I am one of thirteen children. My mom died at age eight, on Valentines Day, my dad died at age seventeen. I was molested, raped and had 3 abusive marriages. I was involved in drug abuse, and became very depressed, overweight and suicidal.
I was dating a boy, Gary and he asked me to marry him and I said yes. Gary and I lived together until I was put into a foster home. I ran away from the foster home and moved in with Gary. My dad died and I had a nervous break down and we broke up. With my father’s inheritance, my sister and I bought a home in Los Gatos California, where I met my first husband. Before we were married, I got pregnant but did not know it and had many x-rays to find out what was wrong. When the doctors realized I was just pregnant, they all suggested I have an abortion.
Steve and I moved to Oregon. This is when the beatings started. I got pregnant again and had a miscarriage. We moved back to California, and we our daughter. I separated from Steve again during my pregnancy with my son because of the continual abuse. He then moved to Colorado, and begged me back, so I moved to Colorado, then two weeks later the man who invited us to live with him died. We went on welfare and food stamps.
Then Steve was diagnosed with adult onset diabetes and he moved back to California. We divorced. I had no skills but got a low paying job where I met my third husband Davis. He was cleaning windows on the second story of a hotel and fell off the ledge. He crushed both feet and broke his right arm. Davis got better and was driving to work when police pulled him over. He had a warrant for his arrest, for molesting his niece in Texas. The following year my daughter was in counseling due to behavior problems. She revealed that her stepfather molested her. I couldn’t stay married to this man and we were divorced.
I married for the third time, but shortly after we were married my husband Charlie, was electrocuted with severe burns. Charlie was abusive to my children, and my daughter ran away from home. Charlie kicked us out of the house and I moved into a building we bought that was going to be my dream bakery. There was no heat, no money so I broke down and borrowed from my family. Everything went wrong, but somehow the bakery opened in June of 1997. Success, everyone loved my sweet rolls and sticky buns.
Charlie and I wanted to try to get back together. The kids wanted nothing to do with them so I called their father and he said they could live with him. There were no kids at home, and Charlie became abusive. He threw me against a wall and chocked me. I left my husband and the business and moved in with my brother in California. I was emotionally distraught but somehow was able to secure a good job at Xerox. Well after five years of pinning me, Gary my childhood sweetheart and I married on October 1st 2001. Through all this hardship, Jesus was there with me and I found comfort and strength because of my relationship with Him. Never give up!
In all thy gettings get an understanding. Prov. Stay faithful to God. Be blessed
I want to bless the name of the Holy of holies, the King of all kings, the beautiful savior, awesome God, amazing redeemer, my deliverer, my refuge, my fortress and the lover of my soul.
I was traveling back from Canada and for some reasons has my sister`s passport. I was apprehended and charged on three counts. Charges that could have sent me to about 12 years in jail. I was given a notice to appear in court on August 1st. I asked for God`s forgiveness and for His mercy. I called on God and confessed his word. He said He`ll always cause us to triumph so I confessed his word and simply thanked Him for my victory. Exactly two months from the day this unfortunate incident happened, I got a call that I had been pardoned and need not appear in court anymore. All the charges against me were dropped. Can someone help me take a moment to thank this amazing God, The one i call “The Mighty God My Deliverer. Amen!
My Childhood was not one of the ordinary. I didn’t experience the love, joy and innocence of childhood. From the age of 4, I was being sexually abused by my cousins. I didn’t know it at the time. They used to call it “Playing the Gameâ€. Life went downhill from that point. I was now being raped by some other cousins; it was four of them in total. I was bullied at school, called all kinds of different names. It was at the age of 12 yrs I only then comprehended what had happened to me in my life. I was going to tell my parents but I was threatened by them and even choked one night.
I became a living corpse from then on. I was a living dead. I was cold. I was just an entity in a body. Nights on end I cried myself to sleep from my demise. I felt dirty. Constantly bathing, trying to cleanse off their touch from my body. I felt like someone poured acid on me; it was eating me away daily, bit by bit, piece by piece. I was full of hurt, pain, anger and rage. Years past, and the pains grew stronger and stronger. Nothing quelled the raging inferno burning inside me. Day by day, I was becoming less human. I tried everything and nothing worked such as different religious prayers etc. Suicide was the only way out, the only solution to ease my pain. It would all soon go away I thought.
One night I put a tape around my neck, and I was going to strangle myself, but something pulled me back. My teacher had told me about Jesus. I had nothing to lose, I had already lost the will to live, was too tired fighting to survive and too weak from daily battling. So I closed my eyes and prayed to Jesus. When I closed my eyes……I saw Jesus himself and He was holding a door ledge. He grasped it tightly and was looking towards the sky praying. I said “Jesus, I need u in my life, I cannot carry these burdens again for they are too heavy, come into my life and take them and wash me from my sins.†Then I saw him kneel down in front of me and said “If you had called me earlier, I would have come.†I looked into His eyes and I cannot describe what I saw. It was so full of compassion, love, peace, joy and reassurance and most of all care. He touched me, and everything just vanished. All the pain, anger, hurt, broken heartedness, everything just vanished immediately, like it never happened! What I was searching for all these years, Jesus came and did it in seconds.
I don’t know what about some of the pains that you have gone through, but I know what it is to be broken hearted, abused, alone and rejected. The thought of getting up after this sounds impossible. But I did it; I found my strength in Jesus. I encourage you, if there is any one here, whose burdens are too heavy and whose legs have given up, give your life to Christ and He will come and heal you and make you complete. I once thought that God had forgotten about me because he allowed this to happen but when Jesus came to me Himself and I looked into those precious eyes saw His undying love for me, I understood that He had to wait until I invited him. His love is unconditional, it is eternal.
He taught me how to love myself first when I hated what I saw in the mirror, how to forgive my transgressors when I only had hate for them and how to love His people, just as He loves me. This is my testimony, my testimony of truth of the great works that Jesus did in my life. He can do the same for you. Invite him in and accept Him as your savior if you haven’t yet. He is all too willing to come and carry ALL your burdens as He always care for ALL HIS PEOPLE. Accept God’s gift of redemption today before it is too late. I have a reason to live now…………….his name is JESUS.
Your brother in Christ. God Bless You always. Peace be with You in the name of Jesus.
This is my youtube video fo my testimony as well if you want to view this testimony:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f6wOd0myo_4
Good day everyone, this is my first time doing this but i taught that my testimony can help someone else. when i was 25, i meet a guy at church. already looking for someone to marry. he sang to GOD and prayed and i was impressed. he decided to give me his phone number. from there, everthing else became history. we dated until i got pregnant, so we decided to get marry. but that never happen. he changed on me. hated me, wanted me to abort my child and all. he was unfaithful, not trust worthy, found out so many hidden secrets after having my child. with all this being said. i still decided to move in with him. he treated me like trash, raped me over and over again. he gave me herpes in the process on him sleeping around. to cut the long story short, i felt helpless because i didnt want to date someone else because of my infection. i decided to stay with him regardless so i wont spread it to someone else. i prayed and prayed to GOD for help. it was a long road. he later moved out of the house and left me and my child. i use to get out breaks every two weeks. once he moved out, i changed my prayer asking God the miracle healer to cure me of the disease. TO GOD BE THE GLORY, HE IS THE GREAT PHYSICIAN, THE I AM THAT I AM , THE ALMIGHTY GOD, THE AUTHOR OF MAN. he healed me and my mind was at peace. i was able to move on peacefully and have a happy home again. THANKS TO GOD, believe and you shall receive.
Hello..everyone.this is benhin…i would like to share about my childhood testimony.when i was child i use to play near balcony..mostly in evening and morning times..but one day as i was busy in playing near balcony..the grill’s of the balcony were broad i can easily move forward…without knowing i lost my balance (grip)..and i fell on ground from first floor. my forehead was wounded and i lost my consciousness. my father and mother came hurryly and they submitted me in the hospital. all my relatives and family member’s came to hospital and one of my uncles was a preacher. he prayed for me. Glory to god. within a minutes i woke up and began to play with the oxygen mask. all my family members felt happy and praised god. thanks to the lord jesus i am alive and and every part of my body is perfect… praise to the heavenly father. Amen.