This happened when I was about 28 or 29 years old…I have always believed in God but I never lived for God or knew what it meant to be a Christian. I didn’t even know the way or how to be saved. I mean my grandma used to say what if Jesus returns or stuff about God…and I would say, I think God looks at the heart, which at this point in my life im sure he does and knows everything of course. (you have to believe Jesus died for your sins and rose on the 3rd day, accept Jesus and repent of your sins and follow Jesus and his commands and do the will of the father (God), be baptized.
I was in my 20’s and knew everything at that age or so I thought! I went through life like most people do…living life day to day working, hanging out with friends, everyday normal things…there is a lot of backstory to my testimony but I’m going to sum it up for people to read and understand that Jesus saved me and he is 100% REAL!
At the time I was in a bad situation, and I pretty much was lost unknowingly. My grandma – we call her Mawmaw – was always part of my life and the rest of her grandkid’s lives. I lived with her on and off since I was 17. My grandma got me out of the situation I was in and when I say got me out of it, she said,
“Ricky, get in the car NOW!”
So, I’m living at my grandma’s house for about 3 months now and im going through some personal struggles with myself in general. My grandma is a strong Christian woman and went to church most of her life and is always going to bible study with friends and always had Christian music or instrumental worship music playing throughout her house.
One morning I woke up and I don’t know how to explain it I’m getting tears right now as I’m writing this. I didn’t think I would feel like this. I had a dream where I was in my grandma’s house and everything looked the same in my dream as her house does in reality. The doorbell rang and I answered in my dream and a girl was standing at the door and she was dressed in a Sunday dress and a round hat, like she was going to church. She was about 8 or 9 years old and said god’s people are watching and I woke up…I didn’t really know what I was feeling after the dream. I kinda dismissed it as a dream, I guess.
Time passed I don’t remember how long but I had another dream one night. I was in a pitch black room. I couldn’t see anything but I heard people talking, like when you’re in a busy restaurant and you hear people talking but you can’t make out what they are saying and all the sudden a door opens in the right corner of the room and I could see the silhouettes of people sitting on the left and right of me like they were sitting against a wall.
All the sudden I hear distinctive (Who are you really) then I’m on my feet walking towards the door where the light is coming from. All the sudden I’m outside. I’m standing on a cliffside and its green grass and I look up and see overcast sky and you could see the sun coming out of the clouds and I’m looking at the ocean and in front of me is a volcano shaped rock with a wooden bridge wrapped around it…like a wooden plank bridge with rope tying it together. I start walking towards it and it’s like I’m gliding…like I’m there in seconds, like I’m being led to it in increments.
I start walking and all the sudden I get halfway around the bridge close to the top and on the corner of the bridge there is a man in a white robe with shoulder length hair staring at the ocean. This was JESUS! Everything you read or heard about Jesus this was him! All the sudden he was face to face with me, like inches from my face. He had the most piercing blue eyes. I can’t explain the way he looked. He didn’t say anything to me. He just stared at me. I turned away from him and started crying and put my hands over my face and woke up.
Again, just a dream to me. I’m still living with my grandma and time passes. I can’t recall how lone. I woke up one morning and this is the part I can’t really explain why. My grandma was gone one morning, and I grabbed her laptop and I went upstairs and I typed in “Jesus” to watch a video. I don’t know what compelled me to do it I just did it, like something inside was telling me to, maybe the dream I had when I typed “Jesus” into the search bar… the video was spinning like it had to load before it started, I sat on my bed staring at the rainy day and I start hearing faint singing, like a choir or women singing, so I look down and the video is still loading. So, I’m thinking my grandma left music on the TV as she usually does. She leaves Christian music playing. So, I just sit and wait on the video to load but I’m still hearing this faint singing.
So, I head downstairs to see where the singing is coming from. I went through the living room and the TV was off. So, then I go to the kitchen where her radio was, and it was off…then I make my way to her room and her tv was off. So, at this point I’m confused because there is no explanation why im hearing this sound of women sing faintly. There is no possible explanation for this sound. At this point I literally go upstairs..I stop on the top step and scratch my head like what’s going on.. haha like you see in the movies…as soon as I get to the top step of the stairs I freeze like what’s going on…I know I hear this singing!
This is the part I can’t explain in words but I’m going to try…all the sudden the singing gets loud like inside me (not on the outside physically) where you can physically hear but inside like its meant for just me) and my hands tuck into my chest and this warm feeling comes over me and I start crying…not because I’m scared… because the experience is overtaking me with the feeling of joy and peace, like the choir is singing so loudly but inside me.. and this feeling is making me cry the louder they sang the harder I cried and snot was literally pouring from my nose it was like a choir of angels singing. It sounded like they were all in sync. It sounded like one but many if that makes sense…like if love had a physical feeling this was it! (what I was feeling).
The angels didn’t take a breath. It was constant. They sang higher and lower in pitch. This was the love of God! It’s like my body was in heaven that’s the way it felt! if that’s what we are going to feel like in heaven…I’m ready to go!!! I know now this was the Holy Spirit revealing the love of God to me.
If you’re reading this, I just want to tell you Jesus is real and God is real. The experience lasted for about 30-45 seconds. After it happened, I sat on my bed and was gathering myself wiping tears and snot from my face and a bird flew up to my window and started chirping…I looked back on my life and all the things I’ve done and been through and the situation I was in…and in that situation I forgot that day when my grandma came to get me.
I sat on a bed and asked God to show me if that’s where I was supposed to be and if it was right for me at that time in my life. He answered me! I told my grandma about what happened and she said it was probably God. At the time I didn’t know what was going on and I thought she would think I was crazy! He let me experience the Holy Spirit and his love firsthand! I wish it would happen again lol.
I’m 40 years old now and married and I thank God for his mercy and grace and sending his son Jesus to die for our sins! So, if you’re having doubts about Jesus or if God is real, I can 110% tell you. HE IS!! I had to share this with people. Every chance I get I tell people about jesus. Hopefully this helped people…This was my testimony. Jesus is the way the truth the life. God bless.
