Thankful woman walking.

Overcoming Being Bisexual and Bipolar

I gave my life to Jesus at age 6 at a VBS. I drifted from God in high school. I got a Depo Provera birth control shot at age 17 and I had a bad side effect of anxiety and paranoia. I didn’t get any treatment, just never got one again.

I went to college and my sophomore year I was searching for truth and meaning in life. I met a pastor who shared his journey with Jesus and through this encounter, I decided to re-dedicate my life to Jesus. I struggled on and off with depression. People at my church just encouraged me to trust God/pray/ resist the devil/worship/know who I am in Christ.

I survived ok this way until after graduation. Then, friends were scattered and I drifted away from God. I got in to doing ecstacy, went dancing a lot, got raped by a man who put roofies on my drink. I struggled with depression severely during this time and was diagnosed bipolar. A group of friends went to a concert, I blacked out and woke up with a girl. We fell in love. Unfortunately, she was a crack addict.

I left her after 8 months and her stealing money from me. After 2 years, I wanted Jesus again. I followed Jesus and enjoyed a wonderful time worshipping God, enjoying His presence, and healing from the past.

After 4 years, I had a complete emotional breakdown. I had gotten caught up in doing so much for God and didn’t know how to deal with all the suffering I witnessed at the homeless shelter I worked at. I left God for 7 years and just did my own thing.

I finally came back to Jesus in 2014. It’s been 10 years, and I want to follow God forever. I’ve been off psychiatric medication for 14 years; it is a miracle!

Things that have helped:

  • Changing my inner beliefs, for example instead of believing I’m not good enough, I believe I can do all things through Christ has strengthened me and I am amazing the way I am, even on the journey to grow and change. It’s a daily journey to keep renewing my mind.
  • Eating fairly healthy, eating when hungry, and not pay any attention to all the weight loss pressure.
  • Taking a homeopathic remedy for emotional balance.
  • Taking care of myself.
  • Living a lifestyle of encouraging and loving others.
  • Taking parts of the Bible and just trusting God with the parts that are hard to understand or accept.
  • I’m married to a wonderful man. I’m still attracted to women; I just choose to stay true to my husband. In some churches, I just don’t always take what they say in. People who are extreme, I just let them be themselves without taking what they say personally.

I still sometimes struggle emotionally, but overall, I’m grateful and have a wonderful life homeschooling my 3 children.

3 Comments

  1. Christine 8/23/2024
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  3. Mike Henry Sr. 9/7/2024

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