Huh?

What is life? The famous cliché that tends to trap it victims, but some forget Gods children are not victims. A better rephrasing of those three little words, why is life? Why do we walk, breath, feel and talk? What is the point to suffering? It’s not fair, why do I have to cry? Where do I go from here.

Well, people don’t see it, but we have 3 choices. We can one, commit suicide (not recommended, does not work most of the time). Two, we can live with our misery and learn to enjoy it (impossible). Or three we admit our flaw and surrender control. Seriously, think about it, what control do I have anyway? I mean someone can come in my room right now and shoot me. Where is the control? I only control what is in my hands. You only control that with which you are given control of.

Now, not everyone likes to accept that fact, even prophets, Jonah did not want to go where God told him to, but guess what, he got over that problem really fast. I like to sit back and think of all that has gone right for me. Life has gone right. But there is a lot of gray in the matters of right and wrong. You’re not really wrong when you’re wrong only if you have learned and have taken responsibility. That’s the key. You are never right even when you’re right, because no one is perfect. So how do people accept that fact, it’s very hard but at the same time the easiest thing in the world, and so relieving!

Sometimes my mind runs and I can not seem to catch up, I am constantly thinking of stuff, relevant or not to life. My son carries the same burden, or gift, depends on the thoughts! My latest is people and the way they cope with fear. When does fear turn to pride? Can pride be seen as a mask for fear? Sometimes, when I get scared of being hurt by someone, I think of reasons why their opinion does not matter. I’m more right with God then they are, I’m more humble than they are, blah blah blah. That’s how it goes; people are scared of judgment from God or people, so they build a case against each. But not all criticism is bad criticism. Sometimes we need to hear the truth to find that hidden child, sometimes there is growth and love behind what is initially seen as pain and attack.

On the other hand, fear may be fear, plain and simple. But what is fear in and of itself? Fear is protection, a response to negative stimuli. I see fear as a basic, carnal instinct that was implanted in our genes at the first sight of trouble, that day the first choice of man (or woman ha-ha) was practiced, the Garden of Eden. But it does not stop there; God does not want some drone mindlessly walking the world with no chance of a relationship, why do you think he created Adam and Eve? Some believe they were the first, wrong. There were people before Adam and Eve. The only difference is Adam and Eve were the first souls. Ok ok, I know you need proof, ill give some scripture.

Genesis 1 27-28: so God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.

28: and God blessed them, and God said unto them, be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moves upon the earth.

Genesis 2:5-8: and every plant of the field before it was in the earth, and every herb of the field before it grew: for the lord God had not caused it to rain upon the earth, and there was not a man to till the ground.

6: but there went up a mist from the earth, and watered the whole face of the ground.

7: and the lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul.

In genesis 1 26 : AND God said, let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps upon the earth. (the word “our” is referring to God the father, son, and holy spirit. Also satan because that is where sin is, the flesh). Image means fantasy, pretense, and unreality. Genesis 2 Adam was made a living soul, he was formed, and there is a difference between created and formed. The difference is that when it is created it is new and in darkness. Formed is the same word reformed in the New Testament. Created means new, formed is building on the new creature, reshaping or reforming, inside out. Genesis 1 it is created, genesis 2 it is formed. Eve was made, made is a different meaning, it is like when you reform something then it is mad into something else, for insistence if you take 2 chemicals and put them together u get a third.

Yes, I know, confusing. It was for me to. But look at it this way. If God were easy, if he mad life simple, what would we learn. Sounds like something I tell my kids, but seriously, where is the lesson in easy? Do we not learn better when we are allowed to do and mess up? Do we not expand our own thinking, when we have just climbed a hill? I know I learn from the hard, kinda like my past. I would not trade any amount of pain for anything better. Sounds weird I know, but what would I be right now if not for all the struggles? Would I be some spoiled rich kid to shallow to empathize with someone? Who knows, all I know for sure is my past made me what I am right now.

Strong, I am so tired of beating around the bush with love, I don’t want to put my whole world into something if it is a lie, I’m tired of lies. That’s where I am at with God. my past has made me strong enough to handle everything, cause I want nothing more than truth. There is no point in doing something, no point in wasting my time and strength if it were not real. I came into God’s light running on fumes, but I have been filled. God bless you.

Right now, at this moment, I have come to realize that life is more than a few good words and a genuine smile; it’s how you come back up from the bottom with more valiancy than you went down with. Its about lending your heart out to those who want it, and sometimes having it broken. My life, is and was about the ability to come back. Not only come back, but bringing something up with me. yesterday was about climbing a ladder, and tomorrow will be about climbing another, but right now I am enchanted by his mercies and on cloud nine for the ability to see those mercies.

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