I would like to ask people to pray for me. I have reached a really low point in my life. I have health issues and now financial issues.
My brother caused me to indirectly lose a job. I missed my first day. I have no money for food, bills or medicine this month. I’m screwed. Since my illness I am just a burden to my family. I know they are sick of me. I want to just disappear.
I’ve become very suicidal and have my death planned out in my head. I’m sad and confused. I’m asking why me?! My brother is evil and gets away with everything. I think I might move into a homeless shelter and ex-communicate with my entire family.
I don’t know what to do. I’m seeing my counsellor finally this week, so I’ll dump the motherload of my emotions on her.
I’m recovering from partial paralysis and need prayer. The damage to the nerves in my spine cause nerve pain in my feet and it’s unbearable now. My meds don’t work anymore. Can you tell I’m desperate for the Lord to help me?
Sorry for this long pity party I’m throwing. I’m just in too much physical and emotional pain to go on like this. I have no quality of life. It’s just never-ending nerve pain. My God please help me now!
I don’t know what to say … I could throw all the ‘automatic’ responses on you – God loves you through the good and the bad, no matter what happens, things can only get better, ect. But that’s not what you need right now. What you need is your Daddy. (God)
The best advice I can give to you is to find a quiet place where you can guarente you will be alone, ask Him to sit down in front of you and spill. Talk to him, face to face, convince yourself that he really is there, that you just can’t see him that’s all. Be honest, brutally honest. Tell him where you are, where you have been and where you want to be in the future. Just unload it all. Cry, scream, beg – just be honest. Be the person you really are, not the mask that you have to put on when your around your family and friends. If you have faith that he is there, I believe after a while you may even feel it.
God cares about you. You are the lamb he holds close to his heart. (Isaiah 40:11). You are the creation that he came for, leaving behind everything. God gave up a third of his whole being, put in a vulnerable human body to die. For all Jesus knew at Calvary, he was going to die – not a three day rest, but the permanent death of an Atheist – forever, non-existence. God was willing to sacrifice a third of his infinite being for you.
And things may suck at the moment (understatement of the year probably); but I pray it may drive you closer to God. Ask for a close friend – not just a ‘friend’, but one you can be totally honest towards – like we are towards God. Most of all, just try and find God among your pain.
If you ever want to contact me ~ queen_of_mysteria at Hotmail dot com
I’ll try to reply as soon as I can. Be strong, soldier of God. Be strong. I’ll be looking forward to meeting you in heaven someday – God will be able to organise that I guess.
You are a Princess (prince?) of God! You are royalty, saved by royal blood to become royal blood. Just look up in the stars at night to see the jewels that your King promises you. And have hope – hope that he can actually can and will use us as broken vessels to make a difference in the world.
Cherylsafina, I’m praying for you.
Here’s another nice Bible verse that can go with the one that Tash shared with you:
“When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will take care of me.” Psalm 27:10. God will adopt you as His child.
If you let Him take care of you, you will find Him to be the Best Father you ever had.
May God be with you and bless you, dear friend.
Hi cherylsafina,
Just cry out to God. What Tash said is what I do. I’m doing through so much heartache and pain (not as bad as you) at the moment and through crying out to God and being real with Him, He’s starting to turn my life around. I gave up making nice prayers and started to be honest with Him. He knows our hearts and He knows our pain. He sympathizes with our pain. When Jesus saw Mary and Martha crying over their dead brother, He wept. He was the Son of God and knew that He was about to raise Him. Yet, He felt the pain of the two sisters and He wept. He cares brother/sister. He really cares.
Don’t even for once think God has forsaken you or abandoned you. I’ve been there. For years I blamed Him for all the pain I had to suffer through. But now I start to see how He has worked through all that pain to bring goodness. God is able. He is more able than our wildest imagination. Every time when my life felt hopeless, my consolation was knowing that my God sees me and that I’m not alone in this. He’s right there with you. He’s right there with you even when you are in the gutter. When you feel like there’s no one for you in this world and there is no hope, He’s right there next to you. He goes through everything with you. Simply be honest and pour it out before Him. He longs for our hearts, He longs to help. He took it all upon Himself so that we could live free to bring honor to His name. God says not single sparrow falls without Him knowing. God knows everything you feel. Just go to Him. See Him before you and cry out because He said Be strong, for I am with you always, even till the end of the world!
I hope this will give you some hope and encouragement because this is what I hold on to every day.
May God bless you and use what He’s about to do in your life as a testimony for His glory.
Hi Cherylsafina,
I hear you girl. I know what your talking about. I have in the past and am currently going through a storm. I may have not suffered exactly the same things as you are, but I have reached that point, where I began to feel my life was meaningless and that I’d be better off dead.
I have relied on God all my life, and He has not disappointed me yet. Sometimes the enemy will really push you till you stop believing in yourself and God.
But I am here to tell you that all those things are just deceptions. Your situation may seem helpless but you have God watching over you. They say the darkest hour is before dawn and your time to shine is coming, just hold on to the Lord Jesus Christ and He will not disappoint you.
While I was going through the darkest time of my storm I got to a point where I asked myself, “what can I do to change my circumstances? I’ve done all I can but have accomplished nothing”. I then said, I was not going to put all that stress on me anymore, and that I would not push myself beyond what I was capable of doing, and so I decided to let it go and let God Himself do it His way, no matter how hard it would be for me.
I decided to take in the shame with a smile when I could, I also took the pain and everything else and accepted that I had no control over the things going on in my life. I refused to feel responsible for the bad state of my life considering I had repented and been washed by the blood of the Lamb. I chose to trust God with everything I was going through and spoke to Him about it. And even when I felt I didn’t want to pray, I just said to Him that I trusted Him through it all.
I later realised that with every pain God allowed me to go through, there was a lesson. As I daily refused the physical and spiritual afflictions, I realised I was getting better and better. Am still moving slowly, but each day has a new blessing for me and now I know giving up my soul to suicide would have been a terrible mistake because it would have taken away from me the sweetest relationship I will ever have, the relationship I have with my Jesus.
Hold on my friend, it looks impossible but it is very possible for you to be delivered and have a fulfilling life.
Take care, God loves you, for real.