“I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.” Psalms 40;1
Tonight I want to talk about how God heals his ppl. How he rescues them. I want to talk about the things I’ve experienced before I was reborn.
“Then did they spit in his face, and buffeted him; and others smote him with the palms of their hands,” ??Matthew 26;57
The most degrading thing anyone can go through, being spat on& mistreated. At the age of 19 I was in an abusive relationship.. I remember one time I had a gun to my head.. I had no self respect for myself , I didn’t love myself or even knew what true love was.i couldn’t go out with my friends. I couldn’t have a Facebook.i would get called names. I didn’t realize how broken , how dead I was. After I got out of that relationship i would wake up & just want to drink, I wanted to numb all the pain. I didn’t want to deal with my emotions. A week later after meeting this guy I moved in with him. I wanted a quick fix. I wanted to forget and avoid my broken soul. And that’s what happens to us sometimes , we want to replace the hurt with people we go from relationship to relationship bringing our baggage or even tryin to fill the void with physical things but those things are only temporary not permenately. God is the only thing that lasts forever for eternal life. He’s the only one that can fill the voids.He’s the only one that heals and restores.
I was 23 living with this man, In a drug house , we both had our issues. I was angry, bitter, I didn’t really like people. I was selfish , I still hadn’t let go of the abuse I had gone through. I had a broken ugly soul. I was depressed, I felt incomplete , I would think what’s the point of this life if we’re all just going to end up dead. How can a broken person love themselves or even love anyone else?
“He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle that was against me: for there were many with me.” psalms 55;18
2 yrs after I finally returned back home. But I was angry at God, I didn’t understand ” why I could never just be happy” I thought God didn’t love me. I remember feeling numb, lost, didn’t know why I was goin through this..I grew up catholic, I didn’t know much about God but one day I googled positive bible verses.. And I know this was the scripture that changed my life & saved me. At the time I didn’t really understand it but it set a fire within.
“Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid: for the Lord Jehovah is my strength and my song; he also is become my salvation.” Isaiah? 12;2
November 23.2014 was the first day I came to church. I was hung over. I had rashes on my body from all the stress, I remember that day there was a preacher from chile & he did an altar call & I went up , he put his hands over my forehead & he prayed for me. Later that Sunday evening when I got in the shower I noticed all my rashes were gone.
Today I can stand here joyful & happy. I still have things I need to work on but as I continue to grow in my spiritual faith I continue to witness gods glory in my life& see him working in parts of my life little by little. My spirit within has changed, I’m no longer walkin dead but alive. Forever grateful to the lord for saving me. Where would I be? Because there is nothing in this world that can fill me up like worshipping my king. I kneel before his throne because I’m humbled by his mercy and grace. He saw me at my worst, he pulled me out of the broken filthy life I was living, dusted me off & loved me. How can I not worship him?? To worship him I live, My desire is to see people encounter his love the way I have. I hope to one day help young girls in abusive relationships because anything is possible if we surrender ourselves to our lord.