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Struggling. Please Pray for Me

Please pray for me, I’ve been struggling for close to two decades now. My earliest memories of something being wrong go as far as kindergarten and I’m 25 now. I grew up the ‘fat kid’ and was bullied verbally for it, it bothered me even back then, but I didn’t think it’d spiral into what it is today.
Most of my early life I’ve felt there was always something bothering me, I try to ignore it, I try to work through it, I try to improve myself and seek God, but as the years pass by, I’m losing strength. I was about 20 years before I even opened up to anyone about my struggles.

I’ve struggled with a number of things, anxiety, depression, lust, food addiction, lack of faith. Body dysmorphia, lack of faith, suicidal thoughts, lack of motivation.

I’ve been struggling with my relationship with God, it’s like there’s no strength in me anymore to get close to him, I still believe in God, but with the point I’m at both mentally and psychologically I just feel so drained. I almost constantly feel guilty. These days if I’m being honest, I barely go outside, the times I do, I force myself out. I don’t really have friends in my immediate vicinity. I want to accomplish things in life, but the same time I’m afraid of the change.

I don’t know what is wrong with me, I don’t know myself anymore. I want this gone; I want a change. I don’t know how much more I can take. My only hope is God; I don’t think any human being can help me anymore.

Please spare some time and pray for me.

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