I’m Taylor. And this is my story of being healed of depression.
I have been a Christian all of my life and thought I would never experience anything like depression. Had no problems. But then it happened. It first started when I was 12 years old when my uncle had died, and I was devastated. It happened so suddenly and the whole family was shocked, it was really a tough time for everyone. I managed to get past the funeral and burial without any tears, but I was hurting on the inside and didn’t show it because I felt unworthy of mourning for him because we were never that close.
Then my grandfather got put in a nursing home because he had Alzheimer’s. That crushed me. His Alzheimer’s got worse as soon as he was placed there. Forgot who I was. Forgot who his children were. And forgot who his wife was. It once again was a tough burden on everyone.
I began to feel depressed after all of these tragic events happening, thought about running away from home. Committing suicide. Cried myself to sleep at least 4 nights a week. Was self-conscious about my body. Was thinking of becoming anorexic.
I had loved church all my life and enjoyed going. But passion to go was missing. I was going through the motions. I knew God had a plan for my life and I really think that’s what kept me alive.
I never told my parents what I was going through. I felt like this was something that they never had to go through. My parents were already stressed, and I didn’t think they would even get it. Just get mad at me.
It started getting worse. I was mad at people for no reason, was stressed over school, and just wanted to die. Never took any anti-depressants, so I was feeling miserable. I honestly know that it was God who kept me alive. I was really down, even on my birthday. I just wanted to sleep all day.
I isolated myself from everyone, when I should have told someone. I put on a face out in public that everything was great, when really, I was dying inside. Thought about texting my best friend, but I didn’t, and she was going through the same thing.
Then we had a movie night at our church, “Finger of God” by Darren Wilson. After we had a time of prayer, and I asked God,
“If it’s your will, tell someone to pray for depression over me.”
It was.
The pastor had asked how I was doing, and I broke down crying. I couldn’t hide it anymore. I was done. And he had prayed for the spirit of depression to be broken off of me.
I then was healed by the power of the Holy Spirit and set free. I was back to my normal self again. God is doing wonderful things, and if you are struggling with depression, talk to someone. A pastor, a parent, a best friend. Because they will pray for you and help you through this.
God Bless π
talythiaoo,
praise the Living God. Heaven and earth are full of His grace. Hosannah in the highest.
You see my friend, I can relate to you. I was blinded by this sickness for 12 years straight. When it hits someone, it comes abruptly, never warns and never leaves that easily. I tried all sorts of ways to keep it abay, from taking diazepam [aka prozac] to avoiding situations that elevate panic attacks.
People never understood me. They thought I was snobby, selfish, self-centered. The isolation from families, friends was the hard part. I was enrolled to do a good course at university Genetic Engineering but dropped out without finishing. I got a really good job at a bank but got chucked for late coming and frequent breaks to the bathroom. I got scholarships people would die for, but all that went to waste.
Here is my take on depression. Some call it a chemical imbalance, others call it a genetic inheritance, but I call it a demonic stronghold.
What people call a genetic inheritance is actually the demonic stronghold that runs through the family lineage. From Great forefathers to the current person. You see when demons leave a person, they wander around looking for place to rest and then finally come back to the host bringing with them other demons. When your fore parent died, these demons maneuvered around land but found no rest and later decided to rest in the seed of that dead person, which is you.
Chemical imbalance, sure why wouldn’t your brain not get messed up by the constant darting arrows from your enemy the devil. Constant lies that turn out to be truth in your brain. You start with doubt, then end with paranoid thoughts. You start hating yourself then hate others. You used to love your life, and yourself but hate the thought of living another day. How can someone change this radical to become a deteriorating, decaying human being. Is this you – or someone else feeding your thought process with words that you take to be your own. If you get such tormenting words hitting you on a daily basis, words like…why are they looking at me like that, why do they laugh at me … why don’t they like me … you end self-conscious and your brain will surely go through cycles of chemical imbalance, stress, worry, anxiety, panic attacks and finally depression.
Remedy: Since we find that depression is a spiritually connected. We ought to trace all the roots to these tormenting demons. First, you need to look out for things that keep your soul bound to the underworld. There are some things that really get your soul bound to this evil forces. For example, masturbation, this is somehow like sacrificing blood to the altar of this underworld. You see for any spirit to take hid of you, there must be a pour out of blood or some sort of life to get that spirit taking over you.
For Christians, Jesus poured out his blood for us. His was a sacrifice for us. To satanists, they abduct and kill babies and all sort of lives to churn demons on earth. Masturbation is discharge of potential seed that is meant to materialize to life. When you keep sacrificing this, demons have total control of your mind. Remember, during those days, the battlefield was the heavens where angels fought with demons. But now the new battlefield is our mind. This my friend is why you get torments every second. The darting arrows [Satan’s lies] are only possible if He has authority over you due to some kind of license.
Apart from the sacrifice, we have to look through your parental lineage.
The only chance of being redeemed is Jesus Christ. He alone can change Your life. But remember, you have to take authority through his name. Cast out these demonic strongholds by commanding them out through His name. They will not leave unless you command them through Christ. Find a local church and ask for the prayer warriors to join in with you to fight this battle with you. Ask them to anoint you with oil and pray with you. It’s going to be a long but easy battle coz Christ overcame the world.
Here is a good start. Say this out loudly in your privacy. It should be a command not just any other kind of prayer. So, it’s best you say it out loudly with authority in the name of Jesus Christ.
According to Matthew 18:18, in the name of Jesus, I cut Satan, his demons and curses LOOSE from me, my family and friends.
I command you, Satan and all evil spirits and curses, to LOOSE me, my family, and all the things you have stolen from us, that are ours through the blessings of Jesus.
I ask You, Lord, to send Your angels to bring these things back to us. Father God, in the name of Jesus, I LOOSE Your power over myself and my family. I ask You to send Your holy angels to fight our battles in the heavenlies and our minds. Let them guard us from Satan and all his hosts who would have us believing and agreeing with lies.
In the name of Jesus, we bind and cancel all deception within us, and prevent any more deception from getting to us.
In the name of Jesus, upon all fears I LOOSE perfect agape, true and pure love, the love of God and our love for each other (1st John 4:18), a sound mind and self-control 2nd Timothy 1:7 & Micah 3:8).
In the name of Jesus, upon our minds I LOOSE knowledge, revelation, understanding (John 8:32), wisdom (Job 20:3), truth (Exodus 28:3 & Ephesians 1:17), diligent searching (John 14:17 & 1st John 4:6), freedom (Psalm 77:6), and deliverance (Psalm 51:12).
In the name of Jesus, upon all marriages and against all family destroying spirits, I LOOSE God’s family protecting angels (Genesis 2-4).
In the name of Jesus, upon rejection, I LOOSE the love of the brethren (1st John 3:14), acceptance in the beloved (Ephesians 1:6), acceptance of God + approval of men (Romans 14:18), and adoption as children of God (Romans 8:15).
In the name of Jesus, I LOOSE upon us Your power of praise (Isaiah 61:3), thankfulness, worship (John 4:23), singing (1st Corinthians 14:15), prayer (1st Corinthians 4:21), all the Holy Spirit fruit (Galatians 5:22-23), love, joy, peace, patience, long suffering (Ecclesiastes 7:8), gentleness, kindness, goodness, faithfulness (Proverbs 1:19 & Isaiah 57:15), temperance, self-control, all the gifts of the Holy Spirit (1st Corinthians 12:8-10), wisdom, knowledge, faith (2nd Corinthians 4:12), prophecies, healings, miracles (Revelation 19:10), tongues, interpretation of tongues, discernment of spirits, quiet (1st Peter 3:4), constraining (Job 32:18), contrite (Psalm 51:17), judgment (Isaiah 4:4, 28:6), repentance, and conviction (Isaiah 57:15, 66:2).
Thank You Father God for Your permanent freedom through the name of Your son Jesus Christ, Amen!
Praise the Lord.
Hi Taylor, I just read your story again after a long time and it reminds me of when I overcame depression as a teenager when I gave my life to Christ. This is a great testimony of God’s love and power to heal. If you’re still reading, let us know how you are doing now, please.
I seek your prayers for a nagging depression that has been affecting me on and off for over 40 years. My son needs to settle down and do his schoolwork. My daughter needs to master her areas of studies on the job. She currently needs a job. Our main need is an intimate relationship with God and then an intimate relationship with my wife and 2 children and financial blessings as well.
As you have cast your burden upon the Lord, may He intervene in your family and calm every storm. May God make the lives of your children to be glorious. May the Lord make your family to be happy. May the Lord provide all the needs of the family to His glory, in Jesus name we have prayed.
Derick, we just prayed for you. Keep in touch and let us know whatβs going on in your life. Love in Christ.