My whole life I’ve always had a wish to see God himself. But everyone told me I wouldn’t because humans cannot see God. But recently I’ve been struggling because of anxiety and depression, and doubts. Like how come he chose us, mere humans, out of the many species of alien life around us in an infinite universe.
Soon though I went into confessions and confessed about doubts because of these recent things. I was praying with a Bible, when I go to return it to my home’s altar, the candle on it was smoking, smoke coming out of it, while it wasn’t even on. It was just there smoking, I almost cried of excitement. I saw God, maybe just a part of God but it was a glorious day.
When I was in doubts, God showed me through the Bible, that He is real, I’ve opened the Bible to the exact same page, 4 times in a row. The last time I said,
“If you’re real, then flip to the same page.”
It flipped to the exact same page. Not alone, I opened the book with God guiding me.
Another time, I was in my room, sorry for this word but, disrespecting the flesh (masturbating), when I said, “this isn’t right I should stop,” so I put my iPod to sleep and get up. I go downstairs, and them I go back upstairs, and there was this foul smell, of sulfur, and I felt a wicked presence.
I didn’t feel scared because I felt God with me, so I bowed down on my knees and prayed the Our Father… I stand back up and command the “being” to leave in the name of Jesus. I suggest not to do that, because you can be punished by God for saying that, I read it somewhere I think I’m revelations something that goes like this “When I come back, some people will yell “Jesus, we’ve done many miracles in your name!” I will say “get away from me you wicked people!” So, idk what he means, but I think it has something to do with what I said. So, I’ll never say that again.
Then this last one, it happened yesterday night, when I was having an anxiety attack, I yelled in my house while I was home alone,
“GOD!! Why have you forgotten me, why do you permit me to feel this way, why have you forsaken me Lord!”
I go on to list everything I was sorry for my sins and actions, to which I said,
“God please! Help me, please!!”
In a mere instant, my anxiety leaves, it’s just gone. And that’s why, you should always pray. He will help you!
“I suggest not to do that, because you can be punished by God for saying that, I read it somewhere I think I’m revelations something that goes like this “When I come back, some people will yell “Jesus, we’ve done many miracles in your name!” I will say “get away from me you wicked people!” So idk what he means, but I think it has something to do with what I said. So I’ll never say that again.”
I loved your testimony! But it seems you might’ve misinterpreted what that meant. God didn’t mean it’s a sin to call on His name. He was referring to all the sinners and wicked people who, in the end times, will think they are Christians and can get into Heaven because they’ve done miracles in His name. As the Bible says in Matthew 7:21:
Not everyone who claims to be saved and holy and ready for the kingdom of God actually are, no matter the miracles they perform. Doing miracles alone does not guarantee a spot in Heaven. Following the Lord and doing as He commands does. I hope this helped you understand.
Forgive me if I’ve misunderstood, but it sounds like you’re saying we’re saved by doing good works. Jesus did His part of salvation perfectly, so if we have to be obedient to be saved, we have to be PERFECTLY obedient, which is impossible. I am NOT condoning sin. If you love Jesus, you shouldn’t want to sin. But “doing as He commands” isn’t going to get you into Heaven, because NO ONE always does as the Lord commands. Anyone who claims to be 100% obedient is either deceived or lying. You get to Heaven by trusting in Jesus death on the cross for sins. Period. The people who said “Lord, Lord” and Jesus said He never knew them, were BRAGGING about ALL THE STUFF THEY DID. That’s the point of the passage. It’s not ANYTHING we did. It’s what HE DID. Sorry about all the caps. That’s for emphasis, I’m not yelling. Again, if I misunderstood what you meant, sorry.
I don’t really know how to start this comment but here goes nothing…
When I was 6 years old my stepbrother who was 9 years old, we’re playing in my room just before bed one night. My window didn’t have a curtain on it, and we could see out to the east that the moon was rising above the tree line illuminating the clouds up above. For some strange reason my brother and I both stood shoulder to shoulder and looked out of the window at the clouds and how luminous they were.
All of the sudden the clouds parted way reveling a brilliantly lit white wall and a golden arched gate which had glowing white figures standing in line in front of the gate waiting to get through. There was a white figure just to the right of the golden gate who would check one of the figures in line at a time.
Each time the left door of the gate would open allowing one figure to enter at a time about every minute or so. I can’t really give you and accurate time of how often the gate opened because time seem to be irrelevant at that exact moment. Looking behind the gates there was a large white staircase the led up to the right. I could see two white robed figures that looked as if they had their heads looking down and grand held up to their face as if to be praying with each step up the staircase.
One of the figures was about 1/3 of the way up the stairs and the other was about 2/3 of the way up. As my eyes continued to be mesmerized by all that is happening at this point. I have no recollection of my brother standing next to me. My eyes begin to follow the stairs up to the top where I am immediately drawn to a massive being of light and golden armor who dwarfed the robed figures that were walking up the stairs. The massive being was steadfast sitting on a throne unlike anything I have ever witnessed. Just to the right of this throne I could just barely make out a white robed figure that was standing at the feet of this massive being no bigger than the robed figures walking up the stairs.
As I bear witness to all that is happening, the massive being sitting on the throne turns his head and looks directly down at me with the most brilliant spiraling tunnel of golden white light. As I look through this tunnel, I cannot see a face but the only words I said aloud while looking were OH MY GOD!
It was at that moment my heart started to pound and I turned around and ran out of the room with my brother right behind me. We make it out to the living room, and I yelled,
“Did you see that!”
And he said,
And I yelled,
We then slowly worked our way back into my room once we could see back out the window. All that we saw were dimly lit clouds by the rising moons light…it was years before we could talk about this. We haven’t shared this with many people but please feel free to ask any questions you may have, and I would gladly answer to the best of my knowledge.
All I can be certain is that one day I am going to walk through that golden arched gate and pray with every step up that staircase to meet my Lord and savior Jesus Christ and my creator god himself. I know I will never be alone in this life or in heaven.