After a painful breakup from a long-lasting relationship, I have been in a very bad mental state and began to develop slight symptoms of OCD. I have had those occasionally when I was younger, but I had it more or less under control. But at that time had a rough period of my life, relationship-wise, and on top of that the OCD symptoms got worse and worse.
My OCD symptoms were various. It was relationship OCD (like worrying about doing things in relationship wrong, so that the other person would not mind, extreme worries about lying to the other person, for example when telling a story or anything really, I was replaying the conversations in my head over and over just to make sure I did not lie).
However, I was still relying on God to heal me. I was asking him, begging him to make it better, but it never worked.
One day, I had a dream. in that dream I was standing in a dark water, trying to catch different things from my backpack (like bible, laptop, etc.) It was really horrible feeling. Then, the dream changed, and I was crawling on a frozen lake, and I was dragging the backpack behind me, on a string. But I heard the ice cracking. I woke up and felt very a strong God’s presence in the room. However, I had no idea what the dream meant. I was praying about it but heard nothing.
Later (I think it was the same day) I was sitting at work, and suddenly it was clear to me – the dream was about what is going on in my head. I was thinking about it, but I did not figure out what to do with it. Couple of weeks after, I went to a meeting of Christians, focused on an encounter with Holy Spirit.
During the time for worship / prayers, one woman came to me and said that she had a vision of me, laying down on a perfect, clean water. It was a very peaceful image. However, my OCD still did not get significantly better after that. Moreover, other symptoms developed over time (I had a horrible words / phrases repeating in my head, I was scared about harming another people, I had distressing sexual images etc.)
Couple of weeks after that, I went to a second meeting, and the women who had the vision was there. I told people about my dream and her vision. We also were both reminded of the verse from 1st Corinthians, 2:16: But we had the mind of Christ. At that time, I started dating my now husband, but my OCD got so bad, that I even considered breaking up with him because I felt like a burden.
However, after those supernatural experiences where God showed me, he wanted me to be healed, I have decided to put my trust in him. I decided not to go to a doctor and have pills subscribed but decided to rely full on God’s healing. I stopped begging and started claiming my healing.
It took some time, but now, 1.5 years after that experience, I am healthy. I do not take any pills, I function normally, I married my husband, and we are starting a business together. And I am not suffering mentally anymore. God is good, and nothing but good. All the glory belongs to Him. He is our savior and loves us.
i do sufferer from OCD right now and i have lost if anxiety and just the thought of always being impatient and it’s very hard for people to understand what goes in my head because they don’t understand like i do like when someone says they will be there and they are not and now i worry about that all the time with everything and i don’t know how to fix or work around it and my boyfriend says everything happens for a reason and i really truly believe that but it is hard to work around all these thoughts in my head like my head never stop turning and never shut off and it get very overwhelming a lot of the times and i just don’t know how to work through them. and your story helped me understand that everything will work out in time you just have to wait for God to put it in place for you.
Keep your hope and faith alive. God makes all things beautiful in His time. God will surely glorify Himself at the right time. Don’t give up. All things are possible to them that believe.
May the Lord heal you perfectly in Jesus name.
Shalom