Its been 9 months since I broke up with an x of mine and for some reason there hasnt been a day where i haven’t thought about her. We only went out for 1 month we wereÂ perfect at first but in the end some stupid stuff happened and we ended up just seperating. HonestlyÂ IÂ was really heart broken like never before when we separated but because of the heart break,Â myÂ relationship with God grewÂ alot becauseÂ I looked for him even more for comfort.
SoÂ GodÂ actually used thatÂ relationship and the heart breakÂ to draw me closer to him.Â We really havent talked at all in those nine months, I have been focusing reallyÂ more on my relationship with God and what not. But for some reason… I have not been able to forget this chick at all. You know, you would think that I would forget this chick in 9 months of no communication at all and it being just a relationship that lasted 1 month but for some reason she has been on my mind constantly.
I pray for her alot because she is always on my mind you know. I worry about her honestly sometimes too. I recently had two really serious dreams of her back to back. Both the same concept but different backgrounds and settings. They both potrayed her being lonely. I’m not gonna describe them because they are really long but in both dreams she looked really lonely. I really dont know why I cant forget her…sometimes I ask God to help me forget her but its always the same. Is this weird? is this me or is God trying to do something and I’m just not paying attention?Â Trusting God.