I never considered to know His love because I was too self-centered. I was longing for love that was not really meant for me.
I was in my room alone and suddenly I wasn't excited anymore. Something kept telling me not to go to this party.
I had the ultimate do it myself mindset... I don't need, what, love? What, emotions, moral compass and God? That's for weaklings, I thought.
But for the Christian people. I created persecution, but they did no harm to me.
It has taken 3 decades for me to submit to the Lord and accept that I am not in control.
I grew up in a dysfunctional family with a lot of violence during my childhood. I’ve witnessed more than most adults at a very young age.
It all started when I was a little kid, I grew up in a non-religious household, my birth parents abused me, used drugs, and abandoned me.