I have no trust in my “friends.” I get competitive and jealous of them, and am not happy of their successes, worried that god will bless them more than me. I have lost all my trust in any friend that I used to regard as a close friend.
I have no idea what to do, and just want to distant myself from any friend and cut any interaction. I don’t wish to reply to messages and just assume that others will not want the best for me and using me for their benefit. When I see their weaknesses, I start to get irritated and feel like they will treat me the same way as their negative thoughts towards others when they tell me how they feel inside and their inner thoughts.
I wish to ask for prayer on such thoughts.