Hello everyone. Recently I became a Christian and was saved by the Lord Jesus Christ when I let him into my life and submitted myself and everything before Him. It’s been about one month or so now since and things have been for the most part very good, but I’m still struggling and need some guidance.
Even though I know the Lord is with me and I shouldn’t feel this way, I often feel pretty lonely. The reason I feel this way is because most of my friends that I associate with aren’t Christian since I was friends with them before I was saved and introduced to Christ by a different friend. I constantly feel conflicted because I still enjoy some of the old interests that I used to partake in with my friends, but I know they’re sinful. I have drawn the line at some major areas though. Like I stopped drinking and smoking which I used to do before I was saved. I guess I just feel at a loss because I feel like all of my friends and associates aren’t Christian. Their morals and values don’t reflect mine anymore, but I still care for and like my friends…
I feel like it would be wrong to stop being friends with all of them. But when I hang out with them, I feel inclined to sin, whether it be in my speech, or in the temptation I feel to act in certain ways. I’m pretty torn on this currently 🙁 I feel like I’m losing people, my old life, and even at times my own identity. Don’t get me wrong there are a lot of things I’m happy to be rid of… But there are somethings I’m confused on or don’t know about.
Besides this issue with my friends, I also am feeling anxious and restless lately. I was struggling with this prior to being saved and becoming a Christian and it was really bad, now its different though. I have so much time on my hands and I don’t know what to do with it all. I’m tired of indulging in selfish interests. Not only that but I constantly feel now that I’m Christian that I have to try to be perfect which is leaving me disappointed all of the time because obviously I fail at this since I am a sinner.
In relation to this, being a new Christian I need some help in figuring out how I’m suppose to think and what I should be doing with my new life. All in all I just need people to pray for me because I’m struggling with all of this and any insight would be much appreciated. Thank you and God bless.