God Saved Me from Shame

I am a Christian and I believe that God does wondrous things. I never felt that God had done anything for me but believed in him anyway. I have never really experienced God’s great works first hand until today. It has been a rough year for me. My hours at work got cut in half and the bills kept pilling up. It got to the point that I was about to have my car repossessed, and get evicted from my home.

I am also a full time college student trying to get my degree in Nursing. Feeling desperate and hopeless I placed an add in my local craigslist offering myself sexually for money. I saw no other way to get caught up. I couldn’t get a loan because I had nothing to offer as collateral and was having a hard time finding another job. I had quite a few offers from my add but one in particular stuck me as something that I should respond to. He was a VP of a loan department of a bank. I talked to him on the phone and we agreed to meet. As I was driving to meet him at a local coffee shop I felt the guilt and shame creep up and felt sick to stomach. For the first time in a long time I prayed. I asked God to forgive me for what I was about to do because I felt like I had no other choice.

So I met this man and we talked a bit. I showed him my letter that said I had until the 28th of August and then they were going to repossess my car. I swallowed hard and offered myself to him. He smiled and told me to follow him to his house. As I was following him I prayed again and asked God to show me another way. A calm came over me and I knew that everything was going to be alright.

When I got there I was going to tell this man that I couldn’t go through it and be on my way. We arrived to his house and I followed him inside. I then started to cry and told him that I couldn’t do it and that I will just have to find another way. What happened next renewed my belief that all things are possible in God’s hands. The man smiled and told me that he had no intention in using me sexually. He just wanted to meet me and see if I was really in need. He then took out his check book and wrote me a check for 900 dollars and we made an agreement that I would have until November to pay him back. I started to cry even harder and he just hugged me and said,

“see you in November”.

I just wanted to share this so that other people can see that even when are at our lowest. God will provide for us.

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