Hi, my name is Khloe, and I’m glad you’re here.
When you’re reading this, you’ll realize that my life wasn’t even close to perfect, no matter how I may have portrayed it.
I grew up with my stepdad, my older sister, and my younger brother. My mom left when I was two, and my biological dad left when I was born. Both of my parents struggle with drug and alcohol addiction. Notice how I said struggle, not struggled. To this day, they are still battling those addictions.
My mom has spent most of her life living on the streets and going in and out of jail. She tried to be a part of my life for a long time, but every time it ended the same way. When I was 13, she got out of jail and came to Seattle. She got our phone numbers and started talking to us. I really thought this was the time she was going to change. I was so excited. I would text her every day and ask how she was doing. Sometimes her texts were a little strange, but I ignored it because I believed she was getting better.
A few days later, I texted her and got no response. I kept texting, asking if she was okay, but to this day I still have no answer.
Growing up, my family also faced a lot of financial struggles. There were times when money was tight and it felt like we were just trying to get by. Watching the people around me have things that my family couldn’t afford made me feel different. It wasn’t just the financial stress; it was the feeling of being left out. I often felt like I didn’t fit in and that I was always on the outside looking in.
When I was 14, I started struggling with severe anxiety and depression. It got to the point where I wouldn’t go to school, and if I did, I would show up late. I stopped talking to people and isolated myself as much as possible. I felt completely alone. My stepdad and I were always fighting, and my sister and I barely talked. I had lost my friends and any sense of purpose in life. I constantly felt left out, unwanted, and like nobody truly understood what I was carrying.
Eventually, I came to the conclusion that my life didn’t matter.
One night, while I was home alone, I tried to overdose. I remember talking to God with the little faith I had left and saying,
“God, I don’t belong here. I don’t want to be here. Please don’t let me wake up.”
But I woke up the next morning.
I was shocked. I couldn’t believe I was still here. I was confused and angry, wondering how I had survived.
For months afterward, I would cry myself to sleep. I felt numb and struggled with self-harm. Every day felt heavy, and I couldn’t see a way forward.
Then, over the summer, I got invited to a youth group. I wanted to grow in my faith, so I decided to go.
That night changed my life.
I started showing up every week. I found friends, family, and most importantly, Jesus. For the first time in a long time, I found purpose. I realized I couldn’t do life alone.
When I was 15, I got baptized on March 16, 2026, and it was the best decision of my life. Getting baptized didn’t make all my problems disappear, but it was a public declaration that I was choosing to follow Jesus. It marked the beginning of a new chapter in my life.
While I still face struggles with my family, financial stress, and difficult seasons, I know now that I don’t have to carry those burdens by myself. God has been faithful through every high and low, even when I couldn’t see it.
My life isn’t perfect, but God has shown me that He can bring hope into the darkest situations. He gave me purpose when I felt lost, strength when I felt weak, and a reason to keep going when I wanted to give up.
If you’re struggling today, know that you’re not alone. God sees you, loves you, and has a purpose for your life, even when you can’t see it yet.
We serve a mighty God. He is really merciful, loving and intentional about you. So he insisted on you and got you at a young age. Not many got this opportunity, as many even have a life the world called success but are battling inside. So, continue holding on to faith my sister. Am glad you found him at a young age.
We rejoice with you for making the best decision of your life! My niece was in a similar situation. Her parents were on drugs and in jail. She came to live with me and she was very angry and tough. But she got saved and became the sweetest and happiest woman I’ve ever known. She got married and had a beautiful girl.
Praying for you and praising God for getting you to this point.
I too got born again when I was 17 and I have remained in faith till now and it is more than three decades. The Lord has helped me all through.
God has plans and purposes for creating us. It is only God that can make us to fulfill this His purpose for us. May you fully fulfill the purpose of God for your life. May the the Holy Spirit always guide and watch over you. May you never miss your steps. May you have the grace for discernment so that you will know the right things at all times. May the Lord provide for you. May the Lord use you for His glory in Jesus name.
Shalom
Hallelujah, Praise God you found “Jesus Christ ” the Savior who was always there just waiting on you. I like to hear your story because I know exactly where you’re coming from probably alot older than you but my dad was an alcoholic didn’t have much growing up just barely got by from day to day but I have a loving mother who raised me in church showed me love and tried to be both mother and father. Psalm 68:5, 89:26 KJV.BIBLE In my prayers…
I am amazed that this articulate testimony was written by a 15 year old. You sound really mature and wise. Well done for making the best decision of your life, to follow our Lord Jesus. You will be the deliverer in your family. Because of your decision, many will come to Christ or renew their relationship with Him.
I would also like to point out that you really have a natural flair for writing, and maybe you should look into pursuing it as a career, or maybe write a book about your experiences to encourage others struggling with what you’ve been through. I have most certainly been encouraged. I am 50 years old, old enough to be your mother, but I’ve been lifted up by your testimony after having a rather difficult day, so stay motivated and keep going, God has got great things ahead of you?
God loves you. You made the most important decision in life, that is finding a family in Christ who instilled in you purpose. God said is in the habit of speaking to youngsters, He also spoke to young prophet Jeremiah , “before I formed in you in womb I knew you ….” Jeremiah 1:5. Much the same way , God is saying to you through Jeremiah today, He knew you before you were a product of your parents union, therefore do not allow your background and circumstances to tie you down and own in in a negative way. There’s a plan and a mission in you. God has plans to prosper you, to give you hope and an expected end. Coming to Christ does not mean the end of our problems, rather it means the beginning of coping with our situation by laying all to Christ . He says come to me all he that labor and are heavily laden and I will give you hope. There’s a winner, a victor and a conqueror in you. Stay in the word, tell Him each day, “I am weak but you’re my strength“ Blessings.