Let me tell y’all… I was very devastated when I went to my ob and they told me I had this “incurable” disease… Thing is… I went to my regular doctor 3 weeks before going to the ob and I didn’t have it… But I saw a outbreak a 2 months before going to the regular doctor so that’s why I am confused!
But long story short… I’ve dealt with someone that cheated with an ex that has been in another state then has came back all of a sudden… and this pops up. Claims they are negative… If you both are negative, where did this come from because I didn’t have this before meeting this guy… I wasn’t messing with anyone but trying to heal from a 3 year relationship breakup I had got out of before meeting him… I still think he gave this to me and if he did, I forgive him… I just want God to heal this thing!!! It gives me mixed emotions and no type of hope for the rest of my life. I felt dirty and unworthy… and feel I am at fault for putting myself in this position but I just wasn’t paying attention to signs…
I’ve recently started to disconnect from this individual. got baptized and haven’t messed with him since. I personally want to focus on God more instead of venting to someone that is mentally hurting me. I’ve been going to church… praising and praying… But I keep on hearing “I will heal you but you have to stay on the path I have opened for you” and let me tell you… I don’t know if it’s just me saying this to myself but I am scared to go to the doctor because I realllllllly want this to come back negative… I’ve been feeling spasms and hot feelings all over… I feel like it’s him working on me to heal this thing but then again… I’m not sure if it’s just a coincidence :(.
I just want prayers, Please Lord… I know you can switch my life around… I gave my life to you? I just want to come back into your arms, I hope he hears me so badly!