All my life I’ve grown up in church. My grandparents and parents are pastors. 2013-2014, my freshmen year of high school I met this guy who I fell in love with. We dated for a year and couple of months, before I realized I had to end it.
Throughout it all the relationship was horrible. I never knew how bad a guy can be to a girl until I met him. From being hit every time he drank to being raped on my birthday. After that I couldn’t deal with all the ugliest I felt inside. I started to cut myself for four months. I started sending naked pictures to anyone who asked. I struggled with liking girls and guys. I started the life that took me a year to end.
Sophomore year, I lost all my friends because they found out the truth and didn’t want me a part of their lives. I began to lose myself to the worldly things. That November, my youth group attend a youth conference. That’s the first place I ever felt the presence of the Holy Spirit. I knew God was working inside me to not let the devil win. That whole week I knew I had to change. My parents helped me change and now I’m a senior in high school. Living my life the best way I can.
With all the mistakes and regrets I still am a child of God and he loves me. I don’t need the world’s approval. I’m thankful that God showed me the light to brighten up my life through the darkness.
Romans 8:28 (KJV)
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Jeremiah 29:11-13 (KJV)
11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. 12 Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. 13 And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
James 2:17-18 (KJV)
17 Even so faith, if it hath not works, is dead, being alone.
18 Yea, a man may say, Thou hast faith, and I have works: shew me thy faith without thy works, and I will shew thee my faith by my works.