I was born into a broken home. I’m the oldest of 4 siblings. I have 2 younger brothers and 1 younger sister. my dad was very verbally abusive and only 1 time was he physically abusive (to me the majority of the time). I inherited OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder), clinical depression and a small form of Tourette’s syndrome from my mom’s side of the family. my mom has bipolar disorder, so she has been my “body guard” because she never judges me because I don’t “look” or “seem” mentally disabled. many people have had the nerve to tell me to deny I have mental illness. well, if I denied that, I would only be hurting myself. So I have mega trust issues with people because they judge me.
Anyways, my dad divorced my mom when I was 12, my once whole, happy family was destroyed that very day. I thought I would never see my dad again. I felt completely abandoned, I was overwhelmed. my youngest brother was even angry and jealous that Jake (my half-brother, long story behind that) had OUR dad as a full-time father and we didn’t. Today, that still angers me.
My mom and I (we are both Christians btw) were having dinner at Pizza Hut. I don’t have any memory of what we talked about, but after we got into the car, my mom asked me if I wanted to invite Jesus into my life. I accepted Jesus Christ into my life that night – 3 years after my dad left us.
Ever since that day, God has revealed many things to me as to why things happened, I still long to know more answers, but God says no. I accept that now.
My favorite Christian singer is Britt Nicole, her song, All This Time, is also my Salvation story.