And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death.
I am praising God, that I was taught via the Holy Spirit, (as my first teacher) Even prior to attending church. I first came to know the Lord, via watching and praying the sinner’s prayer with Pat Robertson of the 700 club. Later learning more of the Word of God, via various televangelists on television, Dr. Morris Cerullo, Kenneth & Gloria Copeland, Benny Hinn, etc. (therefore, studying the Word of God, as per 2 Timothy 2:15).
As a result, I’d heard God audibly call my name, causing me to seek more and more of Him. In depth…Crying out, that I didn’t want to just “sit on the pews”, I wanted to know how to do exploits for Him, with a full demonstration of His power, as He’d see fit, to give me the grace to do such, like I saw demonstrated in my early years of salvation.
Over the years, I’d eventually began attending church. I saw that many were just “tickling the ears” of those who attended. I wasn’t seeing much fruit and would eventually, ask God’s direction, as to whether to stay or leave, for I knew there was much, much more to God than what I’d witness, for I’d already seen more and wanted more.
As a result, I became disheartened, began to “fall away”, start feeling like, perhaps it was me, who was “missing the mark”, since I couldn’t “conform” to “religious stuff” or “spiritualism”, (which appears to some, as being of God, because it’s all they’ve ever known)… I knew that so much more, should be taught to the congregations of people, who were seeking God.
I started feeling bad, that perhaps it was just me, who saw that God was more, than just a “goose bump” or “enticing words of man’s wisdom”, because I just couldn’t go through the motions, while needing soooo much more of God.
Eventually, being slowly led away and attempting on 3-4 occasions, to commit suicide, due to areas in my own life, where I’d began to compromise, feeling that I too had failed God.
I didn’t want to bring shame to the body of Christ, as I had a giant 11 x 14 certificate of ordination on my wall, which was associated with a worldwide ministry….However, God had a plan for my life and wouldn’t allow it to happen. God wanted me to remain steadfast and immovable, to share the love of Jesus Christ and to know that He was indeed the same God of Israel and that I hadn’t chose Him, but Him me… (Deuteronomy 7:6-9, 1 Peter 2:9-10)
As a result, I’ve began to pray for the churches of America. Praying that not only would God, speak to those in the pulpit, to be receptive to God’s leading, (as it relates to equipping the body of Christ), to fulfill the great commission, but to teach, demonstrating with fruit…(and not just a lot of talk) on how to be prepared, during spiritual attacks and much much more.
I thank God, that He hasn’t allowed me to conform to “religion”, but to seek more of a demonstration of His power & authority in my own life. I want to do more for God. I want God to do more through me. Not only that I may be humbled in His presence, but to also teach others how to be free and to know Him for themselves… So that He will heal our land (It starts with the church).
Sometimes, I recognize it, as a “lonely walk”, being set apart, but I realize that sanctification means to be set apart for His use… Therefore, I ask to be first in line, to ask God to “create within me a clean heart and renew a right spirit within me and not take His Holy Spirit away from me”. (Psalm 51)
2 Chronicles 7:14 (King James Version)
14If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.
Let’s pray for those (Which are called by His name) to clean up our houses for Him, to be glorified through each of us… I solicit your prayers.
He let me know, that I should live and not die, to declare the glory of the Lord (Psalm 118:17). Amen!