So… God led me through a really hard time in my life recently. I don’t really want to get into details, but my boyfriend left me a week before our 3 years and 7 “monthoversary”. I was completely devastated. I couldn’t breathe and sleep. This all happened like a week and a half from today.
Right now, I’m seeking God’s will because I want what GOD wants for me because I know that without His blessing, my marriage won’t be blessed. I know this was God’s will for this to happen because it opened my eyes to the relationship that I didn’t have with Christ. I still love him so much and miss his like crazy. I’m trying my best to trust in God and just give Him my whole life but some days I just lose it. I don’t know what to do or how to act. We go to the same church, and I have to see him almost every day.
I really want to get married and start a family and I’m ready for that in my life. I still have hope sometimes that me and my ex will get together again after Gods works on us both individually. But on the other hand, He might not bring us together again. It’s so hard! But I put everything in God’s hands. I just need patience to wait on God and to stay close to Him. Please pray for me everyone who reads this. I need the Lord’s guidance and strength.
Hi Deena, the most important thing is to seek first the Kingdom of God, which is the Holy Ghost. We on our own make foolish decisions without the leading of God’s Spirit. It’s a good thing that you are drawing near to God. If you and this boy is meant to be it will be, but the best thing now for you to do is to establish a relationship with the Lord and receive His Holy Spirit.
Dear precious princess of Christ,
You know 2 years ago i went through the same situation in my life, my ex bf of 5 yrs left me one night, i was burning with anger but wounded deeply in my soul, but then i had no other option but to chose Jesus, so im glad i made the right decision my wrong decision was to commit suicide but by God’s grace i chose the right one, to seek Jesus for my healing.
Well, 2 months went in frustration, then on 1st December 2010 I was about to give up on God and threw away my bible but God is so faithful he blessed me with His Holy Spirit baptism that night itself, he brought me to repentance for all my past sins, cleansed me with His blood and gave me His Holy Spirit, the amazing peace flowing in my heart since then is perfect, cannot be described in words, that night itself God gave me strength to forgive him with all my heart, so much that I actually started praying for His own salvation.
God never left me, He told me it was all His doing, he only scattered us so he could bring us to Him because we are His temples and His temples were lying in ruin only to be destroyed in hell forever, God is a zealous God, He can’t bear this so he has to bring that brokenness in my heart to save my soul and all those millions of people who are to be saved through me, so you my friend are God’s chosen one that is why God had to step in and let him go off your life, because your life is going to effect millions of souls he is gonna give you, you wouldn’t want to break the trust of God would you, ofcourse you wont, just know my dear…you have lost nothing but you have actually gained eternal life and millions of souls from this brokenness, also your ex bf will be saved by your powerful prayers that comes from a broken heart, so fear not rather be glad that you are CHOSEN.
I know it hurts my dear, God allowed me to forgive him in just a night but it took a year to heal my soul wounds, i kept asking God why why why this and that why not this why not that why me why me and stuff but thanks to God he bore it all and still filled me with His love and compassion.
Healing of soul is not like instant noodles, it takes time, it takes Love of God and trust me you will not be disappointed with what your going through. later on you will understand i was right.
Now i have deeply thanked God with tears of happiness probably million times now after 2 yrs for what happened 2 years back, I was dead in flesh but now I LIVE.
I come forth like gold, he is preparing me to be a noble wife, i dont know who is my husband, it could be my ex as well but that’s up to God, I’m not gonna interrupt in his work in me because my life is gonna effect millions of Soul so yes im richly blessed that it all took place, i now have Jesus in my heart and He works many miracles through my prayers for others on daily basis, what more can i say….I AM ACTUALLY LIVING NOW, i was dead for so long but now I LIVE, im truly in tears right now with gladness that God brought me to your testimony and told me to share my life with you so you would know how much he loves and cares for you.
One most important thing my dear…start praying to God for your Holy Spirit baptism, without the Spirit of God we are still dead, pray and you will be given but when you ask believe that you will receive it, I didn’t believe but thanks to Gods faithfulness He still gave me because I needed it for my survival.
You can read my testimony on…”Rain the biggest miracle” just type it on google, the first page is mine, it depicts my life 2 years ago and how God carried me through it all.
He tells me to share these two verses with you that he gave me on those days when I was struggling in faith, but he kept me firm:-
Isaiah 43:18-19
18 Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
Hosea 2:14-20
14 Therefore I am now going to allure her;
I will lead her into the wilderness
and speak tenderly to her.
15 There I will give her back her vineyards,
and will make the Valley of Achor[a] a door of hope.
There she will respond[b] as in the days of her youth,
as in the day she came up out of Egypt.
16 In that day, declares the Lord,
you will call me my husband;
you will no longer call me my master.[c]
17 I will remove the names of the Baals from her lips;
no longer will their names be invoked.
18 In that day I will make a covenant for them
with the beasts of the field, the birds in the sky
and the creatures that move along the ground.
Bow and sword and battle
I will abolish from the land,
so that all may lie down in safety.
19 I will betroth you to me forever;
I will betroth you in[d] righteousness and justice,
in[e] love and compassion.
20 I will betroth you in[f] faithfulness,
and you will acknowledge the Lord.
Just take it easy and allow God to prepare you as he is doing already, trust me you will never regret it, NEVER
Thank you so much AsianJesusLover and Zoe_Selah. Your words spoke very deeply to my heart. I do have the gift of tounges through the Holy Spirit already :)but thanks for the encouragement. Please pray for me to have patience in Gods work. Im seeking Him more than ever now. Im thankful for everying, good and bad because Im in Gods hands.
Thats very true and you must avoid doing anything now other than pray to God make sure that the things that you are doing are best to understand rather than push them. Breaking up with your boyfriend ws for a reason and you know knowing and coming back was the reason. but there is a thing, if God really meant for you to work and live together you will always find yourself coming back to the same table.
God works in miracles and you can make good use of this time to thank God that you are back. pray to God to show you a sign for your relationship. It happened to me. She broke up with me and I felt like everything was going down, and one day she called, and when she did, she asked for friend ship and I really wanted her back but I had to pray for it and know what is happening, but these is what happened I was revealed what really happened and when I asked her and told her that I know everything, she told me it is not true and denied, so I had to continue praying and ask God to guide me in everything. I told her even friendship was not possible because she didn’t even respect the fact I know she was cheating. But the best thing about this who deal is that I have come back to christ. I will always serve Him and nothing will ever come between us.
Just trust in God and have faith for anything will come back. God will give you strength.
He is so awesome that He will give you everything better. Have faith.
the only thing that you could do is to make yourself busy serving and seeking God more, God will show you great and mighty things, read the bible, and have that desire to be hungry and thirsty of His word. God bless you always and be with people that could lift you up. Surround yourself with people who can make you happy and be encouraged.
But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. -Matthew 6:33
Forgive him. and continue growing in the Lord. God has a plan for all his children.
God Bless.