Hello there brothers and sisters! I have never shared my testimony but feel that this is the place where I should do it. Since I was a small child I had always been a very fearful child, I would be playing in the play ground and burst into tears and then had episodes of anxiety and depression. I would always stick to my mom always thinking what ifs…then my mother shared with me as I grew older that even when she was pregnant with me she took on my characteristics and knew how I felt. School was my only escape because I loved learning and as the years went by I never thought of anything that had happened.
Then one night 4 days after my 18th birthday I had my first panic attack. See this horrible ailment runs in my family my dad has taken medication for it for about 30 years right about the time my mom gave birth to me. After this I had 3 other major episodes followed by depression, anxiety, and panic attacks. In every single one Jesus would heal me but I would go the worldly ways.
I became very lustful and practiced sexual immorality and still called myself a Christian. Sexual Immorality is the worst as the apostle Paul says in all other sin, we practice outside the body, but sexual immorality is practiced with the temple of the Holy Spirit. You see sometimes in our families there are chains that bind us. In the bible God says that those who do not accept him will experience his wrath for up to 5 generations but the great news is that if you accept him he promises blessings for up to 1000 generations.
The last time I was severely depressed, which was July of 2011, the LORD showed me so much. Even after being a wishy-washy Christian the LORD showed me how my past family has always been so sexually immoral. In being depressed I felt alone because I had been through 4 major depressions in the lapse of 6 years followed with anxiety and fear.
But I thank the LORD because he gave me a gift I didn’t deserve, his unending and unfailing love and forgiveness. In the beginning it was hard for me to share my testimony but now I know that the LORD through his son Jesus does miracles. The LORD has taken me further that I deserve or saw myself.
For the people who are reading this even though the enemy lies to you saying God isn’t there pray out loud! recite scriptures from the bible with your mouth. Don’t overthink faith let God be the judge of that. Go to church, always thank him for the things people take for granted like loving others, eating, being able to sleep seeing the beautiful sun, being able to read, to testify, to sing.
When in my former depression I was unable to eat, sleep was hard sometimes, love was difficult to feel, singing became non-existent. Always look for the greater things in life like his son Jesus, family, flowers, your eyesight, enjoying food, singing, these are things that only God has given you and can give you.
Another thing I recommend is praising him day and night, go to church, and worship music is the best, regardless of what you think at the end God Jesus is the truth. One day I was in complete fear when the LORD touched my body and told me get up and fight pray out loud and worship my name I did this for about an hour.
After a week of extreme fear, the LORD made me feel I had to attend an all-night church event, I worshiped and prayed the whole way there. God told me I will give you something. Barely being able to get up because at this point I had not eaten for about 3 weeks I went to church and barely praying God Holy Spirit touched me and I fell to the floor and for two days I felt his presence heavenly.
Then one night after this event I knew God’s Holy Spirit wanted to baptize me in tongues, but I was afraid then one night I told the Holy Spirit I am not afraid anymore and immediately I was speaking in a heavenly language for about two hours and then I ended with a heavenly song. Every day I would do this up until now.
It is a great gift, people do not listen to people who say tongues are of the devil, why would he need tongues if he understands all languages. I feel a closer connection praying to God everyday and I glorify the name of Jesus and I no longer have that hopeless depression and this Monday Jesus came in my sleep and told me daughter you are healed it is time to work.
Now I started as part of a worship team and feel like a completely different person. I no longer have long fights with my family and boyfriend and know that I have a purpose here on Earth and that I am no accident in this universe and so are you. My goal is to intercede for the saints if you need prayer let me know and I will add you to my list and agree with you in the name of Jesus. We are in a battlefield, and we will not rest until we go home. We Christians have to stick together the LORD is not that far away.
He is also working to renew my family and even my brother had a vision about the rapture. Christians who believe in the resurrection of Jesus Christ and in the Holy and Divine Trinity must stand together and not let small legalistic issues make them critical about one another. Instead of us criticizing a falling brother pray pray pray for them, pray for pastors, evangelist, families, and for the justice of God to prevail. Love you all in the name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior and owe everything to him today.
Awesome testimony… I’m still a little confused about tongues. Please pray for me for guidance. I feel I know what I need to do completely and I doubt it at times. I don’t tell much people what I’m going through because again just like the tongue speaking people don’t believe.
Dear Jay,
In Chapter 12:3 of Romans scripture speaks about serving God with Spiritual Gifts. Sometimes it might not be tongues, verse 4 says: For as we have many members in one body, but all the same function. Verse 6:having then gifts differing according to the grace that is given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, let us prophesy in proportion to our faith…Here the bible tells us about many different gifts that are given. We don’t choose but the Holy Spirit gives us by grace not because we deserve them. I believe that God gave me this gift because everytime I did it I kept coming out of depression and fear. He gives us what we need, honestly I’ve always wanted a vision but never have had one. So you see it is up to God but I also believe that if it is in your heart God placed that desire and he always blesses his children with much greater gifts that no one else can give you. Remember a house divided in itself cannot stand Read Matthew 12:22. I know that the reason people come up with their own theories is because they don’t thoroughly study scripture Hosea 4:6 says my people are destroyed for lack of knowledge and that used to be me always listening to others when God gave us his word in the bible and is free to all. Now I’ve read so many theories about tongues that they are of Satan but why would that be he is no giver of gifts he is not God’s equal and tongues are controlled the Holy Spirit is gentle and the devil will never praise God. Paul warns us to test the Spirits always and if Jesus is not praised then it is not of him. Also read 1st Corinthians 14 it speaks about tongues and phropecy. Also people often pick and choose scriptures to believe what they want to not what is and make up their own theory to live the way they live. I used to do this when I was being sexually immoral before marriage. Thus, making God in my image when we are supposed to become the image of Christ. I will pray for God to guide you through his Holy Spirit. One thing I did is look up all scriptures on a certain subject in this case tongues and prayed for the Holy Spirit to guide me and he did. Remember God is the same yesterday, today, and forever if he baptized then he does it now no matter how many fancy technology we have. There is an awsome science study done in the brain in regard to tongues please have a look search it on youtube. God Bless and I will keep you in my prayers :D.
Also gifts including tongues, all gifts are to serve others, remember Jesus came to serve and not to be served. And even now Satan tries to manipulate scripture like he did when he tempted Jesus in the dessert be alert and pray for discernment from the Holy Spirit very important. Hope to hear from you soon… 😀
Miriam
Thanks miriam… Do you have an email add? I wanted to share something with u that I don’t with anyone.
lrdsministries[at]ymail[dot]com
I really enjoyed reading your testimony. I am glad that God helped you through your troubles. I hope that he can help me too.
I was lucky enough to dream of him the other night and I felt his incredible power. He also offered me some assurance. Please continue to pray with me.
Thank you and God Bless
what a great testimony,it is true that the name of Jesus is above all¡ keep going strong in the faith sister,I will pray for you, and may you please please pray for me? I want to worship Jesus in tongues just like you did,but I feel I still don’t have that gift,thanks and God bless you¡ bye
Dear Hopeful Believer,
I am glad you enjoyed reading my testimony and I hope that God’s work in me, my testimony, has been of great encouragement in your life. Always speak as though it is done not only do I think he will help you I know he will help you because God promises us he will never leave us or forsake us. Keep on praying sister and reading the word I will also add you to my prayer list I am glad God has put it in my heart to always pray for others I truly enjoy it. I am truly blessed to hear from you and I am so joyous to hear Jesus visited you in a dream blessed are you and everyone who is redeemed by his precious blood. Amen Sister!
Dear Carlos,
The Bible says in John 16:23 “I tell you the truth, my father will give you whatever you ask in my name”. I know God has great gifts for us all and I will add you to my prayer list. Honestly I believe tongues would be awsome for every believer because it edifies you and it is great to use for others as well and of course always for the Glory of God. I am really thankful to God for the gift of Jesus and of tongues, which honestly was given to me by grace the Holy Spirit was generous and convicted me that it was done in LOVE. So I know that in the name of Jesus Christ he will give you what is needed. I will pray for you brother and thank you for your prayers I receive them because prayer is always needed and I hope God grants you the desires of your heart! ♥ your sister in Christ
I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your testimony. I believe I was lead there to read it. I am having such a difficult time right now and wanted to just express a thank you to God one and then to you for sharing. This is my job’s email address. If it all possible do you mind if I send you an email from my personal email address when I get home. I have many more questions and I want to ask if you can stand in agreement with me to pray for God’s healing. Anyway, let me know and God Bless.
Miriam,
Thank you for your testimony, it is extremely encouraging for me. I am a Christian and I have been my entire life. I thought for the longest time that nothing was wrong with me and anxiety and depression were foreign concepts to me. In the past 7 months God has been showing me that I suffer from anxiety and mild depression and I’m trying to overcome it, can you add me to your prayer list? I’m going to a councellor, she pointed me to a self help-book, I just spoke with a naturopath doctor. I know all of these things are here to help and I want God to work through them, but I want the solution to come from Him, not from these things in and of themselves. I guess I just have so many doubts that flutter through my head like, “This isn’t going to work; God is healer but He’s not going to heal me… etc etc.” I’ve had so many spiritual moments where God has healed other things in my life. I guess I’m just frustrated because He’s revealed really big things for me to bring before Him and it seems like healing isn’t coming as easily. So I guess prayer for perseverance for me and guidance and direction, that I would not get discouraged and trust in God always and lean on Him. Thank you for sharing your story and for offering prayer up for those of us who are battling this. I would just love affirmation that I am going to be okay and that I will get through it, but I have to trust God. Thanks Miriam.
Hi Shelly,
First of all Big hug from myself :D. I understand the thoughts you have but trust me he is the healer. Yes I understand that the healing is hard due to certain negative thought patterns but what really works is looking up people’s testimonies, reading the word daily, and of course talking to God on a constant basis I literally talked to him everywhere I went even if I had to do it in my head. And then you start hearing God more clearer day by day. Also fasting is a really good thing to do that helped me a lot. Always wake up thanking God for any minor changes you notice instead of what is not changed. I started thanking him for things like getting my appetite back, smiling, getting closer with my family. Thank him always it really works :D. Also pray for others and always see what others are going through we are definately not alone in our pain. And I know and trust Jesus our healer you are going to be okay because he did it for me and I was severely depressed and very anxious. I will definately pray for you too sister I love praying for people and see God work miracles. E-mail me when you can at lrdsministries[at]ymail[dot]com Take care and God Bless!
Hi,
Very nice your presentation … Please pray for me. I used to get up early morning 4:00 am and pray for 2-3 hrs now I am not doing please pray and request him to give me that strength.
Tongue is a gift from God! For anybody who is confused with tongue, in simple words: Yes God knows all languages but we dont know all languages. Let us not assume it is a secret language of God. When I have a problem I pray using the same words and same statement for weeks or days. ( I have never waited for a reply for more than weeks, before 1 month my prayer was always answered or atlease I ll get a reason for not getting what I prayed for!) When I pray like that with same words and statement I ll feel bored or dissatisfaction will arise so thinking about the problem I ll sit and go on tongue. After this tongue prayer I ll really feel relieved from worries and mind will be free. I feel Holy Sprit is helping us to put exact words to Father instead of our own bla bla blabering!
One afternoon while sleeping, I heard a male voice from my inside ( the voice was very soft too gentle) started with ” Father, …………………………………….” <~~~~ It was a prayer from me going to father in an afternoon. I woke up and heard it. It was in English. I heard full prayer. The end was not " in the name of Jesus, your son". So I know it is Jesus or His Holy Spirit praying on my behalf. Because when son himself is praying to Father he need not use, " in the name of your son Jesus" The prayer was just 3-4 lines. That moment I thought that in future I ll use the same 3-4 line prayer, it was too good and powerful with minimum words. I want to get up to write it. But that moment I thought simple lines I can remember and even after hearing I recalled back. After this I was forced to sleep. When I woke up after 1 hr I really couldnt remember even a word from that prayer and I could only remember word "Father" and just ending the prayer without " in the name of Jesus, your son"
So Holy Spirit / Jesus, the Son praying for us is real. Also he dont want us to know what his prayer for us is!!! So please ask God for tongue, the tongue prayer can be for us and as well as others who need prayer. Our body and heart is used by Lord for prayer, please allow him to use us.
God Bless you all!
hi,
great testimony. Please pray for me i need complete healing from herpes.
I have been praying and fasting for this. Blood test is negative but i am still getting signs and symptoms of herpes.
God bless.
Hi
Thx for sharing your testimony.
I just wanted to ask you if you could pray for my father, he has suffered for more then 30 years of bad back (neck,mid back and lower back). When he was young he was in a car accident witch gave him al this (and its more to that store than only a car accident).
I dont realy know what to do i try to read the bible and fast and from time to time i really feel aloot closer to jesus but soner or later i fall and it all starts over again. I dunno what im doing wrong or what to do but if you have any answer i would be happy to hear them
You could get in contact with me on my mail Eliassoncs[at]live.se
Thank you with best regardes Simon / God bless you.
Hello, I was excited when I read your testimony because I believe I too will be delivered from the bondage of fear, anxiety & panic attacks. I have never suffered so severely with this until I had surgery to remove fibroids from my uterus last Aug 2011. I fell so ill after I got back from hospital, doctors still don’t know whats wrong with me, all tests are normal. I am weak in body, have trouble sleeping, am living in fear of something terrible happening especially me not being able to breathe. I have terrible headaches, sinusitis, painful menstrual cycles, pain in abdomen, pounding heart beats and palpitations. I am praying for a miracle, please would you pray for me. God Bless!
Wow… Im very encouraged by you testimony. May The Good Lord Bless you more as you continue to work for Him. Im also sick but i know i will Heal in His Mighty Name. Praise God
Leeanne, only faith in God’s Word will overcome anxiety and any illness.
Please pray that God heals me from muscle pains, anxiety, panic attacks and all related symptoms. Thank you.
Thank you for sharing your testimony. God is awesome! Please pray for God to heal me from horrible allergies, asthma, and sinus problems. Tired of being on so many medications and steroids. I worry because of all the bad side effects they have. I get so discouraged and anxious at times when I feel really sick and have difficulty breathing. All these has financially burdened me because of all the medications and doctors visits I have to pay. Though they say there’s no cure, I believe and know that Jesus is my healer and that there’s nothing impossible for Him. Please add me to your praying list. Please pray and believe with me that God can heal me of these chronic conditions in Jesus name. Amen. Thank you for being a prayer warrior! God bless you!
God loves you