Recently a young man in our church youth group committed suicide, despite the best efforts of the youth group leaders and the teenagers who loved him. He gave up on life when his home life became unbearable; his father having already committed suicide and his mother a drug addict. In hopes that this post will be seen by someone who is considering this solution to their overwhelming difficulties, I am going to share with you what I never shared with this young man.
About 14 years ago, I was caught up in sin. The nature of the sin isn’t really relevant to the discussion. I was breaking one of the Ten Commandments, and as a born-again Christian, I was swimming in guilt, and fear of being found out. I found I could not escape my sin nor my guilt, and suicide seemed like the only answer. I considered several methods, and one night I decided upon which method I would use.
The next day at work, I was sitting in my cubicle, and felt compelled to pull out the small Bible that I kept in a desk drawer. I opened it, and it fell open to 1 Corinthians, chapter 6. Immediately my eyes fell upon verses 19 and 20:
‘Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, which you have from God? You are not your own; you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body’.
There was not the slightest doubt in my mind that this was God speaking to me about my plan. And it was the last time I have ever considered suicide as the way out of my problems, and it was the point at which I broke free of the sin that had me in its grip.
Correction: It was 24 years ago, not 14. My math is not improving with age!
Wow, you see. God can even speak to you thru this !
Amazing testimony. Thank you for sharing this.
Wow. That is amazing. It so awesome how God Loves and Cares for us so much. Praise the Lord-Richard
hi richard you know it is so awesome how god loves and cares for us. and i know everything that was taken from me god will give it back.my testimony also is letting you know how god just wants to test us to see how much faith we have and sometimes he will let us stumble in order to get our attention. god bless you!!!!!!!!
I am glad things worked out for you.
Since that time, I have hurt some people so much that they probably would rather I had proceeded with my plan, and I can’t fault them for that. I just finished reading John Newton’s biography (the former slave ship captain who later wrote the hymn ‘Amazing Grace’), and he had something to say to himself in his latter years (and to those of us who can’t forget what we have done). Above his fireplace were these scriptures: “Since thou wast precious in my sight thou hast been honorable. But thou shalt remember that thou wast a bondsman in Egypt, and the Lord thy God redeemed thee”. The first verse is from Isaiah, and the second from Deuteronomy.
we serve a wonderful God, one who cares about us regadless of what we think of our selves.i thank God he saved you.and pray that your testimony might help save others out there as well
A Gritty testimony of deliverance.
My name is Rev Verona Allagoa-Rose. Three years after a personal encounter with Christ, I was ordained in 1993, and have been a Godchaser since then. Unfortunately, I went through a divorce in 1998, after 18 years of marriage, and obtained custody of my three children. Almost immediately, I began to hear and sense a demon spirit manifesting in my house. There were different awful manifestations such as horrible smells; rubbish; rotting meat; farts, and food going bad. In addition, there were doors shutting and objects falling down.
This spirit told me that it was God and that it had come to make me pay for my sins. It followed me about everywhere with abuse and compelling requests that I commit suicide. It went to work with me, shopping and worst of all to church where it did everything to stop my prayer and worship with verbal abuse and the most disgusting smells e.g rotting eggs.
My Senior Pastor had no idea of what was happening to me and continued to preach the prosperity gospel. There was little preaching of holiness and no efforts to start deliverance sessions to set people free. Because I was a Minister, I tried to get rid of this spirit on my own through the usual channels of praying and fasting and commanding it to leave by the power of Christ and by the blood of Jesus. Nothing worked, and eventually the Lord warned me that it was a principality and that I needed to get help from someone with an anointing bigger than mine.
Simultaneously my daughter began to suffer from bipolar affective disorder, and every time I sensed this evil spirit manifest and go and stand behind my daughter’s chair, a terrible fight would erupt between us. She began to suffer from agoraphobia and was unable to leave the University hostel to go to classes. In addition, she was attacked with confusion and memory loss, and was instantly unable to cope with the calibre of her studies at University.
She failed her exams at University and could not sustain relationships because of the dreadful anger which the Lord described as coming from spirits called the furies.
I eventually left the church when I found a church with a more powerful anointing. Here there were regular deliverance sessions, and the gospel was preached with signs and wonders following. It was here that I asked the man of God for help and told him what was happening to us. He prayed for me and asked me to go back home. When I returned home, my daughter was healed and delivered, and the evil spirit was silent. I became a deliverance minister in this church and was used by the Holy Spirit frequently. It took a little more time but by the next Easter, I woke up one day to the most ethereal smells, the scent of a rose; the sharpness of chloroform, and the sweetness of the lily.
I heard the demon spirit begin to scream. He’s killing me, he’s killing me. That was the end of the evil Spirit. My daughter is back in university and coming top in her class regularly. As for me, the attacks of chest pain, memory loss, and insomnia have stopped.
I give the Lord the glory and plead with the Christian church to sit up because of my testimony. Depression is not a chemical imbalance that can be cured with seroxtat and other pills. Depression is a spirit with a mind and a malevolent purpose. The voices that people hear when they are depressed are not figments of the imagination. There are wicked spirits behind those voices and their intention is to destroy the living and to keep them as far away as possible from the Living Jesus, the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords.
Each time I dressed up to go to church I was attacked with foul odors, my belly swelling up, so that no clothes could fit; chest pain, or sleeping inappropriately and even snoring in church. I have listed some of the manifestations of the demons which I noticed personally or which I have seen others experience in my church, More than conquerors ministry, in London, England. Please check my website veronarose.com. My book is titled The archbishop and the deliverance of Verona Rose published in 2007 by Iuniverse. It can be purchased at Amazon, waterstones, WH Smith and major bookstores by telephone order. It is the first of a Trilogy which will describe the activities of demons in the Church today and how to get rid of them.
May the Lord witness the truth of my message to you so that you will live in victory through living in holiness. He is a holy God, thrice holy and cannot be compromised. Please put this article in your magazine for the edification of the saints of God. Hosea 4.6 states that people perish for lack of sufficient knowledge. People need a knowledge of the activities of demons’ spirits and the challenges that other Christians have faced with them.
I will be delighted to serialize my book for free if requested. My prayer and desire is to start a revival which will destroy the devil, who is sitting comfortably in the church; and the spirit of Islam, which is deceiving millions worldwide and keeping them away from Christ. If you are in prison, you would have noticed that you were in a kind of prison long before you were caught and jailed. That is because the demons who were controlling you and producing your negative behaviour had you bound and addicted to evil.
Read my book and you will be astonished at the horrible spirits who can take over people’s lives and push them to doing evil in order to destroy them. Jesus Christ is waiting to set you free, if you repent and ask him for forgiveness. So that when you are eventually released you will be a testimony of God’s goodness; and you will never go back to a life of evil.Check my website and buy two copies of my book, one for yourself and one for someone else you that you want to lead to Christ. The Lord will do it using my testimony because it is unusual and powerful.
God bless you. May he set you free as he set me free.
Rev Verona Allagoa-Rose.
veronarose.com
God bless you sister. Hang on
Thank you for the testimony.I have a problem “mental disorder” that has ruined my life and turned me in to an idiot/stupid man that i never thought possible.I struggle just to function and i have become a recluse.I am a young man and this should not be my life.I am strong and would love to work and study and earn my daily bread. Medicines/phychiatrists don’t help and i think God is the only one that can deliver me.
Peter, you will be in my prayers night and day, and I ask everyone else to pray for Peter, too. There is a place in Jackson, Tennessee called the Star Center that I am sure could help if only you could get there. I know they are not the only place, but I don’t know what is available near you.
Hi, Peter. I contacted a friend at the Star Center, to see what might be available closer to you. Please take a look at http://www.abilitynet.org.uk. I believe that the Lord led you to post that comment on my testimony. I don’t claim to know why, but I wouldn’t be surprised if it is because of my knowledge of what is available to help people with problems very similar to yours. Please post again. You are not alone!