My testimony given in love through God’s grace: By God’s grace know that all of this came to be (by Jesus Christ), therefore I give ALL the glory to God. That I have just become a Christian a little over a month ago is too. Anyways, this night I took a small break from studying the Bible to fetch a snack. As I was about to return into my room my grandma and mother called me into their room. I responded by going to them; they asked me to sit, so I sat. Then they began to tell me things, so I listened. Grandma asked me that if I thought it was normal that I stay asleep so late? I didn’t know what to say, so I said “no” followed by softly murmuring “i don’t know.” In retrospect, I should have remained silent. My mom then clarified to grandma–mother knowing me better–that i must’ve stayed up all night. She was right; until 6am. My grandma then asked if i thought it was normal to stay up late and to thereby awaken later in the day. I didn’t respond that time. They gave me a short lecture on how God intended night for sleep and day for being awake. In my mind I was thinking how I stayed up because I felt the need to pray/study/weep/worship by God’s grace and also because night time is peaceful and I have trouble sleeping when our Lord is on my mind. Anyways, they continued to lecture and finally concluded by exhorting me to see a psychologist @ 10am–an appointment they had already set without my consent. In my heart, I asked God to reveal to me how to respond to them. Thus, not knowing whether to say yes or no I simply said I will give them my response in the morning; for I had to pray to God to show me the answer, I said. And to be honest, I was leaning more towards saying no.
A feint whisper in my heart told me I should Â just tell them “no,” for two reasons: 1) they were members of a false religion, thereby having no right in telling me whats right for me and 2) there is nothing wrong with me or with what I did. I considered that if I said no to them I would be pleasing God. Nevertheless, I ignored this whisper and returned to my room, putting my trust in God. With the thought of intending to pray to God this night to reveal to me an answer by morning, and because of this I believe God fulfilled his promise talked about in Isaiah 65:24 And it shall come to pass, that before they call, I will answer, and while they are yet speaking, I will hear. For what I beheld before my bed (where I lay to study) was my answer. Now I know many of you will probably not believe me (or try to rationalize it) but I write this for the glory of God, that it might bring others to believe in the Word of God (if it be His will): what I saw before my bed was nothing out of the ordinary, but to me it was a miracle. I beheld a pen over my notebook where I was writing my notes. I was sure no one had come in my room and distorted my things, nevertheless i asked everyone. No one came in, thus it was confirmed a miracle to me. You see, I had a pen I was using that worked well but which had vanished before my eyes while I studied. So I picked up a nearby pen which was of the same type except this one had a crack in the plastic and had a broken clip, and also it served poorly and could barely write when I used it on my notebook.
Therefore, I put the pen aside and decided to take a break to grab that snack. And when I returned I saw the good pen i was looking for mysteriously placed before, of all places, on top of my notepad with the tip of the pen pointing at a sentence from my notes: obedience is more important than sacrifice. I felt this was a revelation (also an important lesson) to the concern I had regarding my grandma and mom. Still, I didn’t know exactly what God meant by this. So I thought about it. I asked myself: what is the obedience to God? And what would be the sacrifice? And then it hit me, obeying God would be to say yes to my Grandmas and moms request, even though i had no major issues and evil of them; and that the sacrifice would have been saying no to them.
In reality, what I thought might have been a sacrifice would have been disobeying God, for everything in my mind was considering only what seemed like a sacrifice to God (for instance, it wouldn’t be God’s will to do sinners biddings, it is God’s will that I say no, and that saying no would please Him, that since psychologists reject God and give alternatives to God for healing/treatment I should not let them do their bidding)–in reality this evil whisper wanted me to reject what God commanded. This scripture led me to Matthew ch 5, which I had recently studied ( how quickly did I forget what Jesus preached).
How great is our God, that He was willing to set me on the narrow path. I’ll praise our God forevermore! Jesus clearly said: But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also. 40 and if any man will sue thee at the law, and take away thy coat, let him have thy cloak also. And this is the one that really hit me… 41 And whosoever shall compel thee to go a mile, go with him twain (my mom and grandma are compelling me to do something, and I’ll do it because I love them through the grace of God) 42 give him that asketh thee, and from him that would borrow of thee turn not thou away. 44. But I say unto you,Love your enemy, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you… Undoubtedly I’ve been persecuted here with my own family; my mother going so far as to beat me without cause, but simply for preaching truth to them, and now to the point of telling me I am probably sick in the head for having faith in my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. But I love them and I constantly pray for them, which is why it’s important to obey our Loving God’s commandments for we are the light of the world, the light within us being Christ. And by not resisting their evil we can be the light before men, that by doing so they might see our good works, and glorify our Father which is in heaven. I thank our God for being so great, just, loving, and merciful. God bless you. Amen.