I was born in 1959, I was never very goods at making friends, I always found it easier to make friends with girls than boys. I sometimes played dolls with my cousin, and would play dress up with a girl at her house when I was in elementary school. I was molested in elementary school, that event in my life caused me to block out the molestation, I have since forgiven that person.
I continued to cross-dress and became confused about my gender-identity. As I got older I started dating girls, but I would always sabotage the relationship. After high school I had a few homosexual affairs dressed as a woman. I was smoking cigarettes as well as marijuana, and drinking at the age of 16. knowing I could get the alcohol at the liquor store because he sold to minors. I never really got addicted to drugs, and I had lost many friends and relatives to drug use.
I got married in 1996 the marriage broke up in 2000 when she walked out, she knew how I felt about drug use, and she was not willing to give it up. I started cross dressing again near the end of the marriage. By that time I had been in the hospital for health related problems.
In 2008, at the age of 49 I had my first stroke, as well as other health related problems, if it was not for the stroke I would not have given up smoking, or been delivered from my cross-dressing. I was still struggling with my porn addiction in the early part of 2014, I have been delivered from my addiction to porn.
I know as we get older we put away the foolish things we have done in our past. I have prayed for many years to be delivered, but was not sure I wanted to give it up to god. I am so thankful that God has been patient and has delivered me.