People in Pain

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I’m an 18 year old girl attending college this year as a Freshman. I’ve been attending to church since I was a baby and I am having so much trouble focusing my relationship with God. I don’t want to reveal my name but I’ll call myself Candy.

I don’t know where to start and I know this isn’t a testimony, but I really need advice and I want to know what should I do.. you know? But anyways, I am in a relationship with a best friend of mine that I have known for almost 5 years. He is the most sweetest person in the world. People would think we were a couple back in high school because we were always inseparable.  We didn’t start dating until our senior year.

Now, to get to what I want to say (pardon my grammar), we’ve only been dating for 7 months and our 8 month anniversary is tomorrow (the 25 of October), but I always question myself “Is he really the one?” He doesn’t go to a Christian church like I do. He was raised as Catholic. Of course I love him so much but I’ve been told that “Pentecostals and Catholics cannot be together due to tons of religious beliefs or few specific holidays (like Halloween).” I really don’t want my boyfriend to be left behind while I want to be saved. Yes, I want to be saved, but it is so hard for me to focus on God so much because I get distracted a lot. Of course I want him to be saved like me and other Christians, but I don’t know how to talk to him… I’m scared he’ll push me away and would not love me anymore. I don’t want us breaking up over religious beliefs.

We love each other so much that I can’t even imagine another girl being with him. I want him to accept Jesus as his savior, but I don’t even know how to do that or convince him to do it without pressuring him. I did ask him to come to church with me but he felt like people would see him as an “outsider” and judge him so easily just because he’s catholic. I explained to him that people in my church would always welcome new people and it doesn’t matter where they come from, everyone is welcome. I told him to think about it and let me know if he really wants to. I really don’t know what to do. Is there anything I could do…? I really don’t want to let this guy go.