Okay, this is just too much for my little human mind to fathom. So, Im going with my spiritual mind frame instead.
Okay now as some of you may or may not know I’ve been unemployed since June 10, 2008. And that’s unusual for me because I love to work and it’s the way I like to spend my time. Job offers have been few and in-between since then, but I been praying, and praying, and praying and praying AND PRAYING. Fasting and everything.
So, finally I wake up this morning I decide I’m not praying no more. I’m a fuss with God instead. I was just like Jesus, I know you love me and everything, but I wouldn’t even want to spend this much time with me. So why you want to spend this much time with me? I’m not employed. My cell phone is off. I have no money. My bills steady stacking. So, Im saying lord did I pray wrong? Not enough faith? Did I do something wrong ? I mean lord let me know something because my patience is thin.
So, I’ve just have reached my breaking point, so I thought.
Not even five minutes later I checked my email. In one email this fellow Christian woman said someone sent her my resume. Which I didn’t know who. And she had over 13 job offers and interviews ready for me in person or over the phone. Each of them I would be making a minimum of $22 an hour or $55,000 or more in salary. Could you just see me sitting there with my foot in my mouth? Oh, I got some apologizing to do to the Lord.
Sitting there like Brown from Meet The Browns, “I’m sorry” lol. It is true what they say when you really going through it. Proclaim your blessings and give God the glory because your breakthrough is about to come through. I repented and blessed his name. But it shouldn’t of took that. I should’ve had faith and taken God on his word and his promise any way. God’s word can not return unto him void. “Ask and it will be given to you” Matthew 7:7. He didn’t say some things. Or whatever you think I’m capable of but ASK and it WILL be given unto YOU.
Also in in Mark 11:24 “Therefore, I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe you have received it and it will be yours”. Not some things or a few you but WHATEVER.
And it goes on “And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him/her, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you for your sins”.
Not easy but self-explanatory. I would’nt let no one stop my blessings from God. With a silly grudge not easy but think about your forgiveness from God and what you’re holding yourself back from. I betcha it’ll get a whole lot easier.
But this is my testimony to others. God is good all the time. Just trust in him if nothing else. When everything else fails you, he won’t. I’m so thankful. You know I really been going through it, if I was ready and willing to share some of that embarrassment with the world.
But I don’t care what no one thinks of me. This is about God’s glory and grace. And his unfailing mercy and unconditional love. Now somebody ought to praise. Thank you, Jesus. Glory be to God. Jesus Christ is lord! Hallelujah!
P.S. Don’t forget I’m only 19 years old! No college degree, yet! Okay, so if it ain’t God, you tell me what it is?