I was born with Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy. Muscular Dystrophy is a disease that causes the muscles in your body primarily your legs; to become weak. Most people with this disease stop walking around age 12-14 and I’m 18.
God has kept his hands on me allowing me to still keep walking. I struggle with doing many things and I know of so many simple things that I cannot do such as bend down, climb things, etc. Sometimes it gets to me and I just break down and cry.
I’ve been asking for a healing and I’m patiently waiting for God to allow me to receive such a blessing. I’ve had complications my whole life due to being born this way. I know God has made me this way and I don’t fault him because he is the creator.
I just don’t believe that I’m to suffer and struggle and keep this disease inside my body. Growing up I come from a family with drug abuse. My dad was in and out of my life and my mom was the one who took care of me. I’m so tired of struggling and I know God doesn’t give us battles that we can’t overcome but I’m just about beat.
I’m 18 and I’m going into manhood and I’m afraid because I feel like there’s so many things that I don’t know; partially because I didn’t have my father teach me what it is to be a man. My heart just hurts so bad, I try to look at the positive things but there’s not so many positive things that have happened in my life but more negatives.
I’ve been praying all on my own but I want people to know what Im struggling with. I keep asking why I havent been healed but I believe I will be healed. Maybe its me being selfish wanting the healing now I dont know. I keep telling myself
“Everything will be okay, everything happens for a reason.”
My reminder is the tattoo I have on my arm. It reads
“It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect”
It’s Psalm 18:32. I’m lost and I feel like my disease is just a burden because it keeps me from doing so many things and I just want it all to be different.