Girl Meditating - Prayer

How God Protected Me Through The Darkest Days Of My Life

When I was 18 years old, I was still in high school my parents made me have an abortion. I was pressured to have this done from both of my parents so at the time I did what they asked of me. After I had this done, I was depressed emotionally. I felt like I killed my baby and I wanted to be pregnant again. I felt like I did the worst thing ever.

I hated my parents! I couldn’t stand to be around them. My dad would always tell me that the 250.00 that it cost to have and abortion was the best 250.00 he ever spent. He was a jerk. I was raised in a Lutheran home but we were not Christians. We never read the bible or prayed as a family outside the church. God or Jesus was never mentioned in the home. In the Lutheran church salvation is never mentioned but when I got older I left the Lutheran faith.

Then about 6 months after I had the abortion I left my family’s home and we to Miami Florida. I thought anything could be better than the hell I was in at home. I am from a small city in Tennessee. I was only out of high school from 6 months and Miami was a big city and I went there one time on vacation with my family so I went there. So I went to Miami then I found and feel in love with a man named Jesse. Which thinking anything would be better than my parents home.

Well I went with him and I lived with him for about a month then he wanted me to sell my body for money. Well I did all I can say is that I was young and dumb. But during the 3 years I was doing this sinful sin from 1979-1982. I came close to death so many times. And I was almost shot 2 times. Almost stabbed 1 time, a bunch of women in a car wanted to jump me. Almost kidnapped 1 time, 2 pimps fought over me. I had one pimp who wanted to kill me because I left him. Then I had one in Atlanta. But in Atlanta back then they had maintenance people late at night sweeping and cleaning the streets. And this guy stopped it. I was in jail so many times I couldn’t count. I was on crack cocaine that is how Jesse got me started into prostitution.

Then we moved to Richmond Virginia. But when we moved there there was no drugs to be seen there. I was off of drugs like over a year then I got pregnant with my daughter. So I finally had my daughter. Yes I don’t know who the father of my daughter is but through all this God was always there protecting me. Because 2 times I almost got shot. Both men just stopped in the middle of it and one started crying and the other just said why am I doing this. He said I am sorry. Even though I didn’t feel like a Christian.

God was always there because God wanted me to have my daughter. Because God knew as long as I was at home with my parents I couldn’t have the child I wanted. So he protected me when my daughter. She was 3 months old I went into this church in Richmond Virginia and prayed and prayed to get off the streets. This is the same church who called the police on me because they was having a wedding and I was sitting on a bench on a bus. The doors were open.

So 3 months later I did get off the streets. God was there even when I didn’t think he was. He had a plan for me. He wanted me to have a baby. And he wasn’t going to let no one hurt me. Thank you God for protecting me.

During church 6 months ago God received to me about my baby that aborted. He told me that his name is Thomas and he and then God told me to look at my Daughter. He said that is how Thomas looks like. The Lord told me that he had a light complexion. I just wanted to cry right then. God is so wonderful. He even told me what my baby’s name is and what he looked like.

God told me to write this testimony so I can help other women who are thinking about abortion. Please think about adoption. There are other options other than a abortion. It is like your soul has been ripped out of you and you feel this emptiness that will never go away. Please rethink it! Don’t make the same mistake I did and you feel like you have killed a instant baby that had nothing to do with the circumstances.

But God was always there. He answered my prayer and he gave me a beautiful daughter. Even through my daughter knows how she was conceived. She still loves me and she doesn’t hate me for it. How blessed can I be? And my daughter has told me many times God doesn’t answer prays from non believers.

If you have had an abortion repent, ask God to forgive you for you sin, and get saved. God is the only thing that helped me through that abortion. And I have forgave my parents it took a long time to do that. But through God’s grace I have thank you God for always being there for me and protecting me during the worst times of my life and I LOVE YOU forever. AMEN!

The Sinner’s Prayer

The sinner’s prayer must come from your heart and we hope this will help you to invite Jesus into yours. This prayer is here only as a guide. We urge you to pour out your heart to Jesus in your own words.

“Heavenly Father, have mercy on me, a sinner. I believe in you and that your word is true. I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of the living God and that he died on the cross so that I may now have forgiveness for my sins and eternal life. I know that without you in my heart my life is meaningless.

I believe in my heart that you, Lord God, raised Him from the dead. Please Jesus forgive me, for every sin I have ever committed or done in my heart, please Lord Jesus forgive me and come into my heart as my personal Lord and Savior today. I need you to be my Father and my friend.

I give you my life and ask you to take full control from this moment on; I pray this in the name of Jesus Christ.



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