Hello beautiful people, I was lost for the past 23 yrs of my life and when I was told about our father, and about Lord Jesus Christ who sacrificed his life to save us all, I was very happy. God revealed himself to me a number of times. It’s been 2-3 months now, but I have started to lose faith. Somehow, I am now full of anxiety, hate, anger and mistrust. I don’t love anyone I feel. I have become extremely insensitive. I feel that I am full of jealousy 🙁 I feel like I am fake now. There’s always pretense. I go out of the way to keep someone happy and then I start hating it after some time.
I just feel sad that I am unable to bring myself in GOD now … which really makes me extremely unhappy.
But last night, I got a really scary dream. I saw myself getting angry like crazy about something i can’t remember and my head started to become extremely heavy and then numb. And I could not hear a word and I was getting dragged by my head. My mom was right there, and she kept screaming and repeating “who’s there?” This is all that I remember, and I wanted to discuss it with someone. But I don’t feel I can discuss it with any of my friends. I am seeking help from you all … I don’t want my faith to deteriorate any more, instead, I want it to grow stronger and be blessed by Him again.
I feel very lonely. I stay in the US, far away from my parents. I don’t have any good friends here with whom I could be myself. With whom I can discuss. With whom I can talk … like talk talk. I am not seeing anyone and…I don’t know. Things are just not fine here.
Please someone guide me, and pray for me. I don’t have the strength to bear this any more. I need your blessings and your prayers.
God bless all of you.
Perhaps you should take it to the Lord in prayer and wait on Him. God bless.
Dear Aakanksha
I’m really sorry you are feeling so bad at the moment. It sounds like a really hard place with no one to talk to too. Please know that the Lord LOVES you so much, you are SO precious to Him. He sees every detail of where you are and understands. He cares. He is beside you even this minute as you are reading this and wants you to know how much His heart is overflowing to you.
He is a mighty warrior who will save you. Dear sister, keep your eyes on Him. You give Him great delight and pleasure. He rejoices over you with singing. (see zephaniah, chapter 3, verse 17.) He is working things out for you. He doesn’t condemn you for feeling bad but always holds His arms out to welcome you. (see Romans, chapter 8, especially from verse 18 onwards).
A big hug to you!
love,
Joy
Let me first say, GOD LOVES YOU! He truely does! He loves you just where you are. I honestly hear exactly where you are at in your spiritual walk with God, and I feel for you. I hate to hear anyone struggle, but its always for our own good. Faith doesnt become stonger by wishing it… Faith grows stonger when it is tested. You are at the point where faith is standing alone… without the ‘excitement’ and ’emotion’… faith isnt dependent on your emotion or how you feel, it is simply faith on its own… believing!!! Believe your way through this dark time in your life. Believe that God is with you, even when you cant feel Him! Believe God has your best interest in mind! Believe that all things will work together for the Good!!! Believe my friend!! Believe!!! You can trust Him! I know its easier said than done, but you can get through this. God would’nt bring you to it, if He could’nt bring you through it! Walk with God through this tough time in your life and I promise, you will grow! You will mature spiritually, and you will be better for it! Those things that seem to destroy you will actually be the very thing God uses to lift you higher, to a place where you overcome! God cannot fail, therefore if you are in Him, you cannot fail either!
Just a little word of advice… Darkness will flee where the presence of the Lord is… and When you Praise… the presence of the Lord will come…. Praise God!… Just Praise Him in Song, In prayer… and darkness will flee. I speak this from experience. It always works for me! Your in my prayers friend… Your not alone!… peace and joy be with you always…………..
Thank you. This is so true. Put on the garment of praise even if you don’t feel like it. Put on praise music
God will not let His righteous fall. Trust Him and truly hand your life over to him. Began reading the bible, getting involved in the church, and talk to God like a best friend. Find a confidant you can confide in. God will work His holy spirit in you if you have faith and persist in knowing Him. He loves you and I am praying for you!
HELLO,brother! sometimes i feel the same way you felt.if possible,could i send you email to chat with you?i hope we can establish a relationship.
God loves you, He really does. Just, don’t give up on HIm because he won’t give up on you. I would advise you to seek out a prophet or prophetess and see if the may have an interpretation of your dream. I’m a dreamer also, God sends me dreams back and forth encouraging me to intercede for others. Continue to seek Him, and these tings will begin to make more sense to you . God Bless ! (:
Here are some Bible passages I encourage you to meditate on.
Deuteronomy 31:6, 8
Psalm 46:1-3
Psalm 139:1-16 (below)
O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. 2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar. 3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways. 4 Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD. 5 You hem me in–behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain. 7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. 11 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. 13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, 16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
God gives us dreams as warnings, so if you saw that in your dream He is showing you what’s in you. Please go to Him and confess it. Don’t deny it. I felt that feeling of loneliness but remember He dwells in the thick darkness and the light so He’s with you, You have power to overcome. Jesus also said that we have the Holy spirt but He is also our comforter”I will promised “I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.”
-John 14:18
Stay strong