I am now trusting God with my relationship. It has been an amazing journey for me, and I want to share it…
I got engaged last January. I always knew that this man is whom I prayed for. He also revealed to me that he prayed for me. In our 4 years of togetherness, we were happy. We are sure that we wanted to marry each other and be together forever.
Like every relationship, we always have petty fights and arguments. But we always make up. But things got rocky last July, and my fiancé said that he’s tired anymore. He broke up with me. No valid explanations. He just said that he’s tired of us arguing, and he was scared that we might argue if we get married. I wanted to save the relationship but he’s not giving in. I tried my best for him to change his mind, but he said he doesn’t want to talk anymore.
I was so broken. I could feel this burden breaking my heart. I was left hanging. I tried talking to him for the last time, I drove to his house and asked him if that was really his final decision and that if he still loves me then we’ll fix the relationship.
We were both emotional that time, especially me. I was crying and talking and demanding for an explanation because I do not understand. By the looks of it, he doesn’t want to leave me, but he needs to. I can feel that he still loves me. But in end, he stuck with his decision, and we went our separate ways.
The following weeks were rough. I was devastated. I always cry in my sleep.
And when everything got too hard for me to handle… I knew I needed to pray.
I asked God why He would take my fiancé away from me when I have believed that He is really the one He sent me. I asked God what I should do because I was really hurting.
After I prayed, I got my answer. I opened my eyes and I saw the serenity prayer right in front of me. I knew that is God’s answer to me.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
God wants me to accept the situation and change. I knew I needed some changing. In our 4 years of relationship, I realized that I’ve forgotten about God. I pray but I do not have a relationship with Him. That’s why my bf and I we’re fragile. we are happy but we are not strong. We did not put Christ in the center of our relationship, and I did not put God first. My whole world revolved around my bf.
I surrendered everything to God. I put Him in control over my heart and my life. God wants me to trust His will that He will make all things right.
On my spiritual journey on mending my broken heart, God revealed to me that my fiancé is really the one. I’m certain it was the Holy Spirit. He revealed to me that we needed to break up so we can fix ourselves before the marriage. It is God correcting us.
After two months, I can say that God get me through my darkest days, and I completely understand why it has to happen. I do not feel any pain and anger towards my fiancé. I already forgive him. God filled my heart with faith, hope and love.
Whenever I read the bible, I ask for the Holy Spirit to give me wisdom to understand God’s words rightfully and all I’m getting from the bible is restoration and unity.
If my thought of God bringing us back together is because of my desire, then why am I changing for the better? Why am I getting closer to God?
The sheep knows the voice of its shepherd. I know God talks to me in any way. There’s this one day I was crying over wedding videos, and I prayed to God to talk to me before sleeping and in the morning I just I woke up hearing “YOUR WEDDING IS HAPPENING”… I know it was from God.
And just a few weeks ago, I woke up with God telling me to just let go. I knew I had to obey. So, I texted my fiancé that I’m letting go of him. I understood that God wants me to let go so He can fix him. It wasn’t hard for me because I know God is in control.
I also realized that FEAR is the reason why we’re weak. I feared that I will lose him, so I didn’t trust him fully. He feared that we might argue when we get married.
My fiancé and I are still not talking but I am praying, and I know the God will fulfill His promise. My fiancé blocked me in Facebook and removed all our photos, but it didn’t hurt me because I know we’ll be okay in God’s time. I am praying hard that God takes away his fear.
I trust God and while waiting for our God’s perfect time, I will strengthen my faith and continue loving. God will give us peace and will restore and repair our relationship. I believe that God corrected us in order for us to be ready with our life together. Please pray for us.
Yes wait on the Lord He will do amazing things and you’ll have a powerful testimony. Don’t give up!
Hi . I’m glad to see you put God first . I once asked God that if my now husband wasn’t going to change to be a man of God , then to please take him out of my life . As much as it was gonna hurt. Later on in life, my husband truly gave his life and soul to God and puts him first in everything. We’re now married and no marriage is perfect but with God by our side we can do anything! Praying for you!
I am in a similar situation, I am trying to trust God… I am trying to put him first and seek him. Whenever I pray about the situation I get to hear lot of voices in my head that tells me I won’t do it.. some of them even condemn me .. I rebuke all of that in the name of Jesus. God is silent and I am waiting on him.. asking him to give me a word.. so that I can use it to pray and fight Satan when he speaks his lies to me! I feel so torn and drained at times! Praying for you! God bless you!
I’m praying! I was in a similar situation except I wasn’t engaged. I truly believed in my heart that this guy was the one for me and that The Holy Spirit confirmed it. Once he stopped communicating with me, I began to pray about it and also felt that God was separating us for a season to work on ourselves. I began to really deepen my relationship with God and prayed for him that his relationship with God would get better as well. After awhile of doing this The Lord asked me what my motives were for praying for him, if I was asking for his relationship to get stronger with God was for my own selfish reasons or if I actually cared about his own spiritual walk (even if it didn’t include me). I felt very convicted and began to examine my heart. I didn’t want to admit it, but I wanted him to get better so that we can be together.
Then I became confused because I thought He told me he was the one. Then The Lord began to show me how everything in the relationship was rooted in sin and He cannot be apart of that. I then realized (2 years later) that I had not actually been hearing from God because He doesn’t contradict Himself and He is not the author of confusion. The Bible tells us the enemy disguises himself as an angel of light. And I believe that is what happened to me.
I am NOT saying that this is your story. There are others who have actually been separated for a season and have been reunited. With God all things are possible! I just wanted to share my story, which turned out differently than I thought but I’m so grateful because God allowed this experience to happen to me and I’ve never been closer to God. I believe that He will send someone into my life that is truly one of His sons and is fully submitted to Him.
The wisest advice I can give you is to continue to pray, but release Him to God and just let God’s Will be done whatever that may be. You’ll be covered either way: if God allows him to come back that’s amazing and if He doesn’t then you will have already accepted it and be able to look at it as a sign of God’s love and protection when He closes a door. Live your life, rediscover who you are, and extract whatever lessons you can from this whole experience.
God bless you! Praying for you!
Hi janel!
Very encouraging story that you shared. I pray that God’s will will be done in your life and the life of the gentleman that you were dating.
I’d like to add that I’ve been in a similar situation as yours and would like to caution you and/or give you some things to think about.
I was in a relationship with a man who I thought was the one that God wanted me to marry. I distinctly heard a voice, in my spirit, tell me what I took to be confirmation of this. It turns out later that it was the voice of the enemy. The man I wanted to marry was hiding some issues from me and I learned over time that he had some serious issues that he needed to deal with. Interestingly the issues showed up when I asked God to let me know if He wanted us to be together. I got my answer in one week because the odd behavior on the part of the man I was dating showed up that week . It became blazingly clear that my will was in play, wanting to be married to this guy,and that the voice that I heard confirm that this man was to be my future husband was not the voice of the Holy Spirit. It had been the enemy.
So my point is, Janel, the heart is a tricky thing to work with. It gives us rose colored glasses. The enemy knows how much people love to be in love and how powerful it is and he messes with us. What we think is the voice of God or the Holy Spirit is either our flesh or the enemy of our souls. Because love and our flesh are involved the discernment on our part as to who is speaking can get muddled up.
So my point is, Janel, that I’d ask God to give you a CLEAR answer, plain as day, if this is indeed the man God has for you. He may be! And he might not be. What is most important is God’s will, which it looks like you’re seeking which is good.
Please see this as a warning and not a reply to hurt you. I almost married a man who God showed me was abusive and had many unhealthy issues to deal with. I thank God that He showed me the truth.
If it works out between you and the man you care about, and it is indeed God’s will, then great! I’d just like to add my experience. Heart issues can be muddy sometimes.
God bless you!
I love what you said. The take away here is always go back to the word of God. That is the greatest confirmation of who is speaking to you.
I hope you’re better now in Jesus name.
Hi Janel, thanks a lot for your testimony. Do you have any updates? I am going through a very similar situation. My fiancé broke up with me and I had to surrender my desires to God.
Hello, I wrote this testimony 5 years ago.
Life update is I am already married. 🙂 but not with the man I thought I would marry when I wrote this testimony.
Indeed, when God takes away, it’s for the best. He made me available for His best choice for me.
Looking back I find it funny that I actually believed that it was God speaking to me, but it was actually my desire. I am glad God allowed my heart to be broken.
God’s ways are not our ways. We most times allow our desires to overwhelm us and then think we are being directed by God. Thanks be God for fulfilling His purpose in your life when you released yourself totally to Him. May the Lord bless your marriage abundantly.
Shalom