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God Loves Us Always

I have believed in Jesus most of my life although I didn’t have a relationship with Him until about six years ago. A couple years later I met some people who changed my thinking. One said they used to do witchcraft but claimed they were now Christian. I thought they were decent people. Something seemed a little off, but I didn’t know what.

The more I was around these people I started slipping back to my old ways. It was as if I didn’t realize what I was doing. I started drinking again, listening to music other than Christian, cussing again, taking God’s name in vain, eventually I started to hate God and blame Him for everything wrong. I’m married and even became attracted to a guy.

After hanging around the woman who was “formerly” in witchcraft, I started suspecting something more. Things she would say would be things and thoughts I would have when not around her.

The same with the guy. It was though they could read my mind and tell things I did in the past and present. Only they would mention these things as if about other people. It just sounded too coincidental. I suspected they knew each other and later found out they did. I would tell the woman things about him, and she didn’t let on about anything. There is a lot more I won’t get into here.

Obviously they are into occult practices. Witchcraft, Satanism, divination. It all comes from Satan. It is kind of funny people are into other religions apart from God and are not aware they all come from the same source. Satan. White or Black Magic, Witchcraft, Satanism, Wiccan, and more.

Demons work through different religions and practices to provide powers that when people performing the rituals or prayers associated with these different practices, think they are getting the power from the ritual itself. It all comes from demons working for Satan.

Later I started posting nude pics of myself on a popular website. I started slandering people I was angry with. I was out of control. It was as if I had changed into a different person. It was like I was going back to my past life of sin.

These people were on the site too and started to try to bring me down. Mocking me, making fun of me, being really hateful. I started getting hateful back. Back and forth it went. On and on and on. I started talking and reaching out to God because there was no one else to help.

My husband said to ignore it. Just forget about it. I needed someone to understand. The only one I could turn back to was God.

I wasn’t sure God and I was ok. One night I was out walking and went a different direction than I intended. I was lead to a vehicle that had a bible verse on it.

“Neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:39.

I knew it was going to be ok. God was always there just waiting for me to come back to Him. He didn’t leave me. I left Him.

Now I am not blaming the people I was around. I should have had on the armor of God. I let my relationship with Jesus slide. It seemed like more fun to be around people and trying to fit in a little. I shouldn’t have let the devil have a foot hold by entertaining thoughts from others that are of sin.

These people did not like me from the beginning. The more I was around them the more insults they would throw my way. It was like they were trying to cause me to lose my faith, make me go crazy and discredit my testimony.

The devil is the father of lies and he starts with the mind. He uses people that are willing to do his dirty work. He hates all people and doesn’t mind taking them to hell for eternity along with him. I love these people and pray for them to turn to Jesus before it’s too late.

I am not by any means perfect. Before I began a relationship with Jesus, my life was full of sin. I had sex with many men and some females. I was in a lesbian relationship for a year. I was a stripper. I cheated on my ex-husband. I’ve had three husbands. I’ve prostituted, done drugs and had a drinking problem. I had three abortions.

I have committed so many sins. God has forgiven me for all my sins. He can and will forgive you of yours too. All you have to do is ask him with a sincere heart and He will. 1 John 1:9,

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.”

  • I am a new creation in God, 2 Corinthians 5:17.
  • No weapon formed against me shall prosper, Isaiah 54:17.
  • God will destroy all witchcraft, Micah 5:12.
  • If you backslide, Jesus will take you back, Luke 15:11-32.
  • If you go astray, he will come looking for you, Luke 15:4-7.
  • He wants no one to perish, 2 Peter 3:9.
  • Jesus came here for sinners, Mark 2:17.
  • Jesus is the only way to salvation, John 14:6.
  • Jesus will never cast you out, John 6:37.
  • God will wipe away every tear, Revelation 21:4.
  • When all others forsake you, He won’t, Deuteronomy 31:6.
  • Even if your parents forsake you, He will not, Psalm 27:10.
  • Turn to Jesus and repent and he will forgive you of all your sins, Hebrew 8:12.
  • God is a merciful god, Psalm 86:15 and Ephesians 2: 4-5.

If you are into occult practices or deep in sins turn away and turn to Jesus. You can’t serve God and Satan too. You must choose one or the other. Exodus 20:3,

“You shall have no other gods before me.”

Galatians 5:19-21,

“The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.”

I pray for God to cover this testimony with the blood of Jesus. I pray that this testimony blesses all who will read it. In Christ Jesus our Lord’s name, Amen. To God be the glory.


  1. cheeryleesa 3/4/2014
  2. Joy 3/4/2014
  3. Sarah 3/17/2014

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