I am 24 years old and completed my dentistry and am practicing for the past 3 months…
I joined my college in 2008 in India and it was the first time I had stayed away from home. I had all the freedom to do as I pleased. I started dating a fellow classmate n it was the first time I had sex. And soon it started to be a regular affair. It did not mean anything to me. There were no feelings involved for me, but I still continued. After 6 months we split. I met a nice guy n we had a long-distance relationship. But everything seemed to be fine.
All this while I never prayed. I never read the bible. I never even mentioned God I believe on contemplation… Then when I reached internship, I met a senior colleague who I grew fond of soon and started to talk regularly to.
When I felt he had feelings for me I told him about my relationship which upset him. But I didn’t try to console him. Things went on. One night he called me up n told me about his broken family. How he longed for love and care. I felt sympathetic towards him and from then on was the beginning of an absolutely godless life.
I met him regularly. Cooked for him, did his assignments, his practical work, I went out with him, spent as much as possible time with him. This made me distant from my relation I was in. But it all changed when one night he said he wanted to have sex and I agreed. N it went on day after day night after night. I lost myself soo soo much. And then more followed days that I was tired and just wanted to sleep and refuse him sex he would get drunk and make havoc below my apartment. Fearing this I used to comply to everything.
He started threatening me into doing things. He stole family contacts from my cell phone. He started to influence me to drink. I was unhappy n in a dark place. I still did not seek God or ask for help.
One day I put my foot down. He came home that night and physically abused me. So much that I couldn’t go to college the next day. I was never treated that way before. I was a normal girl and my life had taken a horrific turn. I wanted out. Then it only got worse when I found out I am pregnant. I had a termination. It is one horrible and painfully lonely night I had in my life. I don’t wish that pain unto an enemy even.
After that I didn’t care anymore. I became numb. He understood I wasn’t gonna give in anymore and drifted away. After that I was alone.
Lonely. I met Someone else. Who didn’t ask for anything but only friendship. It became like a friends with benefits kind of a thing. For few months. I soon got done with college and left for home in about two weeks I realized my skin was changing and that I was getting rashes.
It seemed odd. I suddenly felt maybe I had a sexual disease. It increased and I couldn’t tell my parents. It would be almost earth shattering for them if it were to be a general disease. Until they saw the changes too.
I was soo soo scared. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. In fact, I couldn’t even swallow my food. When it further increased, I met a doc and he gave me a few meds which didn’t help. My parents made it a point to see a better doc.
It was the night before that decision that I for the first time in many years spoke to him. I asked God to help me. I sought him. I cried my heart out to bits. Never have I felt so scared, so lost, so broken. My sins became clear to me. I had done what was sinful in his eyes. He was angry at me and wanted me to understand at least now… I did most certainly did.
I cried my heart out all through nights. Day and night I asked for him mercy. I had asked him to forgive me not for myself but for the sake of my dear parents. Alas, the day of the appointment came. I was sure in my heart that God was with me.
I just couldn’t watch my parents worry about me anymore. It killed me inside. I was diagnosed with psoriasis. Which is a skin disorder due to immunological defects. Never would a doc have seen a 23 year-old girl so happy with a diagnosis of a debilitating genetic skin disorder. I was overwhelmed at da fact that I wasn’t having a sexual disorder… I couldn’t thank God enough…
To this date I know he has worked a miracle that day for me. He heard my pleas, my cries. My prayer from my heart, my repentance. And he accepted it… I am much better now. The symptoms are less obvious.
But my God healed me is my firm and undetected belief. He heard me. I was his lost sheep, but he came back for me. He found me and saved me. And my only regret is I had to reach so far ahead in sinning to get back to him… I wish I knew of his love and mercy sooner. From that day on I have changed like I have never ever changed.
Wow! What a testimony! God is so good to us it is not even funny! He sure does forgive even our filthiest sins..oh God how wonderful you are! Thank you for sharing your testimony sister and God bless you more!
Super testimony dear sister…really. All your sins are washed Away Praise the Lord.
Who can wash away our sins, who can make us pure again, NOTHING BUT THE BLOOD NOTHING BUT THE BLOOD OF JESUS…
BLESS U SISTER KEEP GROWING IN HIM AND SEE U WILL BE OUT OF EVERY SPOT OF YOUR BODY as you prosper in His grace. HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR US.