Hi, my name is Hailey. I’m a 19-year-old student who suffers from anxiety and high blood pressure. A couple of days ago, my blood pressure had dropped a bit from how scarily high it was, and I praised God for beginning his healing as I’d asked for.
But shortly after, I felt uneasy and empty, as if I was missing something, and my health anxiety has skyrocketed. Every little ache and pain I feel as if it is something serious. And though the pain is usually brief and leaves when I rebuke it, I still struggle to trust God due to this unease. Before, I used to quiet it by saying, “even if it is Cancer or some terrible disease, Jesus is greater than it and he can heal that too”, but it no longer works.
My grandmother passed unexpectedly of Cancer in August, and my grandfather passed of a stroke in early October, and it was around the time my grandmother passed away that we found out my blood pressure was high. I do not want to live in fear, and for the longest time I believed that God wanted me to die, and I used to cry myself to sleep begging Him to let me live, but a couple weeks back, I learnt that that is not the truth at all. God wants me healed, but now, I feel as if I do not have the faith to claim and receive it. I still have so much fear and doubt and have been having heart palpitations as I see many people saying that sometimes God doesn’t always heal everyone.
Please pray that I may be healed and that I can fully trust God.
Haily, I’m glad you have discovered God does not want you sick and living in fear. I will tell you I suffered from something very similar to what you are describing. I would check my blood pressure immediately after sitting down and see that it was higher than I wanted. Then I would get anxious and panic and it along with my pulse would go higher and higher. I would check it maybe 10 or 20 times over maybe 30 minutes until I calmed down.
I prayed, quoted scripture, educated myself on all the natural ways to lower it, talked to my doc about it (I was actually checking it incorrectly), adjusted meds and the anxiety and high bp does not torment me any longer (it was largely psychological in my case).
Scriptures like Romans 12:3 and Ephesians 2:9 make me think that faith is a gift of God and we don’t have to beat our heads against the wall and grind our teeth to muster it up ourselves. In Matthew 17:20, Jesus compared faith to a mustard seed. Like a seed, faith grows as you use it and grow closer to God.
Check out Mark 11:22-24. Jesus commands us to “Have faith in God”. He would not tell us to do something we are incapable of doing. He didn’t say we have to have great faith to get any results. We have to start somewhere and let it grow.
Seek Him in His word and in your church gatherings and keep growing your faith and let us know what God does in your life, please. Praying for you.
“There is no fear in love but perfect love casteth out fear because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love” 1John 4:18 KJV
“For the thing which I greatly feared is come upon me and that which I was afraid of is come unto me” Job 3:25 KJV
The opposite of faith is fear. Fear has torment and whatever thing one fear will come upon one. Fear is a demonic spirit. Whatever the attack around you is, neutralise it by faith, even as the attack is there but assume it not to be there and after a while devil will take his property away. I know it’s not easy because I have been through such path but you can ask for the grace from the Lord. You must cast out fear for faith to dwell in you. Only one of them can dwell in you at a time. As children of God, we are to live by faith.
The Bible asked us not to be anxious of anything but through prayer we should make our requests known to God. Whatever the situation is, surrender it to God and believe that He is able to perfect the situation. Don’t allow the devil to use the past to distract you from the power and presence of God. God still heals till date. Keep your faith and hope alive.
May the Lord strengthen your faith and heal you perfectly in Jesus’ name.
Shalom
Hi Hailey, remember Jesus said the devil is a liar and the father of lies. He and his demons are just lying to you. You can be healed, you can live in peace and God desires that and He is able to help you.
I would recommend spending time with God- not asking for anything per se initially but just getting to know Him say in scripture reading, study or meditative prayers.
When you consequently have some revelation of who God is to us in Jesus Christ, who we have become to Him in Jesus Christ, you will develop the peace and faith you need to live above fear and lies and all limitations of error.
I recommend the letter to the Ephesians for starters.
I ll pray for you in church later today.
Shalom.
My sister as important as salvation is, it can only be receive by BELIEVING in Christ finished works, so is one’s healing. “..as thou hast believed, so be done unto thee” was Jesus often response to people asking for a miracle. So it doesn’t matter what anybody says. “If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth”
By his stripes you are healed.
I will pray for you.