I have been suffering in a deep depression for fifteen years. The meds do not work for me. My doctor said that I am a worst-case scenario as my illness is a 10 out of 10 in severity. Every day is pain torment anguish and fear.
This suffering keeps me focused on Him. There will glory and honor for me if I react properly to this affliction. I have 100% faith that God can heal me, but I know his ways are not my ways and he has good reason to allow this in my life. My hope and faith in Him throughout the suffering is a good work in his eyes. My salvation might just be possible through this suffering. One last thought, the devil works against himself, thats how magnificent our God is.
Luckily, I know that the enemy is the cause. Everything is fearful and confusing for me until it comes to God. There is a clarity there that helps keep me grounded and secure. I read my bible daily and pray out loud all day long. I know that my ways are not his ways, and this suffering has purpose. God has helped me conquer the guilt as I no longer give it place in my life.
I also know that I am not worthless, and I don’t believe all the other lies fed to me by Satan. There are many days that I don’t want to live but, in my heart, I know every breath is a privilege. In a way affliction in our lives is an opportunity to draw closer to God. We will receive glory and honor for our afflictions if we respond to them properly.
I always ask the Father in the name of Jesus, if it be thy will, please heal me. I have 100% faith that he can. Longsuffering produces character and patience. I focus on the positives of my illness. I know that God will heal me in his due time.
One last thought, remember that in God’s wisdom, the devil works against himself, that’s how glorious our God is. God bless you all. Mike
Mike, thank you. You are very brave. You give me hope and your words comfort me. What you say is full of clarity. I can relate to your story.
Mike, you are a truly courageous man of God.
“He knows the way that I take, when He has tested me I shall come forth as gold” (Job 23;10)
You mightn’t see it but there is already gold shining through, in fact something more precious than gold… The faith which the Lord has placed in you. Dear brother, keep your focus on the Lord, only He can sustain you.
I have been through severe anxiety and depression. There are no words to describe it. Through it all, the Lord is faithful.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.” (Proverbs 3;5&6)
Hello Mike Dona,
Praise To God who allows us to triumph over all things. Let me tell you this our God is a good God!!! I am living proof of that. It is ALWAYS and I repeat ALWAYS God’s will to heal us and he has already done so according 1 Peter 2:24 which states “He personally carried our sins in his body on the cross so that we can be dead to sin and live for what is right. By his wounds you are healed.” Key Word here is ARE.
Last summer was a particularly hard time for me. I went through what I believed to be hell. The enemy attacked me with illness (anxiety, panic, depression, insomnia, rapid weight loss) It was very scary, and I believed I had gotten to my end. Let me tell today I am HEALED!! Praise God!!
This is how I did it. I thought God was using this for His glory. WRONG I thought He had ALLOWED it to teach me something. WRONG!! I thought I needed to learn something out of it. Let me tell a lot of these false doctrines are causing Christians to live in defeat. OMG That is not what Jesus came to die for. We make His death to no effect.
I am not here to make you feel bad! I am here to tell you the truth and only that can set you free. God did not allow the sickness. YOU DID! and yes though that sounds harsh it did when I first heard it. Know this there are no positives to a disease!!! It is not YOUR disease. For He bore our infirmities…why are you carrying around an illness that does not belong to you???? WHY?? I know when you get ill for that long it becomes your identity, but Jesus came so we’ll have life and have it in full. When non-believers are walking around healthy, prosperous and happy it’s fine but when it comes to Christians, we have to accept it cos somehow, it’s going to develop our character.
To be delivered of this awful illness, you need to be tired of it enough of your suffering and rebuke the enemy for what he’s done to you all these years. Become aggressive in your spirit and declare your freedom. The word of God is healing to our flesh. Eat it, consume it whole heartedly and know that he has restored your healing.
Receive what God has already offered. I tell you the enemy will fight you but you have to be CONVINCED that you are healed though the enemy will still persist at his lies. Purge yourself of anything that is displeasing to God. Anything YOU know is not pleasing to God. Unforgiveness, strife, sexual sins, etc you know. It doesnt mean you have to be perfect. That road is not an easy road, and you need strong Christians (not dogmatic ones with the God has allowed this for YOUR good type Christians).
If you’re still having problems, shoot me an email yamiespy007 at yahoo dot come.
My ministry is to encourage others on their journey to recovery and freedom. KNOW this that God LOVES YOU!!! That’s why he sent his son for you to be relieved and live a wonderful life. NO KIDDING!! We are More than conquerors!! Amen.
Take care and God Bless.
Mike, I believe it is God’s will to heal you. How are you doing after all these years?