As a child I suffered tons of verbal mental and sexual abuse. As a teen my first love used me for sex left me for another girl, he always looked so happy with her I couldn’t stand seeing them together so “in love” while I was alone and suffering.
He didn’t believe in God, but I did so why was I the one suffering like this while he was perfectly content? I cried over him publicly when I saw them together for the first time on our school bus as he was taking her home with him. Talk about being replaced! from then on, she would laugh at me every time I saw her. I was humiliated & mentally & emotionally destroyed.
Here I am many years later still suffering with depression and a broken heart, he hurt me so badly. I later heard him say that she was the best girlfriend he’s ever had. Strange how God would allow me to fall for a guy like this.
I was 15 at the time living in foster care. I had no friends, no family and now I didn’t have him. I pray every day and night for God to heal my broken heart, it just hasn’t happened for me yet and I wonder if it ever will.
Hi,jamie…i really understand ur situation. The past has made u not to think about ur bright future that GOD has kept for u. Just imagine a child crying for a chocolate & mum says not to eat, child doesn’t know that dentist has warned her mum not to give chocolate. You’re thinking that is perfect guy i suppose to be with, but not knowing the consequences. Shake off the self-pity attitude like i am not good, nobody likes me etc. It’s going to take u no where but will make u more upset. JESUS loves u & cares for u. He can restore ur broken heart. First think u need to do is can ur attitude and change can only will come through reading BIBLE. Meditate and memorize until your thoughts change into GOD thought. Don’t believe on past situation, GOD will make new things in your life. PRAY & GOD is eager to listen your prayers. Forgive others then your father in heaven will forgive u. May GOD BLESS U.
Hi Jamie,
I agree with Sudhansu here. One of the things that has helped me is to focus on what I am feeling at a given moment of confusion, saddness, or “depressiion”. Sometimes I’m really angry, sometimes I feel worthless, disappointed…you get the idea. then I look in the back of my bible and search through every scripture associated with that word. Then I meditate on what the bible says, sometimes I write about it in my journal…and I make a decision to believe what the bible SAYS over howI feel….and before you know it, you too are walking by faith and not by sight. You can do this, GOD is with you. Fear not, just believe. Lots of love,
Sabrina
Hello Jamie,
You know, “the Lord is close to the broken-hearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit” (psalm 34:18).
Believe it or not, God makes everything happen for a reason. Could this horrible mess possibly be a blessing in disguise? I think so!
Perhaps the Lord is trying to draw you closer to Him, to help you grow and mature as a christian and to rely on His grace to take you through this?
I will be praying for you.
The best advice I have for you is to pray. Pray about everything! Pray in the morning, afternoon, evening- when you’re sad, when you’re happy, when you’re feeling in-between. Pray my sister!
God is able to completely heal and restore you. Just believe. Draw near to the Lord, and He will draw near to you.
God bless you Jamies x
It is easy for others to tell you what to do isn’t it? Especially when they cannot imagine how you hurt. Your whole life you were rejected and abused it the worst possible way. God did not “let it happen” He does not orchestrate bad things, but bad things happen because we live in a world of bad people, too many selfish greedy demonised people who damage others. When God has His hand on you the devil tries to destroy you from day one. He sees the mark of God on you in the womb and comes in for the kill. He uses other people, he uses demons, he uses ourselves, he lies to us. You have had no support or real love in your life, and what these two people have done is vile. But don’t you worry, God has a plan for your life. You are saved. They are lost. You are forgiven,if you stay close to Him and beleive on Him, you have eternal life, no one will ever harm you again when we go into it. All those who harmed you are condemmed for eternity and will also have to account for the evil they did to you. Satan does not want you to know God’s power, His desire and ability to heal you and give you a purpose. It is a battle, but a battle that has been won by Jesus. I am currently using Smith Wigglesworth devotional. I open it, read the verses and ponder. God is speaking to me, to my spirit, as He will to you. I will be upholding you in my prayers. Here is a verse He told me to give you. Ephesians1:4.
You can contact me if you would like counsel, support and prayer. With love. From a sister, Deborah.xx
I want to keep my mom so happy for that I need my visa to be granted I don’t have power to grant my visa only you lovely god have the power to grant my visa m. Please help me show mercy on my application. Because it’s my dream my only dream. If I get my visa I will light 100 candles in veerapandi pirivu church. I promise I will be praising u till I die. And I need this visa please I belived u I am posting this. I want to keep my mom happy so I need this visa. Please stand with me. And my girlfriend she is not speaking with me. I can’t imagine anything without her so please change her heart tell her to be with me till I die. I am going to post this now I believed I true u. I love u so much God. Please grant me. I am waiting I love you so much God. Amen