I see all these people sharing testimonies all around me and I envy them. In my personal life I have to be honest and say I see nothing but labour, toil and hardship. I have prayed, I have begged, I have cried heartwrenching cries, I have fasted and I am tired, this is too much. It is not working for me.
What if God doesn’t deem me worthy, what if He doesn’t care, doesn’t have time. I am weary and at the end of my tither. Wait on Him you say, wait on His time, till when in this lifetime?
I am angry with God right now and I honestly do not see, feel, or hear Him. Look at the birds you say, look at the sky, the fields, what about them is what a say. I need proof honestly that God exists and that He loves and hears me and I should not fear asking Him to show Himself and prove Himself.