I need your answer, my Lord.
God, my heavenly father, please save me from these pains. This year, I had to leave my only sister whom I’d always wanted to protect from evil relatives, so I lost the meanings of my life. But you soon sent me a guy who led me back to Church, in the opposite side of the earth. We fell in love each other. I didn’t know why but I couldn’t resist to this love for the first time in my life. With the help of him and his family, I came back to your arms after 15 years of wandering.
I wanted to forgive all of my relatives and start new life with him who was the first and only guy I’ve ever trusted and loved. We talked about marriage, but he wasn’t in a good condition to support us. After a few months, I had to come back to my country with Visa problem, after then he suddenly abandoned me. I don’t know what the exact reason was. He just told me that he had never loved me…
But I still remember his voice message crying with love and pains, which I heard in airport. He even posted a message on his SMS just 2 days before our break up:
“If God wants, no matter how long time it takes, no matter how far away from each other, we gonna meet again.”
What happened? I don’t know. I became crazy and begged him to come back, but he was so cold and stubborn. He said that he was praying for me everyday but he didn’t want to come back to me. Oh, Father, why do you leave your daughter in these pains?
Things got worse after then. My parents started to deny me, sometimes saying they want me to die, as they used to do when I was young. They cut all the financial support and gave me verbal abuse to reduce their pains of losing my sister. My personal doctor gave me the test result with a critical health problem.
I couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep and couldn’t walk. I often fell down on the street with diziness and started to cry. Some of my friends left me but the other friends tried to protect me and staied with me but we didn’t know what to do. I tried to meet new guys but failed, and I realized more love for my ex.
There was something inside of me which prevent me from giving up. No one in my friends want me to get back my ex. They all said
“Even you don’t have any way to go back to his country.”
After 2 months, I just got a sudden job opportunity in the country of my ex, but with limited time… When I said I don’t have any money to buy airline ticket, mother of my best friends suggested a little financial help. I thought It was you, my heavenly father, who showed me this hope. But when I said my ex about this news and asked him if God had given him any message, he answered me No. He even said that it’s not God’s will that we start again. Why does he speak like that? What did he see from us?
God… I prayed you every day and night, reading your words from the Bible, but my Lord, I can’t see anything about my future. Here is just deep darkness for me. I thought that you had answered to my prayer with a job opportunity, but my ex said that he had never given any message from you.
Is it possible that you just show your will to one side of us? I really don’t know what your will is. I know, you showed me the word “Patience” in the Bible, but now I become confused what if I misunderstood your message? I am not wise enough, so please show me in a way that I can understand.
Something bad happened again. A friend whom I always have believed as your good servant from Church, demanded my body to satisfy himself. He cried like a beast with his sexual desire for me, I was really shocked. When I asked him if he could leave God for my body, he said yes. How can this happen? God, my Lord, what is this? I cut all the contacts with him after then, but still am so scared.
Now, my ex never contacts me, some of our common friends said that he looks totally happy without me. His family members who often talked with me with support don’t contact me anymore. A few days ago, I cut my wrist, crying and asking you why you don’t answer my prayer. Please at least let me know your will. I will follow it, because I know you always know what the best for me is.
God… My Lord… I am too weak and sick. I can’t stand these pains. I need your help. I can’t see anything for my future. Please let me know what I have to do. Please give me a wisdom to distinguish your will from whispers of evil things. Protect me my Lord, let me stay in your arms and never abandon me.
Melissa, The Lord is near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18); He is right there sobbing and crying with you. He has not abandoned you nor will he ever abandon you. He loves you more deeply than you could ever imagine or love in your own strength. Romans 8:28 explains that God, in all things, works for the good of those that love him. Your love for the Father is intimate, He is all that you have. He is not punishing you or withholding love from you. He is protecting you from so much and providing for you in so many ways that you cannot even understand.
I know that times are hard and that you feel broken, rejected, abandoned, and hurt. But God is moving in all things for your good. Continue to trust in Him, He is your hope. Do not put your hope in the things of the world, your ex boyfriend, your family. Put your hope in Him and trust the way He moves in your life, even if it might not be what you expect. He LOVES you! He is right beside you crying with you. He is healer, He is provider, He is protector. Like John 15, abide in Him and He will abide in you. Draw near to Him and He will draw near to you. Do not be hurt by His delay in response, but trust that He is working in ALL things for your good. Let His Holy Spirit comfort you and heal you. He is all you need. Don’t give up, but remain steadfast in His love.
Hi dear,
I can understand what you are going through. But one thing I wanted to tell is, just be calm. God has a plan for you. Do not worry or cry. Because when you cry, he cries. Do you think he is just a person who will see your tears and just go away? He becomes very weak when you cry. He is so kind my dear. The world will cheat you, will never understand you, nobody is ready to give shoulders. But he will. If you go away from him also, he will come for you.
What I usually do at my worst times is
Sit, take bible, cry as much as you want to jesus papa. Because he will only hear. Tell him that you want the answer speedily. Ask him to let you know the barriers which causing you not to hear his voice. He will direct you. Tell him to control you. When you are finished with your cry and if you think your mind is calm, tell him that you should speak and open the bible. At this time, you can hear his voice.
Dear, really idk how many yes are there in bible. But always I ask him, tell me whether it is Yes or No. I use to open the bible and read. And here, you will get the answer for your pricking thing. If it is yes, wait for god to act. If it is No, think for good, god answers you negatively and continue your prayers.
CRY but only to god dear. He hears you any time. Because he never sleeps nor slumbers. He is the love. He will comfort you. He will wipe out your tears. He will gently tap and sing a lullaby for you at your sleepless nights. He will hug you and give his shoulders when nobody else. He will do all this, because HE LOVES YOU AND DIED FOR YOU!!
Jesus is crazy for you. GOD BLESS YOU DEAR!!!
with love and prayers,
Mary.
Hey Melissa,
As much as we each experience the “matters of the heart”, I’m telling you now, no one understands our hearts, needs, desires then our Heavenly Daddy himself.
I would like to say I know what you’re going through but in truth I don’t. But I have experience in life, what it feels like to have a heart broken, crushed, hurt and also the unconditional love and encouragements that I received to get over that season, to have my heart put back together in His love, to have hope also.
I have also learnt in life, when I chose to pursue God after so many heart aches, I have gotten to known our Daddy in Heaven in His glory (amazing) and his pure LOVE for his children and the things that I thought we’re so important became mere lessons that we learn in our path.
I too fell in love with a man that instantly became my world, I put him on a pedestal for all to see, my hope, my life, my world was evolved around him like nothing other…he was perfect being made only for me. Reality hit one day when my whole universe came crashing down when he finally confessed what he did something behind my back. At first I couldn’t breath, I thought I was having a nightmare and pretty soon I will wake up and everything will be alright. But NO none of that came, I wanted to crawl into a hold and just die, all my hopes, dreams smashed in front of me and worst thing of all was we had a son together whom was then 5 years old.
What I’m saying is, God rescued me from this, he started speaking hope, love, acceptance, forgiveness in my heart at the same time, I felt Him wrapped me in his arms everyday I needed comfort to assure He’s there every step of my journey. It didn’t happen over night (which I wished it would hehe) but it happened within a space of 6-8months. From my 1st heart breaking experience I have chosen to put God first in everything. Trusting him with all my heart but that was a journey itself, my trust and hope was put in men which from experiences have failed each time. Our Heavenly Father right up to this day have NEVER, EVER FAILED ME!
I chose to FALL IN LOVE with my heavenly Father first, and boy there is no way to describe what it is like to love your Father in Heaven…it is a fulfilling love that no man under heaven can match and by putting our Heavenly Father first, over the years he started to restore everything that was taken away from me, my relationships, and he renewed and restored me back to the man that broke my heart and now we’re happily married and our son is 17years…
Don’t be afraid to put your TRUST in God, He knows your heart, your mind, everything about you, but He is also a gentleman to wait to be invited by you to these areas of your life. And it’s OK to be you, after all our Heavenly Father is totally inlove with you! Chat with him girl, our Father is NOT LIMITED TO ANYTHING…also in his word in the bible he will reveal his love letters to you and I’m telling you, that will give you hope, as you watch your desires in God come to pass.
I leave with ALL OF HIS LOVE OVERFLOW OVER YOUR LIFE, may you find that intimate connection and then your spiritual eyes will see His glory that you can walk in daily. It’s always been your inheritance in Him, you dont’ have to earn it but believe HE IS THE ALPHA AND THE OMEGA, HE IS THE BEGINING AND THE END AND EVERYTHING IN BETWEEN!
Hey dear,
I can’t really say I understand what you are going through. I’ve had tonnes of struggles in my life and one thing that always comes out clear is that EVERYTHING WORKS TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO THOSE THAT LOVE GOD AND ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE.
God ALWAYS gets His will done. If He wants you and your ex to be back together, nothing in this world can stop Him. Maybe He needs time (your ex) to man up and know what a beautiful girls he’s missing in you. God can make Him realise that if you let Him do His thing.
Also you should be open to the fact that God loves you too much to let you get involved with just anybody. He has the right perfect guy for you. Maybe this guy is not your ex thats why He’s cutting him off your life before He messes up His wonderful plan for you. He says in Jeremiah 29:11 that I ALONE KNOW THE PLANS I HAVE FOR YOU. PLANS TO BRING YOU PROSPERITY AND NOT DISASTER. PLANS TO BRING ABOUT A FUTURE AND A HOPE.
Keep trusting Him and He’ll never fail you.
Dear Lord,
Help my guy (Joel) to able to trust me and understand me. Lord I give him to U to change him and help him to stop being angry with me, please I may have done things am not aware of plz forgive me and forgive him too. Our relationship was built on a very uncomfortable grounds lord U R the all make and I pray for U to make it a comfortable one for us. Help me to gain de love he has for me because U are the all loving father. Lord please help me. My boyfriend is giving up on me. We are in a long distance relationship and I think he’s getting tired of it. Please don’t let him give up on us I love him so much. Help us find a way to be together, I wanna be with him for the rest of my life. Enlighten his mind and remove all the worries away. Lord God I know nothing is impossible to you, v supposed to get marry but now i lost him because of my mom i told her that until and until he is settled ill not get marry but she messed up everything she only thing of money and property she gave bad word to his parents because of her mistake she beat me with shoes and now i’m 26 years old in this age she beat me with it? and being a mother she gave bad words and said many bad things to Joel’s parents.