I’m 13 and in 8th grade. I’m a Seventh Day Adventist and was baptized into the church…so I call myself a Christian; but I don’t feel like one. I’ve been having problems lately…
I’ve become very emotional. I began to cry for every little thing and wouldn’t know why…all I knew was that this type of behavior wasn’t healthy. I would call myself names such as: ugly, stupid, fat, untalented and worthless. I didn’t call myself these names because I was just upset…I actually feel like I’m those things.
Ever since my grades dropped…including my music (which I’m supposed to be good at) I became very upset at myself. I once screamed at my reflection saying,
“I hate you!”
I’m really depressed these days… and I start to write poems that show my feelings. I don’t remember the last time I prayed or the reason why I go to church. But I know that I feel like crap.
I’m starting to be afraid. I didn’t quite know what my fears were, but I know now. I’m afraid of death…that I won’t make it to the kingdom of God…that one day I might just die unsaved. I’m really sad…plz help me someone.