It’s been a month since my boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up. We got into a huge argument one night and it got so bad we both hit and pushed each other. He walked out the door and never came back. For about a week straight after he left, I continuously called and texted him trying to apologize, but he ended up blocking my number. I went to his job and apologized and told him how much I missed him and needed him in my life, but he told me we couldn’t be together. He told me his parents disapprove of me and so does his friends.
He was my first and only boyfriend I’ve ever had, and even though we argued a lot it was mostly because of me and my attitude. I was always rude towards him and took advantage of him and made him do everything for me.
I feel so horrible about the person that I ‘ve been to him, and I only realize it now that he’s gone. When he left I was so miserable and heart broken that I cried out to God asking him to bring him back. I confessed all of my sins to God and asked him for forgiveness. I even asked my ex for forgiveness and he told me he forgives me and will always love me, but we can’t be together.
It’s been a month and I’m still hurting just like I was the first day he left. I still cry every day. I still pray for hours each day asking God for healing, restoration and guidance. I see no changes and no chance of him coming back.
This situation has taught me so much in just a month. My relationship with God has never been stronger, and even though I trust in God, I still get discouraged every day. I feel so empty and lost and I feel like God has abandoned me, but I continue to try my best and have faith anyway.
Whether God brings my ex back or not, this situation has taught me so much. It’s impacted my life so much. It’s brought me closer to God, and even though I see no changes in my life and I feel like the more I pray the worse things get, I am not going to doubt God. There’s a reason he’s putting me through this. And I know he will bring restoration and happiness someday soon.
Right now, it’s hard for me to even imagine moving on without my ex. I’d give anything to have him in my life again. He accepted me at my worse and I long so much to show him how much I’ve changed. He deserves my best! But regardless of what happens, if God brings him back or not, I will continue to have faith and trust in God. I know God loves me and wants the best for me. And even though I don’t see a way, I know that God does.
Hello darling God is with you right this moment. Don’t be discouraged and don’t lose hope . I feel you because I am currently going through the same situation. My boyfriend left 4 months ago without even telling me the reason for it and only I know what it feels like to be used and treated like trash. I know its hard to keep strong and keeping your hopes high but believe me it’s all worth it in the end when God will reward you for your patience in him. He will give you what he thinks you deserve because we serve a just and miracle working lord. He knows what’s the best for us and when is the best time for us to have it. When you pray cry out to God and ask him to show you his will and he will move mountains to show it to you. Be patient and believe that he is in control. He already has the solution to all your problems you will encounter in your life because he is bigger than anything in your life now and forever. I know the hardest part right now is to wait on God but believe me he knows what you’ve gone through, how many tears you’ve shed or how many times you’ve had an emotional breakdown. He knows everything and he is bringing healing to you if you let him. So depend on God for this and every situation you ever have and he will make a way out. I will pray for you and ask God to bring peace in your heart.
I must share this story with all women especially African American Women “Black” Women.
There was once this beautiful black female who was saved by the grace of our Lord and Savior the Almight God. Who worships the Lord in spirit and in truth all day long to her family and to her friends. Who longed for a Spiritual Romantic Trustworthy True Love Affair Relationship that would hopefully lead to marriage oneday; before she got to old. But instead every Black Man she met and even her Ex’s from the past she hoped that they may be able to rekindle a spiritual lasting relationship because they knew her well; she kept praying so some type of connection to the Black Male because she loves only Black Men, although she has been Abandoned, Betrayed, Lied to, Lied on, Disappoined, Left Fatherless, Left Childless, Beaten, Broken Hearted Feeling Lost Left and Despaired, Used Forgotten and Abused, Lonely Neglected, Raped and Disrespected, time and time again she stills keeps the Faith and Keeps giving the Black King chance after chance, after chance so he won’t ask her to SEND HIM A PICTURE! Those who wait upon the Lord Shall Mount Up With Wings Like an Eagle.