I need help.
I am a teen who lives on an island. On this island there aren’t a lot of teen Christians. You usually get made fun for being one.
On the start of 2023 I repented for everything, and I promised to not go to my old life. I started praying and reading the bible more and then suddenly I stopped. I felt my spirit dying and I started back but down in December I lost myself again and went back to my old life now.
I feel ashamed and I have a heavy shoulder like I have a big bag of burden on my back. I repented and begged God to forgive me. But I still feel this burden, all because I wanted to be a Christian but also wanted to fit in with my friends.
What do I do?