so I put my car in drive and drove on home.
My car ended up being totaled. I got a new car after that. As if that wasn’t lesson enough for me to not drink and drive, I did the same thing months later. This time I was banged up pretty bad and ended up spending the night in the hospital. I got a DUI this time. I completed all the court ordered DUI classes, but I still didn’t learn my lesson. I took those two blessings that God had given me for granted.
Several years later my brother, my now husband, another one of our friends and myself we all sitting around drinking. We decided to go riding. We rode over an hour away from home. We stopped by the river and climbed around on the rocks by the dam. That’s something I would prob have never done sober.
Hours later we made it back about 5 minutes from home and we wrecked. My husband and I were thrown out of the vehicle. Where we were laying on the side of the road, the truck had to have flipped through the air over me and if it would have rolled once more it would have landed on my husband.
My husband’s arm was popped out of socket and his eyelid was gashed open. My C1 and C2 vertebrae in my neck was crushed. I had a huge gash on the left side of my head that required 28 staples. My jugular vein was severed in half, but it clotted on its own. That was the work of God!
My parents were told by the doctors that when that vein is cut most people bleed out within a few minutes. The doctors said there was no medical explanation for how I was still alive. It was all because of God!!
The trams hospital that they took me to had 2 other people in there with the same exact break I had, but they were both paralyzed from the neck down. I could walk and move everything like normal, except for my neck because of the rod they had to put in it. I ended up getting an infection in my neck and had to stay 19 days in the hospital. I had to go through several more surgeries because of the infection.
I will never be able to thank God enough for all he has done for me! My husband and I tried to get pregnant for 3 and a half years with no success. We even went to fertility doctors and still nothing. We prayed hard for a baby, but I honestly doubted we would ever have one. My hope was almost gone.
In October of 2019 I found out I was pregnant. We now have a healthy baby boy, praise God!! This past October we were at home in our trailer and a hurricane came through. It woke us up out of a dead sleep at 11 that night. The wind was horrible we knew we needed to get out of the trailer but we’re scared we wouldn’t be able to make it to the vehicle.
A few minutes later we heard the loudest noise and our whole trailer shook. A tree had fallen on our trailer. We were in full panic mode and called my dad. He got out in the storm and come got us. God protected us!!
Not long after the hurricane I started experiencing panic attacks and having bad anxiety. I ended up spiraling down into depression. I am still battling with this. I have seen several doctors and started medication. I have talked to therapists but it only helps temporarily. The dark bad thoughts that plague me are still there.
I pray everyday for healing from this. I know God didn’t bring me this far in life for depression to defeat me. I know God will fully heal me of this in his own time. I pray that my faith and trust in God stays strong to get me through this.
The other night while laying in bed, I felt like God spoke to me and told me it was time to share my testimony. I have been reading a book titled “Agent Out Of Your Head” by Jennie Allen. It has helped me some. I highly recommend reading it! I think of my life as a continuous testimony for God. He has strengthened my faith and taught me to always trust in him. With God all things are possible. Please keep me in your prayers!