Discouraged…
Hi I’m 26. I’ll be 27 in a few months. I’ve been through so much and I’ve sought God much, but I still feel so alone! I pray all the time for God to lead me.
I’m so different from my family barely talk to them have no friends. I have a boyfriend but I’m too lonely to leave him. He may not be the best one for me. I wish I could give you all more detail, but it’d take really long.
To sum it up I just need help. I feel dumb. I can’t socialize. I’ve tried to take my life. Like I beg God to show me and lead me. I want to do right. Most people my age could care less. I feel I do, but I’m never happy with no confidence.
Can someone help with advice? It hurts so bad. It’s so much. I want God to show me some type of grace? When I beg him, I just want to be normal n happy and want God’s will for my life, but I’m just so stuck. I don’t even know if this makes any sense, but God led me to this site. Hopefully, I’ll get some help and insight. Please God, I need you. This is what I say all the time. I just feel so stupid and alone.
MOCHA324,The 26 soon to be 27!
Hello, I accepted Jesus Christ as my lord and savior when I was 19 and I felt God helped me to see that I need to trust in him more before he led me any further. Well, I ended up ignoring the things that God wanted me to get out of my life. He wanted me to remove things that kept me from him so I could see his plan for my life more clearly. After I was saved, I felt God’s presence on a daily basis. God was leading my life I wanted to read his word and I felt like he had something planned for me.
I started to read the Bible less and continued on my own path well I found myself hung over one morning on my way to work and I stopped at a gas station. This convertible car pulled up and the music in the car was this incredible praise music. I was convicted on the spot and as I began to drive, I started to cry and confess all my sins and I felt terrible, and I wanted to change the way I was living my life. Well, I made small changes, but I found myself committing the same sins that I could have prevented like drinking, cussing etc.
I eventually got to the point where I thought God was nowhere around. I would pray for God to show me his purpose for my life. I got confused I was so lost I ended up making a lot of mistakes and felt that God had forgotten me. I stopped reading my bible and I had many selfish prayers at this point in time in my life I was begging for God to just show me this great plan he had for me. I got to the point that I had made so many mistakes that I was afraid to go to God any longer. I felt like I had to get right then go to God.
Well Things got a lot better. I discovered that you go to God to get right. After I found myself in a completely difficult situation, I realized that I need God more than ever. I was getting deployed to Afghanistan. Talk about being confused I did not even know why I joined the army in the first place. Well, I can tell you know being able to look back that God was by my side the whole time.
But then I had no idea what was going on and I was scared to leave home. I had just got out of my initial training for the Army and a month later I started training for my deployment. Well, I now know that this was the best thing that could have happen to me. I told myself that I was going to grow spiritually on the deployment. I ended up changing my life completely. I just had faith in God without being able to feel his presence. I started to study my bible daily. I was still confused but I refused to give up. I got frustrated at times I found myself being confused about my bible reading. I could not understand a lot of it.
Well, God gave me this great gift, a fellow Christian. This guy was 28 I was 21 and he knew that I was struggling, and he said try this and gave me one sermon. I took that sermon and I wanted him to give me more. but he knew that I was not ready for them yet, so he kept them close like some secret item. Well about 1 week later he asked what I thought, and I told him that I listened to that sermon like five times in a row. It was a slow process but over time I ended getting up every morning at 3:30 and listened to a different sermon and read my bible and prayed I did this for the rest of my deployment. (This was the only time that I could have personnel time in between missions) It actually got to the point where I would be mad if I did not get to study. Well, I would like for you to know that God has shown me a blueprint of what he could do in my life. It’s up to me to stay in his will.
After I was saved thought I wanted to be a Lawyer and I planned to go to law school. Then that changed to a career in finance. There are many options for my future but right now God has led me to learn everything I can about his Word. I am now attending a Bible college full time. It was not easy, but God does have a plan for your life. If you are breathing his air God has a plan for your life. If you feel like something is not good for your walk with God, then get it out of your life. I could not quit cussing for a long time. I had to get rid of all my secular music. It provoked foul language and took focus from God. I stopped watching provocative movies. I am willing to do anything to be in God’s will. God has the very hairs of your head counted. Trust in God and make the decision to trust in him with all you have.
God has all good thoughts of his children. When he says to give you an expected end that means he has a plan for your life. Read your bible daily and if you feel like it is difficult to understand like I did find a preacher that you can talk to about your studies. That is why God has provided us with Preachers.
Find a church to go to. Do all the research you can about living the Christian life and apply it to your life. If you have to separate yourself from other people who bring you down and away from living for God do it. I promise that you will look back and realize that God was with you all the way.
God will do whatever it takes to get you on track. There is glory in tribulation but during the tribulation it is hard to see God’s plan. God bless and I will be praying for you. If I can help in any other way you can email me at (billyjoegreen at gmail dot com) Please don’t hesitate to ask any questions. I hope that this was a blessing!!!
Hi, I’m 27 and I understand exactly how you feel. I used to be distant from my family and people as well, and actually felt so insecure that my bf and I will split. Eventually God showed my that all this fear and reluctance toward others is because I lacked love. I so remember God gave me this verse John 4:18 perfect love casts out fear. And I repeated it out loud and asked jesus to put that love in me cause i couldn t myself. I also had to trust God and surrendered all to him. I think God has much more for you than a normal life, so he is showing you what you need to change in you. I do believe that evrything with God cooperates with our own decision to win with him the battle. I can say that even though my life’s not perfect, God has made so big chages inside of me. I feel so much more secure and surpris emyself that I do love being with people. Take care and be blessed.
Gemma thank u for taking time to answer me. I hope you check back for my response. I have tried n tried to ask God to fill me with love but I still feel awful n. I seek him so much I spend hours praying I try to have faith but feel cursed I don’t understand y me I’m tortured in my own mind I thought God had me special towards him also n had more than normal plans for me but honestly I don’t ever feel it or get signs of being renewed n just happy in him I feel so stupid dropped outta college no job no social life u just don’t know ppl call me slow n say something s wrong with me I just can’t do life rite it hurts so bad. Please respond. I’m trying so hard I cry daily I’d help the world if I could I just don’t understand n everyone else n evil ppl seem so happy please pray hard for me. I want gods will so much n want to be happy but everything around me is bad.
Why would God allow this I’m so hurting n there’s so much more details but I’m not going to overwhelm who may read this or u. Thanks again for trying to help respond if u want.
whatever happens trust the word of God when he says he will never leave you nor forsake you, he means what he says. trust god in your situation sometimes God tests our faith so don’t be discouraged (Joshua 1: 9 says I command you to be brave and strong do not be afraid or discourage for I the lord your god am with you wherever you go… I was ones depressed and wanted to kill myself I lost my friends when i was seeking God but the word of God saved me that day. Jeremiah 29:11 says
I alone know the plans for you plans that will prosper you and not bring you disaster plans that will bring about the future that you hope for.
God loves you spend more time in the word and ask God for people to encourage you… keep on praying and never give up remember you are a child of God and God gives the best to his children. whatever you do do not take your life because I believe in my heart there is a plan that God has for you. peace be still. ask for strength call out to him he will answer Mathew 7:7
He is alive and will strengthen you.
keep on praying may the peace of God be with you. amen
Marcus I try so much to get in word and have faith but still miserable. please read my other response to gemma to understand more I wanna give up but I think I want to live even more, but God isn’t showing me anything I feel I hurt sooo much u have no idea have been put down most my life it’s so much. How can God use me if I never feel rite with him? It’s so much more I feel like I can’t even articulate please pray hard for me I hope u read my response to u. Thanks again I’ll never forget all of u n this site for trying to help me more than my own family has respond if you can
Hi Mocha!
You are not alone! The way you feel now, the way everything seems to always be against you, severe unhappiness… I know that feeling all too well. Im the youngest of my family, my brother and sister are 15 years my senior. I never had a close relationship with them. My mother and sister are really close, almost inseparable. In my mother’s eyes, I will never come close to being equal with my sister. It’s the same way with my father and brother. So I grew distant from my family. Like you, it’s hard for me to socialize. I have no friends because everyone says that Im different. I have always felt different and never really saw myself worthy of living. Also, years of being put down has stripped me of my confidence. So, while reading your message, honestly, I tried to recall if I actually wrote it.
God works in ways we will never understand. Lately, I had to understand that God will do things on his own time. Your blessings may not come when you want them to, but with God in control everything will be on time. I realized that you have to make an effort to truly trust God and believe in your heart that he will make a difference in your life. I used to beg and plea to God for a change, but never really gave him time to make that miracle happen. Remember, faith is more than just praying, its also believing. Now, I have been studying scripture, attending church, and most importantly patiently waiting and trusting God for that wonderful change in my life. Mocha, Life is too precious to spend like this. You only live ONCE. God loves you, and doesnt want you to spend your life miserable and alone. Youre’ never alone with Christ. Place your burdens on Christ, he will help you carry those burdens.
Mocha, remember, you are not fighting this alone. Continue to seek God, and I believe that he will lead both you and I to SALVATION. You must believe in your faith…and please believe in yourself. You can email me at any time at nessa_096 at yahoo dot com or IM me on Y! if you want to chat.
The Lord is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the strength of my life; Of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked came against me, to eat my flesh
My enemies and foes, they stumbled and fell.
Though an army may encamp me, My heart shall not fear.
Though war may rise against me, IN THIS I WILL BE CONFIDENT.
Psalms 27:1-3
Hey mocha,
I don’t know where things are with you right now… it’s been a while since the last post on this, but I was just reading through and something I just wanted to put out there is some amazing sermons you should check out by Louie Giglio.
1. the anchor of hope
2. the megaphone of hope
3. how great is our god.
i highly highly recommend these!
In terms of scripture john 16 is quite good. Being a Christian doesn’t mean life will always be good, Jesus said ‘While you are in the world, you will have to suffer’ but he also said ‘in me you will have peace. God often works in ways we will never understand, but NEVER forget HE LOVES US. He loves you so much mocha and if you can trust him, and I know it must be hard, he will hold on to you through everything he will keep loving and loving and loving if you keep hoping and praying and trusting in him, he will restore your strength and fill your cup just keep on holding on even by the tinyest string. Keep knowing yes this is horrible but the Lord Jesus loves me he will heal me he will heal me he loves me.
Also seek help from the church get some people praying with and for you because the power of prayer is so strong.
I hope this helps; I pray you have the strength to keep on going.
Never give up.
Love Dominic.
Thanks, dominic !! im a little stronger than I was when I first posted! but still feel really down & IM trying soo much with GOD, scripture, praying, church, it seems so far away before I feel whole for once in my life and happy! I won’t quit holding on to GOD though!! please pray for me I want to be healed so much so i can help others maybe going through the same thing! I just want GOD to use me & I want his will for my life so bad!! it’s the only way to be truly happy. please pray for me again & I will check out the sermons thanks again dominic love mocha GOD bless!
You may not believe it, but God is drawing you closer to him in your pain. He says that he loves a broken spirit. Being broken is hard and is something most people try to escape from, but it is necessary for those who would seek God. I pray for your determination. Continue to seek him. He says that all who seek him will find him, but you must seek with all of your heart. He also says that he will not turn away any who would come after him. Keep on seeking, he wants you to be consumed with himself. Find a good church where you feel his spirit, and people who love him with their whole heart, and when he draws you closer to himself do not resist him. It will be uncomfortable, and scary, but it will lead to a new life filled with his love and acceptance.
Joseph thanks for responding .. its just im 26n i feel ive been tortured half my existence wen evry one else seems happy why wont god show me a breakthrough? it hurts every second .. I cant afford to travel to find the best church or ppl to be around so i feel no one understands … i just wnt GODS will but seems he thinks i may not deserve it? im so confused… id help the world if i could god lorrdd pleeeassee use me .. joseph please respond or email lluuvve@hotmail.com i need any advice please pray hard 4 me god bless
“unhappy life is worth living for.” life is there to be lived in a mid hardship and joy. we all know that happiness is one of the most dream things in this world. it you cannot have it here, maybe you can have it in life after. remember that happiness in this world is just temporary. do not look at it as important thing is this world. what is important is that you are living in accordance to the will of God. even if you are feeling unhappy with yourself, persevere and have hope. real happiness is not here in this world. what you have to do is to pray and work for your prayer. with that, im sure that you will be happy in the midst of unsatisfying family relationship and life. as long as you breath, you hope!
Visit your local animal shelter. There are dogs there who will help you heal. Notice how great they are. Hug them and then pray, “Now what?” Then all you have to do is relax by swinging on a swing-set or playing golf (whatever) and the answer will come to you. God will lead you to the next right thing. I know this may sound silly, but this can help you. I know this kind of thing works.
Hey I tried to e-mail you to let you know that I was praying and to talk if you wanted. If you would ever want to talk to me you can e-mail me at tomtomgk3@yahoo.com.
It is natural to feel like this sometimes, but I am hoping it does not turn into a full cycle.
When I have felt like you, I read not only the bible, but other helpful Christian books.
I don’t know your gender, but a trustworthy author, Beth Moore, put out a book recently for women struggling with insecurity.
I did not know this was where much of my pain and problems in life were rooted. Sometimes we are not happy because we feel insecure like how you feel right now, insecure in your relationship, insecure in your trust of God, insecure without confidence like you mentioned.
Please read this book. It will help you sort through your emotions. If you are a male, perhaps find a book like this one for you.
Proverbs 31:25
She is clothed in strength and dignity.
Believe this today…God gave every human dignity. You have self worth and do not hate yourself. God clothes you in strength and dignity. Believe it as much as you can.
Thank u haya n notperfect for advice n keep praying please thank u God bless
Mocha, Hi my name is Jessica. I was recently saved on October 11, 2009. I am 33 years old. I was in a similar situation as you. When I read your story, it really hit home with me. In my situation, I was in a relationship with a man who I love and still do love very much. He was addicted to crack cocaine and his lifestyle began to consume me to the point of me being suicidal. I had been hospitalized for depression and my family and friends could not understand why I wouldn’t leave him. I had put this man before God. I was not raised in a church but in my heart I believed in God. I cried many nights to God asking him to help me get out of my situation and asking him why me? One night I told God that let his will be done in my life. I told him whatever he had to take to take it and however he had to do it to do it. I meant it with everything that I was. I asked for the forgiveness of my sins and fell asleep in tears. I was willing to give up this man but it would not be my doing because I had no strength. Do you know that God woke me one morning with an overwhelming desire to go to church. I heard Gods voice for the very first time telling me to go to Stephanies Church. I went and was baptized in Jesus’ name and he filled me with the Holy Spirit and I began to speak in tongues. This is something that I had questioned for years when I witnessed people do it but it actually happened to me. Since that day I have been delivered from Depression, Alchohol and Drugs. Yours prayers are not in vain. God knows all and sees all. I am a liviing testimony. He is drawing you nearer as you read this passage. I promise. Keep your faith and believe. He will come into your life and you will never be the same.
Hi mocha, seek the things that are above. Seek God’s face, but don’t go to God with your cares for this life, that won’t work. Go to God emptied of yourself. It’s not about you anymore, live not for yourself anymore, seek His Kingdom, a relationship with Jesus, seek to know Jesus. It’s by unmerited grace of God that God calls us but God also tests us to see what is in our hearts, whether He is our God and All in All and we have no idols before Him. If we do, and if you are a true child of God He will knock all your idols out, He will make you see that He is the only one, source of your existence, you are kept by the power of God alone, start seeking Him now, praise Him always, especially in the fiery trials, you will be broken if you yield to His Spirit but if you resist, you will be ground into powder – you won’t ever come out purified. Trust the Lord, He knows what is best. Nothing is more precious than your soul, to God. All the other things are trivial, the cares of this life will choke the Word. Only 1 in 4 (according to the parable of the sower) will make it to eternity. Those who deny themselves and love not their lives. Be encouraged because when you fully surrender to the master potter, He will make all things beautiful in His time, you are His workmanship, let Him do what He needs to do with you. Do not murmur anymore, but surrender. Humble yourself, He will exalt you in due time. Decrease and Christ will increase, in you.
All you who are heavy laden and weak come to me and I will give you rest” Jesus will give you rest Mocha , You have no IDEA how much God loves you , He loves you so much He gave you His only begotten Son , (Jesus Christ)to Die for you on the cross , so that ALL your past present and future sins will be forgiven and not only that When you accept in your heart and confess with your mouth that you believe Jesus is God and you accept His love for you , Jesus will take care and you will come to know of His love for you and then will you love Him with all your heart you see ” We love Him because He first Loved us” , Trust me ones you know of His Grace and His love you will see how perfect you are in His eyes and you will Love yourself just as He loves you, “seek first the Kingdom of God , and all things shall be added unto you” , you dont have to do a good deed of even judge yourself All you have to do is tell Jesus (tell Him literally) that you do believe in Him and you want Him to come into your heart , John 3:16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only Begotten son, so that whoever believes in Him (Jesus) should not perish ( be weak , sick , fall asleep(die young) , Go to hell, ) but have everlasting life ( be blessed, be healthy, be stong, be perfect in the eyes of God) you see when Jesus died on the cross He took ALL our sickness’s All our sorrows All our worries All our sins All our financial problems and His last words on the cross was that ITS IS FINISHED all gods judgment has fallen on Jesus , Jesus died so that we might LIVE! its time for you to rest and trust in Him, I will keep praying for you
God Bless
xoxoxo
stop trying to work and yield to the only person you can have access to the Father God and He is JESUS. Begin to call His name JESUS JESUS JESUS JESUS, I PROMISE HE will show up. When He does cry out to Him, He promises He will save those that call on His name. You see His name is the only name by which man can be saved. Let me share some very simple biblical truths with you. The first thing is this we must confess our sins verbally (not in our hearts) and acknowledge that you are a sinner in desperate need of our Saviour Jesus. Ask Jesus to come into your heart (again, you have to ask with your mouth/words, (not in your heart because your heart is where the secrets are kept and where we need the light of Christ to expose darkness), confession is made unto salvation). Ask Him to be the Lord over your life and believe that you have received His promise. Next ask Him to fill you with the Precious Holy Spirit, He is our comforter. Let the Holy Spirit fill you with all He has for you so that you may begin to walk out your salvation. The next thing you need to do is feed on the Word of God. Realize this if any man be in Christ he is a new creation, this means you have to stop doing the works of the flesh, of course the Holy Spirit will help you. Practical things ie, stop gratifying your flesh, those things that feel good to you, no matter what those things are. Remember you have been redeemed/bought with a price the precious blood of the Lamb. Jesus became and took your sin for you so that we can become sons and daughters of the Most High. Our lives are not our own. Some other things that are important for you to know is this, just because you are a Christian doesnt mean there will not be a fight. The battle is in your mind and it is the devil’s job to bring up your past, but when he does Verbally tell him it is covered in THE BLOOD of JESUS CHRIST. remember God is for you not against you and NO ONE can go straight to GOD our Father without JESUS saying I have given them authorization because they have accepted ME! I am willing to share so much more if you need me. slaytonkris at yahoo dot com
Allow me to introduce you all to Jesus, mere human words will not heal. Jesus is a friend that sticks closer than a brother, a very PRESENT help in the time of need, begin to call His name JESUS JESUS JESUS JESUS, I Promise All of you He will show up. slaytonkris@yahoo.com
I pray for you, in the name of Jesus Christ that God will give you hope. You were born with a purpose. You may not know it yet but God will show it to you. There are people that only you can reach and will only hear your voice. You can and will help others. You are useful to the kingdom of God. God loves you and will heal your broken heart. Don’t give up. Seek your purpose and give your cares over to the one who loves you most. Jesus.
I felt that way once before and the very things i didnt like about my self were the things that I couldn’t understand or wasnt doing right. Does it make you feel that the things people love about you are the very things you hate about yourself and would so rather be them. I had to realize and still is realizing that God’s people are peculiar people (strange, weird, different) and that’s who we are destined to be. Don’t hate yourself, learn yourself. God said that we were made up in his image and God is made of love. I dont honestly think God will create us for us to hate our selves. In every one of us their lies something special that God only gave to you. You have to seek that and embrace who you are. At the most, if there are things about you that you truly hate, ask God to free you of them and change. Have faith and believe that God is who he is. Along with your faith you have to put in works to change for the better. Faith with out works is dead remember. If you get to a point where something about you just won’t change ask God to reveal those things to you. I cry out to God scream, cry, praise and God said seek him so I do and he is there for me I know even when I am doubting. If there are things in your life that you are not please with that you have done than ask God for forgiveness and free your self from it. Tell the devil he is a liar and bind those thoughts that he places in your mind. If there are things that people have done to you forgive them, so that God can continue to forgive you and you can loose those chains of bondage. Lastly be true to your self, expose the devil in your life and command him to leave in Jesus name. Don’t give up on God and self because God alone is all you need. Remember he said “if we focus on him he will take care of all our need according to his riches and glory. That means every thing right, (physically,mentally,emotionally, financially,) Trust him, depend on him, coun on him, he is not a liar. We, us , you, are the one he gave free will to and if you stay with him he wont let you down im sure. Take care.
sweetheart, i don’t know your full story but i can tell you are very depressed. I Know Because I’ve Been Right There, I Know What It’s Like I have been through so much in my life, but God brought me through it all! praise Jesus! you will make it baby! don’t give up! God is faithful he will not leave you alone! you are an overcomer! you will not be DEFEATED!
Dear Mocha,
I just saw your text. I was touched by your pain.
I hope you are feeling more encouraged. I hope you
know that God does love you. He made you and you
are beautiful in His eyes. He has a plan for you.
Don’t listen to the lies in your mind. I pray that
you will find a church or support group of women
to help you through this. Hope you post an update.
His grace is abundant to you.
Hi Mocha,hope you are doing great now.Many people are giving you a wonderful advice I wish you would apply it into your life.Jesus said,I am the Bread of life.He who comes to me will never go hungry and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.(John6:35)
Please search a Church that is glorifying our Lord Jesus Christ (Born Again Church).Ask God to give you a true Christian friends and have fellowship with them.Most important to have a deep relationship with the Lord Jesus by the power of His Holy Spirit,your life will change glory to glory.You must be Born Again that you can see the Kingdom of God(John 3:3)In His Kingdom you will find joy,peace,love,blessing,deliverance,restoration,healing…everything that you need.Please read the Bible believe in Jesus and believe in His word surely you will find life in Him.When you have a deep realationship with the Lord,you will be filled by the Holy Spirit and your joy will be complete.His presence will encourage you and His grace will embrace you.Please watch JC Praise Worshippers on Youtube their songs will help to encourage you.Never give up because Jesus loves you and I will pray for you.God bless you
You are under a grate deal of oppression and you must take authority over the enemy who wants to destroy you. You must read healing scriptures and learn who you are in Christ. You are a conquerer, and you must learn to act as one. God will give you the victory. If you suffered abuse there are many online helps for christian victims. There are many websites and prayer links who can help you. I at one time was so down my only solace was a christan depression group. It has taken 8 years for me to get free. There are prayer groups on skype and buble studies. That is where i get my fellowship, I have no church close and my friends are few and non christian. God has a plan for your life, and you only have to believe He is right there with you now.
wow! praise God..I love all the messages of hope, because they give me hope too. Mocha I will pray for you to and hope God has blessed your life already. I also have suffered from depression for a long time and the feeling that I am a social outkast. I have repeatedly taken these thoughts to the Lord and God keeps speaking to my heart that I do not need to fit into the world and seek acceptance from it, because God has already accepted me as I am. In fact, there is nothing wrong with me I am perfect according to his will those thoughts are from the enemy and they are NOT TRUE. I still struggle in my life with thoughts of depression, and not being worthy but I still hold onto God and I know God is still holding onto me, probably more than I am. I think just have to block those thoughts out of your mind and realize you are already perfect as you are and that God’s love is sufficient and God’s grace is enough to carry you through life’s trials and tribulations.
I know this post was written 4 years ago, but I have to reply because I am in this exact situation. I’ve been lonely my whole life with no friends. I’ve always been an introvert and get anxiety when I’m around people even my own family. I got my first boyfriend 2 years ago and although I knew in my heart we weren’t meant to be, I kept pretending like I loved him just because I was afraid to go back being alone. We fought so much. He told me many times he didn’t love me and wanted to leave me, but I would cry and beg for him not to leave me, so he’d stay, but things would get worse each day that passed.
He left me last month. For good this time. I tried so hard begging him to come back but he blocked my number and refuses to see me.
I am living my worst nightmare because I’m back to being lonely again. I’m so miserable. I cry every night. I pray for hours each day, and I feel like nothing helps. This past month has been the worst month of my life and I just want him to come back so bad. I hate being alone. I hate coming home to an empty house with nothing and no one. I have no motivation to do anything because I’m just too miserable.
I pray so hard every day for God to heal me, bring restoration and blessings. Sometimes I get so depressed I pray angry prayers to God asking why he isn’t doing anything. My situation is still the same. I’m still in great pain and still cry each day.
This morning I pulled in to the parking lot at work and I looked up at the sky and saw a face. I was in complete shock because it looked like an actual man’s face! The clouds faded away within seconds, but I wonder if that was a sign from God that he is with me. I don’t know if that was just a coincidence or if it was a sign from God, but it was so comforting and reassured my faith.
Although I’m still sad and depressed, I have faith and I trust in God that he knows exactly what he’s doing. He wants the best for me. Everything happens for a reason. I just need to calm down, relax and trust that God will take care of me.
I’m doing much better .. praise god.. if anyone sees this update…thank u all God blessings