Where do I start…? I had just graduated high school (c/o 17) and got into the college that made both me and my parents happy! We had prayed and wrote the vision, so we knew I was definitely going to get accepted.
Fast forward to when I finally moved on campus and started experiencing mild depression from being away from my parents. I saw a bunch of couples on campus and I started feeling like “If others are in a relationship, why don’t I go ahead and try to pursue one?”
The friends that I had were sleeping around doing things with different dudes almost every other day and I wasn’t into that. At the time I was sustaining from sex and my friends use to go get tested and I had nothing to worry about because I wasn’t active, I was in ROTC so I had nothing to worry about or so I thought.
Fast forward to me meeting a friend who was a friend of somebody in my friend group. I thought he was very cute and I could tell from his physique that he played sports, and he was very much so in shape. I could also tell he took good care of himself which made things even more better… but as they say never judge a book by its cover.
We start getting to know each other after a mutual friend hooks us up and we instantly connect. I always think to myself only if I would have pursued someone else or if I would have just not been so excited to be in a relationship after so long that things would have been different. But to go on with my backstory. We connect, we start spending a lot of time together as a group at first, then we start spending some alone time together and after 1-3 months we partake in sexual intercourse protected each time, so I didn’t feel as if I had anything to worry about because we were protected, right?
Wrong.
He gave me oral, and I honestly believe that’s where everything started. I know my birthday was in October of 2017 and I ended up having a feeling of discomfort around February 2018 and I knew exactly what it was after doing endless amounts of research, I cried, and I prayed. He even cried and prayed once I notified him of everything that was going on I felt as if my life was ruined.
I felt like nobody would ever love me, I would be single forever, no children, no future, no nothing. I ended up going to a few doctors to try and be seen, but their prices were just too extreme, so I ended up contacting my mom after endless days and nights of depression, not going to class and pain. I was to the point that my faith was almost extinct. How could this happen to me, out of all people?
We worked out as a couple and we even went to church as a couple, so what did I do so wrong I would ask myself. I know now that it was me feeding into my flesh, I didn’t need a boyfriend, it was something I wanted, but I ended up coming home and went to the doctor to get my diagnostic and she told me then and there…
“You have herpes.”
I never in my life thought I would hear those words especially regarding my health. My mom said “that can’t be true test her.” And they did just that and the results came back. “Negative” but she made it known that “although this test came back negative, it’s a possibility you have it.”
I spent days trying to figure out my next step, I was so kindhearted I didn’t want to be mean to him despite what took place between us, so I kept him around feeling as if “We both have it now so we might as well be together.”
I was so wrong. His grades ended up dropping and he ended up not returning to college and we eventually broke up. I have been looking for ways to get this off my chest and I am blessed to have come across this website.
I am now in a relationship with a guy, and he recently gave me a promise ring and he plans on proposing once he gets back from basic after this COVID-19 clears up, but I know I won’t be able to fully give myself to him until I am able to receive my salvation, healing and deliverance. I know by his stripes I am healed. I have been writing in my prayer journal non-stop. I lost faith last year, but I KNOW God is able. I AM HEALED!
Thank you for reading, please send your war angles and just cover me from the crown of my head to the sole of my feet. My next test will be negative so I can move on from this hurt in Jesus’ name! Amen
Hi, praying for you and I’m grateful you found this site as well to help strengthen your faith. Use this situation as a spiritual gym. Get back into the gym (the Word of God) and speak every healing scripture in the Bible you can find over yourself. Bill Winston a very good faith teacher suggests speaking Isaiah 53:5 (But he was wounded for our transgressions he was bruised for our iniquities the chastisement of our peace was upon him and with his stripes we are healed) for 7 days two times a day. If anytime you feel symptoms or negative thoughts come to your head stop what you’re doing and read that scripture and any other scripture about God’s goodness, His mercy, His peace, into the atmosphere speak to this mountain with scripture until it moves out of your way and it will!
I would also suggest watching Lena Turner’s channel on YouTube she has a lot of biblical based teachings and videos on healing I would also suggest watching Bill Winston’s healing series on YouTube also I learned from this site about the website 2Jesus.org and savedhealed.com. The goal is to build up your faith in God that you expect nothing less from Him but full deliverance because The God we serve is able to do this- this is but a light thing in His sight, He’s the God of all flesh and nothing is too hard for Him. I also suggest Howtobehealedtv on YouTube as well.
And watch healing testimonies on YouTube as well. I also recommend the book God’s creative power for healing by Charles Capps in this book he has confessions on healing to speak out loud it’s like taking medicine to heal you one confession in particular I like goes as followed: That which God has not planted is dissolved and rooted out of my body in Jesus’ name. 1st Peter 2:24 is engraved into every fiber of my being and I am alive with the life of God. (Mark 11:23; John 6:63) and you are correct you are already healed now just stand still and see the promises of God no matter what the circumstances tell you. I also like this one other quote from Smith Wigglesworth that goes “The most difficult things that come to us are to our advantage from God’s side” and “Faith laughs at impossibilities” so just know you’re coming out much stronger and God will see you through. Fast also if it ever gets too much and feed on The Word of God non stop.
Thank you so much for your response!! God bless! I have definitely been casting out all negative thoughts just focusing on keeping my mind stayed on him! I am going to check out the channels, websites and everything you mentioned above!
I would advise you to watch Joseph Prince Ministries about healing and health through the Holy communion. Search his teachings on YouTube. Also look at the website to read testimonials of ppl being healed of incurable diseases. I read one of a young lady who was healed from Herpes type 2.
Daily meditate on healing scriptures and thank Jesus for healing you.
Thank you for the response! I will most definitely check those things out!
I had the same thing happened to me back in 2017 where this guy I knew from High School gave me Genital Herpes. When I found out I was hurt and sadden because I thought I could’ve have trust this guy I known from school.
I totally understand, but I know that all you need is faith the size of a mustard seed. You are healed! Have you recently been tested? Just wondering
I am going through the same suffering I have
Been diagnosed with herpes 8 years now,
After I was diagnosed, I gave my life to Christ, And been praying and fasting, but to be honest some times I lose faith, why? Because the worst part is that my daughter at the time was 3 years old, and she caught it from me, it have to be me, b4 I knew I had it.
So I lose faith some time and say what’s the sense I get cured and my daughter is still infected with this dirty disease and she is so innocent, but I plan to keep fighting for hear for both of us. Please HELP US!! But I must say I keep researching ways and mean how to heal us.
I am sorry to hear that! You continue praying for yourself and your baby! You guys are already healed don’t loose that faith mama! The Lord hears our cry! Just have little faith!
Keep pure before marriage go to confession, repent of your sins and then pray for the right marriage partner
A lot of youth don’t realise doing sexual activity before marriage is actually a mortal sin.
Hi, are you still asking God for healing?