Walking by faith and not sight.
In 2015 I turned 21. I just wanted to have fun. I’m not proud to announce this but I left a toxic relationship, dated a married man, dated a couple guys, got pregnant and had an abortion.
The father influenced me to get it but I was so weak that I did. In April 2015, few weeks after the abortion, I experienced my first outbreak. I was officially diagnosed in July of HSV1 and HSV2. Worst nightmare of my life. Felt like I was dying on the inside from the symptoms and depression. Thought about killing myself. I didn’t tell anyone but an ex from years ago that I trust so I’m battling this alone basically. I searched high and low for a cure. I got scammed out of $2000 for a cure in Africa. I decided to take the medicine but it only made me sicker so I stopped.
I knew there has to be another way out so I turned to the Lord. I read on the Internet that God heals all disease and will heal me without medicine. He died on the across for our sin and sickness. It was extremely hard because I lost my way as a Baptist when I was a teenager so I didn’t know much about God and his word.
I read about building faith and emailed others who I met via Internet that went through the same thing and currently healed. Since 2015, I got back into church, I gained faith, lost it when I didn’t see any results, gained it back, doubted, got discouraged, fell in deep depression, got myself together and gained more faith. It was a roller coaster for me. I came across a ton of helpful articles to help me get through it.
In September 2017, I found a website where I had to decree and declare that I am healed. I said it everyday until I felt in boldly in my heart that I am healed and if I didn’t see results physically doesn’t mean I’m not healed spiritually. I felt like I had my last outbreak that same month because I went 2 months without any signs or symptoms. I was happy and myself again. I thanked God everyday. I said my healing scriptures everyday.
Well this week, Wednesday night after work I called the 700 club prayer hotline so they can continue praying for me as well before getting my final results from the doctor. I got home from work Thursday and noticed something was wrong. It was another outbreak. I found it crazy that I was just prayed over and now this! I broke down and just wanted to jump off of a bridge. I asked myself is this my fate, am I suppose to die with this? Another part of me thought to myself is this apart of the devil’s plan to put me back in doubt? He sees God working on me and getting closer to my breakthrough so he trigger another outbreak.
I prayed my hardest last night, praying that I’m spiritually and physically healed. I promised God I will give my testimony once I see my negative results. But I shouldn’t have to wait on a report, I should believe the truth of God’s word regarding my healing. I won’t be moved by what I see or feel but the truth of words, that I am healed.
Everyone please keep praying for me because everyday is different and gets harder. I pray I receive my blessing spiritually and physically so I can live again. Being healthy is a wonderful feeling and I miss it. I hope my testimony help and encourage someone.
Hi Hope12
I haven’t gone through the same myself but might have some little encouragement. Part of overcoming the devil is sharing your story. (Revelations 12:11) and you are in line for that.
My all time best story is about a bridge keeper. Its quite long but i believe its worth it. Heres how it goes. There was once a bridge which spanned a large river. During most of the day the bridge sat with its length running up and down the river; parallel with the banks, allowing ships to pass freely by on both sides of the bridge. But at certain times each day, a train would come by and the bridge would be turned sideways (90 degrees) across the river, allowing a train to cross it.
A switchman sat in a small shack on one side of the river where he operated the controls to turn the bridge and lock it into place as the train crossed. One evening as the switchman was waiting for the last train of the day, he looked off into the distance through the dimming twilight and caught sight of the train lights. He stepped to the controls and waited until the train was within a specified distance, when he was to turn the bridge. He turned the bridge into position, but, to his horror, he found the locking control on the far side of the bridge did NOT work. If the bridge was not securely “locked” it would wobble back and forth at the ends when the train came onto it, causing the train to jump the track and crash into the river.
Worse still, this was a passenger train with many people aboard. Instinctively, he ran across the bridge to the other side of the river where there was a “manual lock” he could apply to hold the bridge tracks in place. He would have to hold the lever firmly as the train crossed. He could hear the rumble of the train now, as he took hold of the lever and leaned backward to apply his full weight to the lever, locking the bridge. He kept applying the pressure to keep the mechanism locked. Many lives depended on this man doing the right thing.
Then, coming across the bridge from the direction of his control shack, he heard a sound that made his blood run cold. “Daddy, where are you?” His four-year-old son was crossing the bridge to look for him. His first impulse was to cry out to the child, “Run! Run!” But the train was too close; the tiny legs would never make it across the bridge in time. The man almost left his lever to run and grab his son and carry him to safety. But he realized that he could not get back to the lever in time. Either the people on the train or his son must die. He had only a moment to make his decision.
The train sped safely and swiftly on its way, and no one aboard was even aware of the tiny broken body thrown mercilessly into the river by the onrushing train. Nor were they aware of the pitiful figure of the sobbing man, still clinging tightly to the locking lever long after the train had passed. They didn’t see him walking home more slowly than he had ever walked; to tell his wife how their son had brutally died — that others may live.
If you can imagine the emotions which went this man’s heart, you can begin to understand the feelings of our Father in Heaven when He sacrificed His Son to bridge the gap between us and eternal life. Is it any wonder that He caused the earth to tremble and the skies to darken when His Son died?
Now to a God who loves you this much, do you think he will or even can withhold anything from you? Especially if it will make you smile?
I dont know what his will is for you. Im hoping that he heals you but if he doesnt I just wanted to let you know that he loves you. Stick to him always and you will be surprised at what good he has in store for you.
Thank you for this it was very encouraging & I was just reading the book of Matthew.
This young lady shared her story for encouragement. Not to hear someone say “Idk if it’s God’s will”. Its obvious you do not know God’s heart. It is his will for all his children to be healed and healthy. And he is willing just as Jesus told the man with leprosy.
Hi Hope12
Hope you are doing well by now. If not I would recommend you follow Katie Souza on youtube especially regarding his teachings on Dumanis and Glory light.
Blessings
I recommend listening to Joseph Prince’s sermons on Youtube. I’ll never forget what he said in one of his sermons that the symptoms we experience are lying symptoms. You’re already healed…. its just a matter of time you’ll have the 100 fold (Mark 4:20).
I also recommend fasting and prayer. But you can just continue to meditate on healing verses. Healing sometimes is a process (30 fold, 60 fold, 100 fold). I’m soon going to do the 21-Day Daniel fast next month and will pray for your healing as well as mine. I also been told by my doctor I have Herpes type 2. But I don’t claim to have it.
Understand this, you can have doubt but never speak on it. In other words don’t ever say “Its never going to happen” just because that’s how you feel at the moment. Your faith plays a part in your healing.
Also in one Joseph Prince’s sermons he spoke on this verse 1 John 4:17. You should watch it, the title is ” You Stand Permanently In The Favor Of God”. As Christ is so are you in this world. Does Jesus right now in Heaven have Herpes type 2? Nope. Therefore you don’t. Remember the Holy Spirit bare witness to the truth. Your test results will come to be negative no matter what symptoms are you experiencing. IT IS God’s will for you to be Healed! Hope you’ll post your testimony of the miracle you received. It’ll bless and help others.
@hope12
I have a very similar experience as you. Except I contracted it back in 2012 and have had it ever since. I have spent countless hours of research online and spent all kinda money on these supposed “cures”. One day I came across a google search about god healing others. So about 3 months ago I started to pray. I am not yet cured either but I have noticed lately my symptoms are not as bad as before. I went about 7 weeks without an outbreak and just had one yesterday. I popped the blisters and added this iodine to it to kill incubation. It seems to be a very small outbreak again. So I think god is working in me. I have literally prayed every single day for the past month in hopes I am cured. It’s so discouraging I know. I am praying for you and I hope you can get cured too. Would you do the same for me? I’ve been listening to the bible on tape and James 1, Peter, and 1 John have a lot of good things that will help you along your way.. I think. They are eye openers to me.
I currently have met a wonderful girl and haven’t told her yet. It makes me so so upset that I will have to come to that and live with the worry that she might reject me. Part of me wants to just not tell her and hope I’ll be cured before I will have to say anything… I don’t know what to do. If anyone out there has any words of encouragement or cares to share their experience. Please do.
I pray you get well soon if you haven’t already stay strong God loves you and wants to see you healed trust in God and it will be done God bless~
Dear Hope12,
Your story sounds so much like mine. I was in a toxic relationship for 8 years, my ex boyfriend used to cheat and abuse me and for some years i believed he would change and grow up. My faith was not strong at all back then and i eventually fell into some bad company. Partying and drinking and trying to look for love. I got involved with two people and then the nightmare started. I got my first outbreak and then a second. I did 4 tests and to my surprise two were negative and two are positive. Both parties denied having anything and both parties got married and the women are in perfect health. My ex of 8 years as well got married and his wife has nothing as well. Seems like the only one in the picture that has an issue is me.
I then got involved with a man and got pregnant and unfortunatelty, i lost my precious baby girl at 5 months. My faith since then has grown and i know God will heal us. I have never accepted any diagnosis of herpes. I believe that the devil tries so hard to derail people from their God given glory. At times when i pray I beg God to remove anything from me that is not from him and right after i feel like i want to vomit and the more i continue to pray the more i want to vomit.
Let us continue to pray for each other and God WILL heal us. Keep the faith.
I pray you get well soon if you haven’t already stay strong God loves you and wants to see you healed trust in God and it will be done God bless~