I Am a Testimony of His Grace

I am a born Christian, but I didn’t really feel connected to God. Since I was young, I used to pray only general prayers about my family’s wants and needs. My parents used to tell me that I am chosen, but I never understood that at the time.

When I joined college, I went through many struggles. I felt so lonely. People came into my life and seemed important to me, but at one point or another, they all left. I was betrayed by fake friends who spoke behind my back. Even the one I called brother, my male best friend, my “everything,” walked away. Finally, I ended up thinking,

“Am I too bad that no one wants me?”

In those days, I cried at night and slept at 3 AM. I was so depressed. Later, my heart slowly understood and I tried to adapt, setting boundaries so I wouldn’t get hurt. Outwardly I changed, but deep inside, I couldn’t make it. My tears even dried up, and I couldn’t cry anymore. Somehow, I started going to prayer meetings, hearing God’s Word, and meditating on the Bible. I didn’t follow regularly or with much dedication.

But then, after hearing about God’s love, faith grew in me. I realized that even though many people may not have wanted me in their lives, God wanted me. Jesus left the ninety-nine for me (Luke 15:4) – the lost one. I started getting closer to God.

Even now, troubles come, but I know my God is with me and He will lead me. My life has been changed into a testimony. I used to be filled with hatred, lustful thoughts, cheating in exams, disrespecting elders, jealousy, and many more sins. But God moulded me, and even now He is moulding me into His beautiful vessel (Jeremiah 18:6).

Today, I hold onto His promise: “You did not choose Me, but I chose you” (John 15:16) and “I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Hebrews 13:5). Truly, I am a testimony of His grace.